War of Life: not Knowledge but the State you’re in OR What if the real game is just not being energetically collapsed?

[archimedes]

Has anyone else noticed how much your energetic state, or maybe your aura or psychosomatic load, is actually the biggest variable in how your night goes, much more than what you “know” or what principles you've internalized or worked out? Incidentally, memory is state dependent- different moods have access to different memories. There's a name for this, which I forget.

I’ve been thinking about this because I’m going dancing tonight, and there are a couple women I’ve flirted with before—loose leads and good energy. I already know what to do or i know a lot of things- most especially make her feel emotions- any emotions, don't flatten her but what if you feel flattened before you even get there?

Take this morning for example: I woke up feeling pretty good, in my body as usual, and then the construction beeps began, I got a few early teams pings from the most annoying scrum master. I remember two people said they were paying today, and I'm suspecting I'll have to nag or serve them (which I am very slow to do), so now I’m in suspense and wondering if I’ll need to follow up or send a notice. It's not one dramatic blow but a general burden, an ambient pressure that builds throughout the day but it's not like I'm in a real war of bullets so I should be able to take this like a man- but it affects execution of lines and the spontaneity of my being too.

I realized today laying in bed that I think the stress closes the libido, the loins, the chakra down there but only for those who can't hold it in the chest and shoulders. It was kind of clear to me that i fail to hold the stress in my chest and shoulders and that's what needs to be done, in a proud expanded healthy way. And then even more, the head should handle everything so the chest doesn't have to. It should not press so deeply down-is what i thought- or they win- and maybe the system does this on purpose to keep a person in a fog, which is why i work on a long term plan of freedom- through assets and so on, so I don't have to be an oscillator- evenings and weekends vs work day, back and forth.

And that’s what I’m wondering: is this the actual battle, or the key variable, resisting energetic dampening? I know to be in the body. The body has the wisdom, I know for certain, and I even think it gives a man enough- all he would need to flirt and talk smooth to a girl and so on-- so what the hell happens? What goes wrong?

Maybe you need someone in your corner in this life, and maybe i never had that, or institutions give you borrowed frame and borrowed power. Maybe I never did. My mother, father and even my younger brother were net loads and burdens and distractions I am certain, even to this day. I have friends but no specific gaming friends who are that deep- even if they are cool and masculine. Maybe this is a problem but I like going it alone in that i get to keep my sovereignty and don't have to answer to anyone- until i can truly lead people. I love sovereignty. I love people and community but only if they are good. I love sovereignty.. not the least bccause this world is full of bullshit and weird morality and justifications of mass frames. if it was normal and healthy-moral i might not feel this way- a better city or country but it's not- at least not here- and I hate to complain or run. I like to dig in and fight until the time is right to go or it makes sense to.


I saw a Dan Bilzerian ad this morning on fb—he’s selling a course on how to get girls and a community. I listened to his audiobook last year while driving across Europe, so I understand his story and it's interesting, and I'd almost toss him the $189 or whatever to have access- it's not that much, not that i'd have time to go through it, but what’s the point of learning any “principle” if your energy is collapsed by the time you even get to the venue? I think that's the crux. I was thinking his ideas probably wouldn't help if you don't have the embodied energy, right, and if one does, they already have those ideas- and they are the same ideas as here. it is not about the idea, it is about the embodiment, and embodiment is not the same as internalization, because you can truly learn something, and lose it by falling into a different state.*

*Also btw his intake system asked for a phone number, which is Total Bullshit. They shouldn't need that number for anything if they're just selling a product or even community access. I am waging war against notification, spam and alerts and anything that hinders flow or leaks energy and information, and i know you can use a google voice but the very idea of it is nasty and treasonous for someone who is "just giving back" or helping men. Incidentally I think it is not his knowledge but his energy as his main foundation which is most important- and he embodies this energy-- AND us leaking our personal information exposes us to harassment and third party industrial distraction, so it is hypocritical or misguided and twisted. I've been learning how nasty these companies are that collect and sell information, selling you as a lead for a few cents.. it attacks sovereignty.

I can maybe eek out at will the energy to talk to a girl but then when i am up there ready to present I feel a bit spent and not have a lot to of excess buffer abundance, like invading russia with limited supplies. That happens sometimes too- getting to the girl but being low on focused energy for whatever reason from the day. I have always been noise sensitive- by which i mean it goes in my head and generates thoughts or distractions. I don't know how noise and signal can co-exist, i guess. Unless I'm all in in the scene and then I don't give a fuck.

And that leads to another thought—do we live in a system that deliberately loads men during the day, so they’re half spent before they even get to enjoy anything? Like a constant stream of pings, demands, moral guilt, bureaucratic friction, weird forms of ambient emasculation—so that by the time you could radiate, you’re actually depleted?

I’m trying to train people in my world—tenants, teammates, etc to respect me as I respect them by default- and it's 10% that create 90% of the stress so that's the main place to start. I'm acquiring assets to get off this merry go round. I AM TRYING TO OWN MY SPACE. The word AURA still sounds esoteric to me and abstract but I am trying to get used to it and use it. Incidentally dan's book was called the Set-up and that's true. A part of me always thought if it's not working out i'm not set up well enough. I am just not there yet- despite being 43 and having a good income and being good on other dimensions.

i want an open body/geometry where i'm not caving or collapsing but have good energy.. and it often feels i have to really fight to get that-- and that's only the starting line. Things must then feel natural and low stakes because high stakes crushes the ego and you get made the fool- people notice how invested you are and play games.

So anyway it seems like it's not not about what one knows, not really- and if not, that's important to know and reflect on- it will make someone beat themselves up for the wrong reason and make coaches or helpers focus on the wrong thing. I am kind of thinking right now it is about being in the body and i feel largely locked out of my own body, on an oscillating merry go round between work day/evening, or work week/weekend or not even that as some work days have flow- but also general bullshit social field resistance but maybe it's just me and i need to get emotionally stronger and more agile and I should be able to shoulder the burden, bear the glances, the passive aggressive comments, the fake flattery etc and take it in stride. It literally feels like shoulders- i literally feel more expanded in the shoulders- but it shouldn't have taken for me to enter my 40s to get and be strong.

Thoughts? Thank you love you guys

 

[archimedes]

no resonse ok. that's a signal too. I write long. I get it.

state matters and i struggle to get into it. it's not the knowlede one has. it just sucks i've tried to build for so long- a life- and if it hasn't happened at 43, what the fuck is malfunctioning/ What will another year or three do? Why does state diminish?

I did want to say.. i think more and more there's a war on sovereignty.

I do not want these posts to be blogs and rants. i am sorry but nobody responded and i want to say this:

I think there is a war on sovereignty, and so many thigns are a part of it:

• speech control
• notification bombardment (spamming)
• moral shaming (for having 'privilege') and guilting
• appeal to empthy and weaponized empathy leating to weaponized altruism- very dangerous in the world, leading to occupied territories and mothers losing their children in air raids (information warfare leading to inappropriate empathy of the masses)
• estrangement of others in society, your brothers and sisters, those who should be your uncles and mentors-part of your national community
• general disorder and noise, bad music and pressure
• bureaucracy and HR (though I have not had much dealings with HR- i'm just saying every rule is a kind of war on sovereignty).
• anything that adds rules to your own property or person, and anything that gaslights, or wrongfully withholds

I just want to say this- i love canadians. They have great energy. danced with a cute girl again, almost the only one worth dancing with- almost. Her name is acutally Atlas, and she's a shorty, light ginger, very toned as competitive dancers often are, a true nymph and pleasing and friendly and open- perfect-- like our signals get through as chat gpt would say.. but she has a boyfriend, canadian. still leaves me actually feeling good though - there are too few of these people anywhere. We need 10x as is meant to be.

i don't see how i can game without feeling sovereign and energized- AND THERE ARE MANY MICRO PRESSURES to fight

 

[S.S Can]

I like your posts; they're very well thought out, and I read your journal a lot. I think about this frequently, the difference that state makes has so much magnitude that it sometimes feels like you're spinning your wheels with all other types of game. I think that although it might be akin to a magic bullet, the actual work that you're doing when you go out and game despite having a decreased state is just manipulating your frame so that you are expecting better experiences with women and you get an idea of how things will go with them.

Ross Jeffries talks about this somewhat; if you imagine two people, a guy and a girl who are being instructed by a director, and the director gives them each assigned roles. Pointing to the girl, he tells her that she is the most attractive woman in the world and that she is always pursued by men, and pointing to the guy, he tells him that he is entirely crazy about her. Then says action.

What we are doing by interacting with women and changing our ideas of ourselves is essentially rewriting the script, getting comfortable with the idea of being guys that women go crazy over, and then asserting that in all encounters with them. This is akin to raising our base ability with women, even if the energy that we have isn't there. I think that energy just circumvents this in the way that we are 'playing' at a more meta-level; our in-built scripts don't work against us and girls are drawn to that.

 

[the player of games]

no resonse ok. that's a signal too. I write long. I get it.

actually I can see that you think deeply about things and that appeals to me

I'm in the process of reading your journal so I can get a better understanding first. Might take a while

 

[ulrich]

Nonesense… state is an amorphous term that brings more confusion than results.

The knowledge you have is a stronger weapon but there is a barrier of entry which is skill competence.

When you are in “state”, your subconscious mind has a lower load and is able to:
a) Be more consistent with the theory you know you should be following.
b) Follow a path of least resistance that favors positive social interaction.

This lower mental load is also achievable and much more consistent through skill mastering.

In other words… would you prefer being a B-player with a lucky day or an A-player with a regular day?

 

[archimedes]

What we are doing by interacting with women and changing our ideas of ourselves is essentially rewriting the script, getting comfortable with the idea of being guys that women go crazy over, and then asserting that in all encounters with them. This is akin to raising our base ability with women, even if the energy that we have isn't there. I think that energy just circumvents this in the way that we are 'playing' at a more meta-level; our in-built scripts don't work against us and girls are drawn to that.

Yes, thanks for your comments. What amazes me actually is -- I'm not trying to state hack-- and skip knowledge and learning and effort approaching and expect getting into state magically to solve everything.

What amazes me-- damn why does my brain have to use so many clauses.

Ok what amazes me is that in contrast or addition to what you said above-- which is a very powerful illustration of state and belief or messaging and signal-

Is that my state is often broken by energy drains, stressors having nothing to do with game... but it attacks both my energy levels and my sense of sovereignty it feels like.

It need not even be personal- it could be a machine. I hope i'm not too sensitive and fragile. god i don't want to be fragile. I want to be anti-fragile.. but...

Nonesense… state is an amorphous term that brings more confusion than results.

To me it is a body thing- not so much a mind state thing. it is an energy level thing. it is an "am i in my spine" thing or am i feeling disembodied. Maybe this is personal quirk but more and more i feel my body geometric when i am best, my shoulders out and my head tall. it's a blend of earned arrogance and humility... but i feel when it is caving or tired, when my mind is pulling in multiple directions. it's not so much an I'm the shit. And i know approach approach and maybe but i also don't want to go make an impression on people, especially in non anonymous circles, when i'm not feeling that strong.

And I also feel deflations-- i will often be feeling strong and then something pricks me and deflates me- or else too many things load on me and crush me. I try to do the work regardless-- and follow best practices and principles... in any state, and sometimes the best most 'alpha' thing to do pardon that term, is snapping at someone or being grumpy to a popular guy or attractive woman when they are edging on you, not just trying to come off as club cool.

In other words… would you prefer being a B-player with a lucky day or an A-player with a regular day?

I don't know- BOTH. i want to be an A player with sovereign days. I am angry at anything that attacks, threatens and/or undermines my sovereignty and effectiveness-- knowing in this life you do have to grind some--- but only to a point.