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If you haven't yet read the first part of this post series, check out my explanation of what Enlightenment is in philosophical terms (or what it is NOT, more accurately) viewtopic.php?f=8&t=13538
Now, I am going to do the same thing, describe Enlightenment, but from a "what's good about it?" perspective. If you talk about Enlightenment, you are ALWAYS talking about what it is, since cause (doing it) and effect (what it gives) are synonymous (figure out why this is and you'll be enlightened).
Prefatory Warning: I will be saying things that might seem mystical or whacky. If you have a predilection to dismiss anything that isn't scientifically demonstrable or "logical" (according to your probably very rudimentary understanding of logic), then do not read further. I have no interest in debating with hard materialists why materialism is silly and falls apart quite quickly under logical scrutiny. I've demonstrated that quite clearly in the previous post. In other words, I assert that anything is possible and so being skeptical about things like Enlightenment or higher dimensions of existence/consciousness (which aren't enlightenment, btw) is quite literally the equivalent of being skeptical about 2 + 2 = 4 or that you have 10 fingers. Either accept it all or reject it all - there is no middle. Either way, the truth is the truth whether you like it or not.
Also, my views on Enlightenment have no ill-bearing on my views of seduction, love, and sex. If anything, my love for seduction, women, and sex has GROWN from my journey to Truth. I don't think sex or carnal desires are any more or less holy than being a chaste monk in a monastery for your entire life - all acts are holy (and I will explain this in another post).
If this post makes you doubt my sanity, I agree with you - I am insane. But so are you. You believe that you are this body and mind, which is kinda silly, consider the same thing that gives you so much confidence in this belief (thoughts, logic, emotions, and experience), can all themselves demonstrate the exact opposite - that you are not this body and mind. But it's okay, I know why you think that - hard materialism is all the rage nowadays and anyone who has "mystical" or "religious' beliefs are considered illogical/dumb/naive/weird (and most of them are, btw). It's just the cycle of beliefs. In one century religion is glorified. In another its hated and despised, while things like science are worshiped (almost as if it's just another religion
).
It's quite silly. People think that being pro-science/logic and anti-religion makes them cool, smart, etc. It's not. And being pro-religion and anti-science/logic is just as dumb too. In fact, all beliefs are dumb (some more than others).
But enough on that. I hopefully have made myself clear
If not, okie dokes, we probably wouldn't have gotten along anyways...doo doo.....
So I mentioned in my first post that I am not Truth-Realized (i.e., Enlightened) and while it is true, it is also slightly misleading.
I am semi-Realized. I am, from my intuition, experience, and from the records of different Enlightened teachers, beyond the point of no return. Around Spring 2012 I took a class on Buddhism and took a 4 month break from sex, alcohol, and drugs and dedicated myself to understanding it all very clearly. Somewhere in there I became aware of the fact that Truth exists, and that it is beyond all words, concepts, emotions, experience, etc.
This is what is called Entering the Stream by the Buddha (according to the Pali canon) or taking the First Step, if you read Jed Mckenna's books (you should). It means that you are totally convinced that knowing Truth is possible and you become obsessed with it. Kinda like realizing that getting laid is possible - you can't think of anything else after that and no matter how hard you try, you just keep thinking about pussy, ass, and titties.
What happens here is that all of your troubles get super-shrunk. All depressions, anxieties, and paranoias become manageable, because you have the sense that in comparison to Truth, they are False, and false things shouldn't be too concerning. You're not TOTALLY free from them, but it's kinda like getting rejected after you've banged a ton of sluts - you realize it's not a big deal and is just part of the process.
Since my educational training is primarily in Buddhism, I usually use Buddhist terms (in the same way that if you are a Christian, you use Christian terms to explain religious beliefs or if you speak Italian as a first language, you're usually going to speak in Italian when talking about really deep beliefs of yours). So bear with me on this, I'll try to explain.
There are Four Stages of Enlightenment in Theravada Buddhism (and really Pre-Sectarian Buddhism). All of this can be found in the Pali canon, btw, which is a monstrous collections of discussions, rules, and doctrines of Buddhism (the discourse third of the canon is called the Sutta Pitaka, or basket of discourses). https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Four_stag ... ightenment
Stream-Enterer (Sotapana). When you get this, you are from from
- Identity View (believing that you are this body/mind or some other ethereal belief of self-hood); this is awesome because you start thinking in third-person and become very detached from your troubles. You see yourself as a puppet that you can do pretty much anything you want with. Sure, you feel and think things, but there's thing really vague sense of detachment from it all. Things like rejection really don't bother you too much.
- Attachment to rites and rituals: you no longer believe that there is only "X" way to do things (e.g., you must pray 5 times a day to receive salvation). You realize that rites and rituals are just hard-rules for beginners to stay disciplined but now, you can take quicker and more efficient paths that might not be orthodox, but are better.
- Doubt about teachings; you really, truly believe that the Buddha (or any Enlightented teacher) is telling the truth. No matter what anyone tells me or any counterarguments they have (or that I try to come up with; trust me, I'm always trying to argue with myself about ti), I sincerely have no doubt that Enlightenment is possible, like not even a little bit. You can call this close-minded if you'd like, but saying that is sorta like telling a guy who bangs 4 girls a day that he can't get laid. he just can't conceive of that even if he tried. and why would I think differently? I have seen the Deathless state, have felt the peace of Nirvana, and know it's attainable - why would i doubt myself just to make a skeptic happy? that's all you're essentially asking me to do. You don't believe in it and if I would turn back and agree with you, all it would do is make you feel like you "converted" me back to non-belief and saved me, when really that's not what I believe. This is a tricky subject because a lot of people believe really dumb things based on horrible logic, so you could always turn around and say "well, why can't they believe that, if you can believe your crazy enlightenment stuff!" And you're right. I try too often to show people why their beliefs are silly and as the years pass, I care less and less about converting people. But I have two responses: my confidence in Nirvana isn't a belief - it's a direct knowledge, more secure than any belief, thought, feeling, or concept. Don't believe me? Try it yourself. And secondly, if all beliefs are bullshit (and they are), why not believe the one that is coolest? Even if I'm wrong, this is the coolest belief I can think of, that it's possible for me to find Ultimate Truth, something that only a fraction of a fraction of humanity has ever done.
If those don't sound cool, then don't worry about this Enlightenment business. It's not for you (or so you think
). Personally, it's made me better at everything - seduction, life, etc. I am one of the most carefree people i know and even when I'm severely depressed (I'm manic/depressive so my depressions can get pretty dark), I am never fully "sucked into it," meaning that while I'll be dark, brooding, and contemplating suicide, etc, there's another "half" of me that is outside of the darkness and sorta laughing at myself and the whole situation. In an effort to be fully vulnerable to everyone here, I've been pretty close to suicide a few times. Last year was the roughest year of my entire life and a pretty shitty event made me question everything in my life. I almost veered my car off the road a few times, held knives up to my throat and eye, punched myself, headbutted mirrors, and was reduced to tears for days on end and lived in darknesses that I didn't know were possible. All very dark shit.
But what's funny (yes, funny) about all of this is that while I was going through it, I also had a pretty good sense of humor about it all. I would have a knife to my throat and think "Lol, what are you doing, silly goose? You think this is gonna solve anything? Aww, pooor little baby is upset and wants to end it all. Well, now you're going to just reincarnate again, in a probably much shittier situation, and you still haven't completed what you were here to do. But go ahead, do it. go ahead, pussy baby" and then I'd drop the knife, start laughing to myself hysterically and then go do something fun.
What's great too is that none of this was very volitional. Since I am "in the stream," this is all pretty effortless. If I just let go, all depressions are dealt with on their own. In fact, the quicker I just submit to them and say "yep, this sucks," the quicker it goes away.
Then, sometime earlier this year (I'd say mid-january), I almost had my appendix rupture. And during the entire ordeal, talking to the hopsital staff, I kept joking about my death. They were all kinda freaked out at first, but you gotta remember, I really don't view myself as myself. I'm pretty detached from all of this at the end of the day (and anyone who knows me personally can attest to you how insane I am in this regard). The staff at the hospital went from "wtf?" to laughing alongside myself and even being quite enamored with my light-heartedness. Here were people who were so routinely used to pain and death, but still not quite detached from it, and then here's this cocky little bastard who's just laughing at the fact that he was a day or two from having an organ explode inside of him and was in excruciating pain (I'd say I was at a constant 7 to 8 out of 10 in pain).
Don't mistake me - I was in pain, shit sucked, and I didn't want to deal with it, but I wasn't fighting against it. It was just "meh, this sucks" for me and not much more really. The idea of dying wasn't too frightening and was even mildly exciting (how could you be scared when you are pretty sure that you are immortal, since you aren't this body/mind? It's like getting upset that some character on TV died).
If this doesn't sound awesome, I don't think you know what awesome means. And what's great, is that days after this, I took the next step.
Once-Returner (sakadagami). The markings of a Once-Returner are a great accentuation )lessening of intensity) of
- Sensual desire. Woah, the hedonist and sex addict Hector?! Bullshitttt. Okay, sure, I agree with you too. If anything, I'm even MORE hedonistic than I used to be, but now it's a very calm desire (and desire isn't the right word; craving is). In other words, I'm quite outcome independent. For those who don't know my personal day to days with girls, I have so many really close shots with girls and if I was more consistent/knew how to close properly and didn't text like an Autistic retard, I would be fucking 3 to 4 new girls a week. And I see very clearly how I fucked up, too. You'd think this would upset me, but it doesn't. Sure, would I LIKE to be fucking these girls, hellz yeah! But I'm very "if we smash, cool; if not, cool too" about it all and though my desire is great, my craving isn't (the distinction is important; the second noble truth of buddhism isn't that DESIRE is bad, but that CRAVING/ATTACHMENT is. The word is "tanha" which means "thirst." Desire isn't bad at all and never was. Desire is holy and wonderful. I also like to smoke weed, drink, and jerk off a lot, play video games, and other "sensual desires" (sensual desires = anything involving emotion, lol), but am very detached from them now. In fact, any close friend can attest that I can sit and stare at the wall and watch paint dry for hours on end and have no complaint. If i'm fucking a bitch, that's cool, if I'm staring at the wall, that's cool too. Sometimes I'll even be having sex and wish that I was doing something else. I am a hedonist, and if anything, even more than before, because I'm honest now about what I want and don't feel guilty, but there is no rabid, drug-addict fiending any more (though occasionally still I'll get super thirsty, since I'm not TOTALLY free from this shit).
- Ill will: I don't really feel too much hatred for anybody anymore. There are a few select people on this earth I wouldn't mind seeing tortured and dismembered, but again, it's a very laid-back desire for destruction. When people are rude or mean to me, I'll give them a "lolwut?" face or laugh at them. If girls blow me out, I don't have too negative of a reaction to them and usually laugh in their face. I guess the best way to describe this is think about emotions like paint: you are a canvas and when emotions come at you they splatter. If you're mad, red paint will fill your canvas and all you can see is red. Well, for most people, their canvases are super absorbant. They stick and will hold onto their grudges for a long time. Me? Well, it's hard for red paint to stick. When it does, it'll be intense if it's a lot of red paint (because I don't hold back emotions and let them do their thing), but it'll quickly slip off. This is what is meant by non-attachment. People think that they somehow "disprove" enlightenment because the Buddha still had feelings, did things, etc. But that's a really bad understanding of what enlightenment and non-attachment means. The Buddha got sick, got angry, got sad, etc. But they wouldn't LINGER and that's the entire point. Without emotions, he couldn't function as a human being or empathize with people. He was a splendid teacher (as evidenced from how little resistance he faced and that his religion is the most dominant in recorded history), which means he had to appeal to people's emotions. He obviously had empathy and emotion, but he wasn't a slave to them. If he needed to chastise a follower for breaking a rule, he would get angry, make them feel like shit, and then be done with it. The purpose of the emotion was exhausted and was no longer needed. In the same way (but not to the degree that he did, since he was fully liberated), I feel emotions, sometimes very intensly, but they fade quite quickly, especially ill-will. Most of my ill-will is a prankster like desire. For those I do hold ill-will against, it's more of a "I can't wait to laugh when you realize that you were wrong...and then I'll wink at you and if you wanna hug it out, we can."
The next-step is Non-Returner (Anagami) and allegedly, I'll be completely freed from all sensual desire and ill-will. Not even sure if I WANT to go here, but like I said, I'm kind of on a path of no-return, so even if I do get there, I promise I won't pull a St. Augustine and get all "screw women!" on ya. He just found a new source of satisfaction (meditation and God) that trumped getting his dick wet and decided to chastize that former sense enslavement he had. The Buddha too would criticize women as sources of suffering, but I think this was mostly pedagogical - celibacy is just a way of redirecting your libido to other, more refined states of pleasure. But at the ultimate level, the pleasure of a blowjob and the pleasure of a meditative state are still just pleasure states - different degrees but still not Truth. I like both and so did Walt Whitman (an enlightened guy who was also bisexual). It would be fun to be an Enlightened Playboy (Osho was also pretty supportive of sex), but if I no longer have the DRIVE for sex, not much I can do about it. guess we'll see????? I do luv my bitches.
Isn't it interesting that the more freedom you have from something, the better you are with it?
And the final step is of course Enlightenment (Arahantship) and you bust out of all the following -
6. Craving for fine material existence
7. Craving for existence on the level of formlessness
8. Conceit
9. Restlessness
10. Ignorance
Total freedom. From what everyone Enlightened person says, it's like, the coolest thing ever. The great irony I keep seeing though is that you since you're finally free, you can do anything you want, but you really have no inclination to do one thing or another and kinda just go with the flow, because, well, everything is good.
It's also described as being the most chill and non-cool thing ever too. It just IS the way it IS. If you're really good at something, be it music, women, etc and you do something dope, you don't freak out TOO much about it, since it's, well, normal.
If you're a biollionaire, getting a million dollars is pretty bleh.
Well, if you've seen Ultimate Truth and there's nothing higher than it, because there is no high, low, left, or right, and you KNOW that more than you've ever known ANYTHING EVER, then how could anything impress you?
Yeah, that's pretty, or maybe that's a bit ugly, but you know it's all the same - Truth.
So why get Enlightened?
Idk, I just sorta have the drive for it inside of me it seems. And the further I go, the less it seems necessary.
The only thing i can personally report is how it's helped me so far and what it feels like to be Semi-Realized. If I had to describe it any way, it would be that you just gradually lose all fucks.
Do you believe me? Do you care? Do you want this too?
I don't know. I still KINDA give a fuck if you believe me, but even if I do, it won't last long and everyday the fucks continue to drain away...and somehow, that makes me better at pretty much everything
And I assure you that no response to this thread or anything in it will do you any good unless you go out and try to find this for yourself (and you don't even have to go anywhere to do it - just sit there and watch your thoughts).
Come see for yourself.
Hekky
EDIT: All this "returner" business in the names of the different stages do refer to reincarnation, but that's a whole other bag that I didn't feel like addressing here too deeply.
Now, I am going to do the same thing, describe Enlightenment, but from a "what's good about it?" perspective. If you talk about Enlightenment, you are ALWAYS talking about what it is, since cause (doing it) and effect (what it gives) are synonymous (figure out why this is and you'll be enlightened).
Prefatory Warning: I will be saying things that might seem mystical or whacky. If you have a predilection to dismiss anything that isn't scientifically demonstrable or "logical" (according to your probably very rudimentary understanding of logic), then do not read further. I have no interest in debating with hard materialists why materialism is silly and falls apart quite quickly under logical scrutiny. I've demonstrated that quite clearly in the previous post. In other words, I assert that anything is possible and so being skeptical about things like Enlightenment or higher dimensions of existence/consciousness (which aren't enlightenment, btw) is quite literally the equivalent of being skeptical about 2 + 2 = 4 or that you have 10 fingers. Either accept it all or reject it all - there is no middle. Either way, the truth is the truth whether you like it or not.
Also, my views on Enlightenment have no ill-bearing on my views of seduction, love, and sex. If anything, my love for seduction, women, and sex has GROWN from my journey to Truth. I don't think sex or carnal desires are any more or less holy than being a chaste monk in a monastery for your entire life - all acts are holy (and I will explain this in another post).
If this post makes you doubt my sanity, I agree with you - I am insane. But so are you. You believe that you are this body and mind, which is kinda silly, consider the same thing that gives you so much confidence in this belief (thoughts, logic, emotions, and experience), can all themselves demonstrate the exact opposite - that you are not this body and mind. But it's okay, I know why you think that - hard materialism is all the rage nowadays and anyone who has "mystical" or "religious' beliefs are considered illogical/dumb/naive/weird (and most of them are, btw). It's just the cycle of beliefs. In one century religion is glorified. In another its hated and despised, while things like science are worshiped (almost as if it's just another religion
It's quite silly. People think that being pro-science/logic and anti-religion makes them cool, smart, etc. It's not. And being pro-religion and anti-science/logic is just as dumb too. In fact, all beliefs are dumb (some more than others).
But enough on that. I hopefully have made myself clear
So I mentioned in my first post that I am not Truth-Realized (i.e., Enlightened) and while it is true, it is also slightly misleading.
I am semi-Realized. I am, from my intuition, experience, and from the records of different Enlightened teachers, beyond the point of no return. Around Spring 2012 I took a class on Buddhism and took a 4 month break from sex, alcohol, and drugs and dedicated myself to understanding it all very clearly. Somewhere in there I became aware of the fact that Truth exists, and that it is beyond all words, concepts, emotions, experience, etc.
This is what is called Entering the Stream by the Buddha (according to the Pali canon) or taking the First Step, if you read Jed Mckenna's books (you should). It means that you are totally convinced that knowing Truth is possible and you become obsessed with it. Kinda like realizing that getting laid is possible - you can't think of anything else after that and no matter how hard you try, you just keep thinking about pussy, ass, and titties.
What happens here is that all of your troubles get super-shrunk. All depressions, anxieties, and paranoias become manageable, because you have the sense that in comparison to Truth, they are False, and false things shouldn't be too concerning. You're not TOTALLY free from them, but it's kinda like getting rejected after you've banged a ton of sluts - you realize it's not a big deal and is just part of the process.
Since my educational training is primarily in Buddhism, I usually use Buddhist terms (in the same way that if you are a Christian, you use Christian terms to explain religious beliefs or if you speak Italian as a first language, you're usually going to speak in Italian when talking about really deep beliefs of yours). So bear with me on this, I'll try to explain.
There are Four Stages of Enlightenment in Theravada Buddhism (and really Pre-Sectarian Buddhism). All of this can be found in the Pali canon, btw, which is a monstrous collections of discussions, rules, and doctrines of Buddhism (the discourse third of the canon is called the Sutta Pitaka, or basket of discourses). https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Four_stag ... ightenment
Stream-Enterer (Sotapana). When you get this, you are from from
- Identity View (believing that you are this body/mind or some other ethereal belief of self-hood); this is awesome because you start thinking in third-person and become very detached from your troubles. You see yourself as a puppet that you can do pretty much anything you want with. Sure, you feel and think things, but there's thing really vague sense of detachment from it all. Things like rejection really don't bother you too much.
- Attachment to rites and rituals: you no longer believe that there is only "X" way to do things (e.g., you must pray 5 times a day to receive salvation). You realize that rites and rituals are just hard-rules for beginners to stay disciplined but now, you can take quicker and more efficient paths that might not be orthodox, but are better.
- Doubt about teachings; you really, truly believe that the Buddha (or any Enlightented teacher) is telling the truth. No matter what anyone tells me or any counterarguments they have (or that I try to come up with; trust me, I'm always trying to argue with myself about ti), I sincerely have no doubt that Enlightenment is possible, like not even a little bit. You can call this close-minded if you'd like, but saying that is sorta like telling a guy who bangs 4 girls a day that he can't get laid. he just can't conceive of that even if he tried. and why would I think differently? I have seen the Deathless state, have felt the peace of Nirvana, and know it's attainable - why would i doubt myself just to make a skeptic happy? that's all you're essentially asking me to do. You don't believe in it and if I would turn back and agree with you, all it would do is make you feel like you "converted" me back to non-belief and saved me, when really that's not what I believe. This is a tricky subject because a lot of people believe really dumb things based on horrible logic, so you could always turn around and say "well, why can't they believe that, if you can believe your crazy enlightenment stuff!" And you're right. I try too often to show people why their beliefs are silly and as the years pass, I care less and less about converting people. But I have two responses: my confidence in Nirvana isn't a belief - it's a direct knowledge, more secure than any belief, thought, feeling, or concept. Don't believe me? Try it yourself. And secondly, if all beliefs are bullshit (and they are), why not believe the one that is coolest? Even if I'm wrong, this is the coolest belief I can think of, that it's possible for me to find Ultimate Truth, something that only a fraction of a fraction of humanity has ever done.
If those don't sound cool, then don't worry about this Enlightenment business. It's not for you (or so you think
But what's funny (yes, funny) about all of this is that while I was going through it, I also had a pretty good sense of humor about it all. I would have a knife to my throat and think "Lol, what are you doing, silly goose? You think this is gonna solve anything? Aww, pooor little baby is upset and wants to end it all. Well, now you're going to just reincarnate again, in a probably much shittier situation, and you still haven't completed what you were here to do. But go ahead, do it. go ahead, pussy baby" and then I'd drop the knife, start laughing to myself hysterically and then go do something fun.
What's great too is that none of this was very volitional. Since I am "in the stream," this is all pretty effortless. If I just let go, all depressions are dealt with on their own. In fact, the quicker I just submit to them and say "yep, this sucks," the quicker it goes away.
Then, sometime earlier this year (I'd say mid-january), I almost had my appendix rupture. And during the entire ordeal, talking to the hopsital staff, I kept joking about my death. They were all kinda freaked out at first, but you gotta remember, I really don't view myself as myself. I'm pretty detached from all of this at the end of the day (and anyone who knows me personally can attest to you how insane I am in this regard). The staff at the hospital went from "wtf?" to laughing alongside myself and even being quite enamored with my light-heartedness. Here were people who were so routinely used to pain and death, but still not quite detached from it, and then here's this cocky little bastard who's just laughing at the fact that he was a day or two from having an organ explode inside of him and was in excruciating pain (I'd say I was at a constant 7 to 8 out of 10 in pain).
Don't mistake me - I was in pain, shit sucked, and I didn't want to deal with it, but I wasn't fighting against it. It was just "meh, this sucks" for me and not much more really. The idea of dying wasn't too frightening and was even mildly exciting (how could you be scared when you are pretty sure that you are immortal, since you aren't this body/mind? It's like getting upset that some character on TV died).
If this doesn't sound awesome, I don't think you know what awesome means. And what's great, is that days after this, I took the next step.
Once-Returner (sakadagami). The markings of a Once-Returner are a great accentuation )lessening of intensity) of
- Sensual desire. Woah, the hedonist and sex addict Hector?! Bullshitttt. Okay, sure, I agree with you too. If anything, I'm even MORE hedonistic than I used to be, but now it's a very calm desire (and desire isn't the right word; craving is). In other words, I'm quite outcome independent. For those who don't know my personal day to days with girls, I have so many really close shots with girls and if I was more consistent/knew how to close properly and didn't text like an Autistic retard, I would be fucking 3 to 4 new girls a week. And I see very clearly how I fucked up, too. You'd think this would upset me, but it doesn't. Sure, would I LIKE to be fucking these girls, hellz yeah! But I'm very "if we smash, cool; if not, cool too" about it all and though my desire is great, my craving isn't (the distinction is important; the second noble truth of buddhism isn't that DESIRE is bad, but that CRAVING/ATTACHMENT is. The word is "tanha" which means "thirst." Desire isn't bad at all and never was. Desire is holy and wonderful. I also like to smoke weed, drink, and jerk off a lot, play video games, and other "sensual desires" (sensual desires = anything involving emotion, lol), but am very detached from them now. In fact, any close friend can attest that I can sit and stare at the wall and watch paint dry for hours on end and have no complaint. If i'm fucking a bitch, that's cool, if I'm staring at the wall, that's cool too. Sometimes I'll even be having sex and wish that I was doing something else. I am a hedonist, and if anything, even more than before, because I'm honest now about what I want and don't feel guilty, but there is no rabid, drug-addict fiending any more (though occasionally still I'll get super thirsty, since I'm not TOTALLY free from this shit).
- Ill will: I don't really feel too much hatred for anybody anymore. There are a few select people on this earth I wouldn't mind seeing tortured and dismembered, but again, it's a very laid-back desire for destruction. When people are rude or mean to me, I'll give them a "lolwut?" face or laugh at them. If girls blow me out, I don't have too negative of a reaction to them and usually laugh in their face. I guess the best way to describe this is think about emotions like paint: you are a canvas and when emotions come at you they splatter. If you're mad, red paint will fill your canvas and all you can see is red. Well, for most people, their canvases are super absorbant. They stick and will hold onto their grudges for a long time. Me? Well, it's hard for red paint to stick. When it does, it'll be intense if it's a lot of red paint (because I don't hold back emotions and let them do their thing), but it'll quickly slip off. This is what is meant by non-attachment. People think that they somehow "disprove" enlightenment because the Buddha still had feelings, did things, etc. But that's a really bad understanding of what enlightenment and non-attachment means. The Buddha got sick, got angry, got sad, etc. But they wouldn't LINGER and that's the entire point. Without emotions, he couldn't function as a human being or empathize with people. He was a splendid teacher (as evidenced from how little resistance he faced and that his religion is the most dominant in recorded history), which means he had to appeal to people's emotions. He obviously had empathy and emotion, but he wasn't a slave to them. If he needed to chastise a follower for breaking a rule, he would get angry, make them feel like shit, and then be done with it. The purpose of the emotion was exhausted and was no longer needed. In the same way (but not to the degree that he did, since he was fully liberated), I feel emotions, sometimes very intensly, but they fade quite quickly, especially ill-will. Most of my ill-will is a prankster like desire. For those I do hold ill-will against, it's more of a "I can't wait to laugh when you realize that you were wrong...and then I'll wink at you and if you wanna hug it out, we can."
The next-step is Non-Returner (Anagami) and allegedly, I'll be completely freed from all sensual desire and ill-will. Not even sure if I WANT to go here, but like I said, I'm kind of on a path of no-return, so even if I do get there, I promise I won't pull a St. Augustine and get all "screw women!" on ya. He just found a new source of satisfaction (meditation and God) that trumped getting his dick wet and decided to chastize that former sense enslavement he had. The Buddha too would criticize women as sources of suffering, but I think this was mostly pedagogical - celibacy is just a way of redirecting your libido to other, more refined states of pleasure. But at the ultimate level, the pleasure of a blowjob and the pleasure of a meditative state are still just pleasure states - different degrees but still not Truth. I like both and so did Walt Whitman (an enlightened guy who was also bisexual). It would be fun to be an Enlightened Playboy (Osho was also pretty supportive of sex), but if I no longer have the DRIVE for sex, not much I can do about it. guess we'll see????? I do luv my bitches.
Isn't it interesting that the more freedom you have from something, the better you are with it?
And the final step is of course Enlightenment (Arahantship) and you bust out of all the following -
6. Craving for fine material existence
7. Craving for existence on the level of formlessness
8. Conceit
9. Restlessness
10. Ignorance
Total freedom. From what everyone Enlightened person says, it's like, the coolest thing ever. The great irony I keep seeing though is that you since you're finally free, you can do anything you want, but you really have no inclination to do one thing or another and kinda just go with the flow, because, well, everything is good.
It's also described as being the most chill and non-cool thing ever too. It just IS the way it IS. If you're really good at something, be it music, women, etc and you do something dope, you don't freak out TOO much about it, since it's, well, normal.
If you're a biollionaire, getting a million dollars is pretty bleh.
Well, if you've seen Ultimate Truth and there's nothing higher than it, because there is no high, low, left, or right, and you KNOW that more than you've ever known ANYTHING EVER, then how could anything impress you?
Yeah, that's pretty, or maybe that's a bit ugly, but you know it's all the same - Truth.
So why get Enlightened?
Idk, I just sorta have the drive for it inside of me it seems. And the further I go, the less it seems necessary.
The only thing i can personally report is how it's helped me so far and what it feels like to be Semi-Realized. If I had to describe it any way, it would be that you just gradually lose all fucks.
Do you believe me? Do you care? Do you want this too?
I don't know. I still KINDA give a fuck if you believe me, but even if I do, it won't last long and everyday the fucks continue to drain away...and somehow, that makes me better at pretty much everything
And I assure you that no response to this thread or anything in it will do you any good unless you go out and try to find this for yourself (and you don't even have to go anywhere to do it - just sit there and watch your thoughts).
Come see for yourself.
Hekky
EDIT: All this "returner" business in the names of the different stages do refer to reincarnation, but that's a whole other bag that I didn't feel like addressing here too deeply.