Vanilla Journey

[ElChe]

--Intro and Motivation--

Dear skilled seducer,

I want this journal to have two purposes:

1. To serve my own personal growth and skill in seduction– by being a “success journal” of pieces of action and success I've taken.
2. To inspire and be of use to every comrade who wishes to improve their life, spirit, and happiness via seduction.

I don't know if these two goals can always be in harmony.

But we'll see what happens.


–Motivation for Seduction–

Here is a new belief I have. For a while, I didn't believe this, but now I do.

-If women are your friends…
-And you love all your friends…
-And you want to stand for something– to stand for excellence in the face of every woman and friend in your life…
-Then you will learn to seduce like crazy!

Excellence in seduction means something different for everyone but here is my explanation for my belief:

Earlier this year, I fell for a really awesome woman. She was my dance teacher and I learned so many valuable things from her.

I tried to pull her into my life as a friend… but completely fucked it up.

It made me sit back and reflect.

“How did this happen?”
“I couldn't let go of my love for this woman for like 7 months, and it culminated in a really stupid moment.
And now we won't ever be friends and I won't ever receive any guidance in my embodiment and letting go practices from her, or have the opportunity to be a good person and supporter for her.”
“What the fuck?”

Ultimately, I told myself–
“if… I had an abundance of women in my life… to the point I could let any woman go… I maybe wouldn't have made the missteps I made in this situation.”

I believe my lack of growth as a man caused me to act in a way I didn't want to.

And so I'm going to change that.

For her and for myself and for my friends and for women and for humanity and for happiness.

I want to inspire the beautiful women in my life (and the ones not in my life)... so I'm going to show them something awesome..!!

(Watch this!)

I'm choosing to move towards excellence even if it forces me to face and let go of a ton of nasty emotions. And I have decided that learning to meet women anywhere, and creating an awesome connection, and seducing them… is equal to excellence for me, at this point in my life.

https://imgur.com/a/oZ0Pzos

~~~

 

[ElChe]

--Ground and Burst--

I am a genuine cold approach noob.
But girls really like me and I really like them.

Girls give me life energy! And I give them inspiration and belief.

Thus, cold approach (specifically day game) will be the bridge that connects me to an abundance of beautiful and awesome women.

It is a key part of my goals for the next year.

Here is the plan and vision for this next school year (my final year in college):

There are 6 key points that are the foundation of how I want to live.

1. Every day I do an hour of my embodiment/letting go practices.
2. I'll make awesome memories with my friends
3. I'll live a healthy lifestyle (food, sleep, exercise)
4. I do good in school (and learn all I can about computer science)
5. I keep up my approach routine and keep improving my seduction skills
6. I keep up my freelancing routine (for web development)

All of these are passive except the approaching and freelancing. But the freelancing one might make things more difficult, and I may have to put it on pause for a bit… maybe. We'll see.

Now back to approaching and seduction.

I am going to go out to approach (on my college campus + maybe a couple other places I can find) 3 days per week.

Each day I'll approach 3 cute girls and 1 cool guy.

I'll follow Chase's book, “How to Make Girls Chase” for now. Probably until I get a solid “meet to bed” process.
I'll also be working on other stuff, like fashion, and embodiment, that helps boost my seduction and social ability.

Listen.

I want to make meeting and seducing women my greatest skill by February 20th, 2025.
(Other than drawing. I don't think anything will ever top my drawing skill)
But it will happen in its own way.

And also pay close attention to this→

Wisdom to the reader:

My little approach habits and improvement process may SEEM simple, but it's not.

Every day that I go out to approach, there are a lot of little details to address. Things like: social momentum, how happy and open I feel, how much I'm letting go of neediness, whether I'm having fun, whether I'm giving value, etc etc.

The key thing I want to say is that these are all specific to me. I'm focusing on being more open because I walk around campus kinda pissed and closed off (maybe it's a young person thing but also I have felt a lot of negative feelings towards school). I'm focusing on being casual and letting go of neediness because I want women to feel comfortable and safe around me. And so on.

It's all stuff that I've noticed in myself. I'm starting from my specific skill level, and letting go of all judgment and expectation.

To the reader: I recommend you also make your journey and your thoughts and everything very specific to you. Because only you know you.
Occasionally, a mentor's insight will blow open your progress (make sure to be open to that) but the performance and little details are all you.

End of wisdom.

–Successes on day 1–

I went to a small city 1 hour away from my hometown.
I was meeting up with a woman but wanted to do some approaching before.
Here's how it went.

• I did my embodiment work on the train ride. I focused on grounding and self esteem (feeling in your stomach area), and also let go of whatever current thoughts or feelings I had towards women. I'm getting into a great routine for this stuff
• When I got off the train, I was chilling in the waiting area a bit. These two women walked in. They were confused about how to purchase a ticket. I liked the energy of one of them (she had beautiful woman energy). At some point I chimed in, and they turned around and we made eye contact. I was focused on being relaxed and speaking without expectation. The woman with beautiful energy (she's older, and still good-looking, but I could tell she was a beauty when she was younger) goes and sits next to me as I explain how to buy a ticket. We start pulling in other people into the conversation. Eventually I steer it off the train shit and ask them where they're from, and if they know any cool places to go in that city. The vibes are good. Eventually I exit and wish them a good day and tell the woman with beautiful energy “I'm gonna go explore” and she gives me a very cute smile/smirk. Her smile made my day (until the other thing that made me day). What a nice and wonderful interaction!
• Then I'm walking around and it's Sunday so people are out to church. I tell myself I'm gonna give one girl a compliment. I see a girl going to church by herself in a pretty dress. We cross paths. I was too scared to compliment her. Soon I will start releasing that fear!
• Then I walk around to this place that the other woman recommended me. I'm focused on being open and feeling good (and my posture lol). At some point I see a milf walking her dog. She has a similar body type to my ex dance teacher (my oneitis). I really want to talk to her! And she seems somewhat open. I was about to pull out the “are you single” line. But again, I didn't do it. I should start with openers that create less tension, probably.
• So I'm walking around and most of the people there are families. But whatever. I make a commitment again to approach one girl. Eventually I make a situational comment to a chubby girl and she laughs and responds and walks away lol. Hey, practice is practice
• Then I take an Uber to where I'm meeting up with my date for the day. There are just tons of moms around. One of them is hot. She's also on a phone conversation with her husband
• Eventually I meet up with my date and my full focus is to make her feel good.
• The vibes are awesome! We converse and have a very fun time. We're friends and are both glad to be spending time with each other
• We go to eat. It's a wonderful date. I feel really good and I'm vibing a lot. Fun times!
• A lot of fun details and moments happened on that date. Very cute moments. I liked it a lot.
• Eventually we go to our private place. And uh. We kinda just take all our clothes off. Fun times!
• My performance was extremely “OK”. It was a bit uninspired. But given the context of our dynamic, it was great and wonderful.
• We fuck a couple times
• The most beautiful part of the day was our after-sex talk. It was very cute. I told her we both had to make a wish for each other. We talked about where we saw each of our lives in a year, and a specific goal we had. Hers was a secret. But I'm sure her goal will come true (I have very powerful wishes..!)

• My wish? My wish was to meet and date a dancer-- a brunette. The replacement of my oneitis. I told her how I wanted to meet her copy except awesomer, and cooler, but also super embodied and quirky and creative and an amazing person and more beautiful and sexier and of course– 10 years younger.
• I told the current woman I was in bed with that I was gonna meet this other girl and then break her heart. She said “I can't pray for that”. I said I was just kidding, that I would let her go as gently as possible if we separated, OR I would bring her along on my plans of international adventure.
• The woman in my bed and I locked pinkies and she promised to pray for my wish and my peace and happiness. I promised her that her wish would come true (it will).
• Our parting interaction was pure wholesomeness and beauty. Very honest and authentic and pure. A real blessing of human interaction. We embraced and kissed and I wished her a wonderful day and when we parted ways she said “I'm getting emotional, I have to go ”.
• Thus ended my special moment of connection

• I went to a restaurant by myself after and bought some soup lol. I felt good.
• Then I walked around and bought some juice and went back to sleep.

The next day, another fun moment happened (it's a secret )

I've met and had really cool connections with a lot of strangers over the past few weeks. It's been incredible.

For now, I'm focusing on my successes. I approached. I connected with strangers and friends. I'm getting more open. I'm more attractive overall (definitely) than when I was at my peak years ago when I actually tried with women, and in terms of specific skills (eye contact, flirting, deep diving, etc) I'm either better or almost as good as I was before.

And then, now I have new skills like embodiment and more emotional intelligence (which is awesome because I was already very emotionally intelligent in the past!).

Good things. Good things.

And now?
Now I gotta go to the hospital because my sister's baby is about to be born! Holy crap!

 

[ElChe]

-- Week one: Silly week --
(I wrote this late August but kept forgetting to post it here. I had some nice successes with approaching on campus).
Saturday
Classes start Monday
My approach routine, I guess, started today.
Here's how it went.

I didn't approach anyone so mostly, it was focusing on my energy and how I came across and especially how other people's energy felt like, and how I interacted with everything.

I left the house looking cool. Focused on my posture and being open.
Focused on the bored look.

I've gotten way better at non-neediness. I had an intent of never looking at a girl unless I can tell she wants me to. Complete locked-in, focused energy. Very "sexually disciplined". I came across way more intentful, more serious but also I was smiling sometimes so I was more open.

I was really getting into the energy. Noticing how my body communicates and feels. Noticing when eye contact might be hard, when I get nervous, when I feel guilty, or small, or whatever. I was super conscious of my energy and emotions. Very cool.

There were a few approach invitations. Yeah. I felt like I could see them more clearly. There was one girl who straight up bumped into me (I was walking towards her and she was in my way, and I did some "grounded masculine energy transmutation" shit. She rubbed her arm up against me as I walked past her. I pulled back ever so slightly. My grounding will become better.)

I enjoyed the vibes. I felt good. I felt like I was moving and behaving a lot more closely to the man I want to be.

I also noticed a couple moments I could've given some compliments. A girl had a cool shirt and I wanted to say I like your shirt. It probably would've landed because her shirt stood out from the crowd. I'm seeing those compliments more now.

Women also looked at me more. Before I had this “everybody please ignore me” energy but now I'm wading into tension.

So this is all good. I'll continue opening my chakras, becoming more embodied and relaxed, and implementing Chase's stuff.

I'm going to approach. Take real action and wade through any failure.

But I have one very important intent.
I WILL be rock-solid at letting go of ALL expectation.
Women rejects me? I immediately turn my energy elsewhere. Let her go her way. I'm turning my attention back to my mission.
This is going to be a very strong intent in my approaching. UTTER respect for her boundaries and decision. Pure ability to literally just let her go. That is the most powerful way to help them be at ease. Letting them know they might affect me emotionally but I will ALWAYS tank it and turn away.
This is my ultimate goal. To become a man who can let ALL and ANY woman go.

Tomorrow is a new day.
(But I will probably be very sweaty tonight)


Thursday
I didn't approach Sunday or Monday but that's okay.

I met and got into a great conversation with a cool and ambitious seeming dude yesterday. Very cool.

Today, I was kinda feeling not so good, but then I went to class and before the class I met this pretty girl (brunette ) and got into a very slick and smooth and very connecty conversation with her. Great vibes. You know, my conversation ability is kinda kickass. It's always been my strong point.

Definitely could've asked her out and asked for her number. ← see that?

Approach is the point that I'm going to strengthen a TON.
Asking her out is the second point I'm going to strengthen a TON.

By the time I'm done here (next February), approaching and asking a girl out are going to be my STRENGTHS.

(side note: due to recent developments in my life, that MIGHT not be the case)

Anyway. Immediate noticed all the preselection (I think that shit affects your aura) after I left this brunette girl and went to my class.

Anyway then I went to my next class and vibed with my friend. I think she was a bit high .

Also that class was a fucking spiritual experience. It was weird. It was like I felt the aura of the room. I could feel the communication between teacher and students. I was experiencing shit.

I also started to feel paranoia and panic again. I waded through it in a unique way this time. Detached but still very in panic. But somehow I still felt my grounding. I wonder how it will be when I feel completely grounded through that panic? That's gonna feel crazy probably.

 

[ElChe]

Other stuff happened between that first week of the semester (late August) and now.

I approached this Colombian chick in a building and brought her back to my place within like 10 minutes.

(But I didn't make a move because it was raining out and I wasn't sure if she'd feel uncomfortable, like she didn't have an exit. But I probably could've slept with her. Maybe. Maybe not).

I also had a lot of good moments with friends. I kinda united a new little social circle (I'm the only guy in it lmao). And in general I just connected with a lot of people and had many fun moments and interesting conversations.

AND I was locked into schoolwork, getting up at 5am every day and being productive, getting really good habits, and everything was awesome.

But...

I crashed eventually

Spiraling down to apathy (but then spiraling back up)
Eventually the intrusive thoughts of my ex dance teacher (bad situation that triggered tons of anxiety and guilt and at some point, genuine horror) could no longer be suppressed.

I kept waking up during sleep and feeling this horrible, terrible pain about the situation. Like "Ah!! How could I have fucked that up?? How could I have done that??!"

The pain felt insurmountable at times. And then I could barely get out of bed in the morning.

And I basically kept falling, then re-energizing and doing cool stuff, then falling again, then getting back up, until eventually I just accepted the strong depression my body was forcing on me and spent like 4 days doing nothing except laying in bed.

I haven't felt THAT deep in apathy since like, freshman year of highschool I think.

I've accepted it.

I know that eventually I WILL start doing work again. I'll get super productive again. (Actually, 2 days ago I did do a bunch of work and felt great-- yesterday too).

But I'm gonna stop forcing things.

This is a process that I have to go through. There's some deep shit here! Fear of abandonment, fear of social rejection, and once again I'm uncovering this deep deep apathy towards women and romance and seduction (I realized, despite my successes with women, I don't believe in myself or believe the effect I have on women is real).

But, despite all that shit, this is still funny to me.

It's funny that some quirky little dance teacher pulled a ton of old, deep rooted emotions out of me. (Well, she was the conduit, but MY intent to bring peace to those emotions is what has caused this inner journey).

It's funny that this is affecting me so much.

I mean, I'm gonna get my degree either way. And if I don't, something even better will happen instead.

So, in the words of the great Endless Jess-- I'm gonna ride this poopy train all the way to the toilet.

And we'll see what happens..!!