What up guys, I found myself reading Carousel’s TRE post (hall of fame post), which I had read probably around the time it came out when I was more of a casual reader of the forum, and though I was interested in it I never tried it. Probably part skepticism, probably part laziness… maybe partly fear tbh.
So, I should start by saying that, while I’m skeptical of things and sometimes think of certain things as mumbo-jumbo, I am also open minded and will try something if it seems reasonably fathomable and there’s some modicum of reasoning behind it, and in this case I definitely had more incentive to believe the effects of TRE thanks to the high praise for it on this forum and amongst the more elder members.
I should also add that I don’t have any “major” traumas. I was not quote-unquote bullied, I was never beat up, I do not have any sexual abuse in my childhood… both my parents love me, I was the smartest kid straight A’s etc.… I have none of the flags that you would consider a deeply traumatized person to have.
What I’m trying to say is: I would not considered myself “traumatized”. If you saw me and met me, or if you knew me, you would not go, “oh, that dude is fucked up in the head”, or anything like that. I’m a pretty normal dude.
However, I think I was (or, am) affected not by a large trauma, nor by a series of large traumas, but rather by an accumulation of extremely small, extremely minor traumas (that is, occasions where I was not “completing” the reactions). Since around my mid-teens I’ve been dealing with issues like lethargy, back and muscle pains, and social anxiety - ranging from horrible (in HS, I sometimes could not talk; that bad) to somewhat minor (what we would probably consider AA, or what me and my homies would call, “pussying out”
). That is the furthest extent to which I think my "trauma" runs.
Ok ok timo we get it, hurry up what’s your point…
My review: Holy shit, that shit was intense. I’m still sitting here in the “completed” position with my legs crossed as I write this out, just taking it all in. No lie, I did not think I was going to shake or experience tremors the way I did. I even had the intense midsection tremors the way this navy seal guy did… my breathing was intense as a motherfucker too, and I even released some pent-up audible groans, but I couldn't complete it, it was like something heavier wanted to get out, idk can’t put it into words, something you have to experience.
Unfortunately I did not reach a point where the tremors affected my face. It got up to my shoulders very briefly (like a second), but as I was on a floor in my room, and did not use a padding of any kind (I did this shit at 1 in the AM lol), I was semi-worried that I’d lift and slam my head like the seal in the video did on my hardwood (the gentleman who, from what it seems, was FAR more affected, and in a much greater way by his trauma, than I was/am with mine). Also, my glutes were getting tired and I ended up needing to enter a “stop” position. Next time I should be much more physiologically prepared for what’s to come.
I have to admit, part of me is wondering if I was subconsciously affected the way a cult member is by having their reality distorted (as in, if the videos I saw and the way it’s spoken about on this forum are aiming to brainwash me to join the church of TRE lol). Either way, it definitely affected me strongly. I’m still kinda skeptical tbh, but damn that shit was strong yo!
In the meantime, I'll be sure to monitor how I feel. Will probably update this after a few days of recovery and my next session.
Regardless, based on my first experience, not only will I continue to practice TRE, I would wholeheartedly recommend it to others to at the least give a try.
Important note: I did not use an instructor prior to practice. I do not know if this was a mistake or not, but either way it was still very powerful, borderline transformative, dare I say liberating.
So, I should start by saying that, while I’m skeptical of things and sometimes think of certain things as mumbo-jumbo, I am also open minded and will try something if it seems reasonably fathomable and there’s some modicum of reasoning behind it, and in this case I definitely had more incentive to believe the effects of TRE thanks to the high praise for it on this forum and amongst the more elder members.
I should also add that I don’t have any “major” traumas. I was not quote-unquote bullied, I was never beat up, I do not have any sexual abuse in my childhood… both my parents love me, I was the smartest kid straight A’s etc.… I have none of the flags that you would consider a deeply traumatized person to have.
What I’m trying to say is: I would not considered myself “traumatized”. If you saw me and met me, or if you knew me, you would not go, “oh, that dude is fucked up in the head”, or anything like that. I’m a pretty normal dude.
However, I think I was (or, am) affected not by a large trauma, nor by a series of large traumas, but rather by an accumulation of extremely small, extremely minor traumas (that is, occasions where I was not “completing” the reactions). Since around my mid-teens I’ve been dealing with issues like lethargy, back and muscle pains, and social anxiety - ranging from horrible (in HS, I sometimes could not talk; that bad) to somewhat minor (what we would probably consider AA, or what me and my homies would call, “pussying out”
). That is the furthest extent to which I think my "trauma" runs.Ok ok timo we get it, hurry up what’s your point…
My review: Holy shit, that shit was intense. I’m still sitting here in the “completed” position with my legs crossed as I write this out, just taking it all in. No lie, I did not think I was going to shake or experience tremors the way I did. I even had the intense midsection tremors the way this navy seal guy did… my breathing was intense as a motherfucker too, and I even released some pent-up audible groans, but I couldn't complete it, it was like something heavier wanted to get out, idk can’t put it into words, something you have to experience.
Unfortunately I did not reach a point where the tremors affected my face. It got up to my shoulders very briefly (like a second), but as I was on a floor in my room, and did not use a padding of any kind (I did this shit at 1 in the AM lol), I was semi-worried that I’d lift and slam my head like the seal in the video did on my hardwood (the gentleman who, from what it seems, was FAR more affected, and in a much greater way by his trauma, than I was/am with mine). Also, my glutes were getting tired and I ended up needing to enter a “stop” position. Next time I should be much more physiologically prepared for what’s to come.
I have to admit, part of me is wondering if I was subconsciously affected the way a cult member is by having their reality distorted (as in, if the videos I saw and the way it’s spoken about on this forum are aiming to brainwash me to join the church of TRE lol). Either way, it definitely affected me strongly. I’m still kinda skeptical tbh, but damn that shit was strong yo!
In the meantime, I'll be sure to monitor how I feel. Will probably update this after a few days of recovery and my next session.
Regardless, based on my first experience, not only will I continue to practice TRE, I would wholeheartedly recommend it to others to at the least give a try.
Important note: I did not use an instructor prior to practice. I do not know if this was a mistake or not, but either way it was still very powerful, borderline transformative, dare I say liberating.
