I've done a lot of improvements and now I have a girlfriend, a second lay, and someone to get sex with regularly. However for some reason things seem to be going downhill and I don't want to hear the line so early "we are breaking up ".
It's been two weeks and we still behave distant in public. I don't know whose fault it is. We go to the same school and she is 2 lower grades. Her name is Amanda. So far I've learnt that my girlfriend has fucked 7 guys, including myself and she is 16 (what the fuck? Why are these girls having so many partners and they still in school?. It makes me feel I'm not trying). Amanda takes school seriously and said sex comes after. I've bedded her 2 times in two weeks and we agreed that she take Wednesday (skip school) and come to my house for a 4 hour fuck session.
Here is the problem though : she makes me feel insecure a lot. She shows me whatsapp messages of guys who are begging her to cheat on me so they can fuck. She hides a lot of things from me ( telling me she is going home and her friends tell me she going to meet a man somewhere.... I don't know why... But I feel nervous thinking she fucked them. Reason I say that is because I can text her and say " come give me a fuck " and she comes over (no resistance) . Last week Shanel, her best friend and I sat with her phone and Shanel, went through her texts (it's a thing best friends do). We saw some texts with guys saying similar stuff and she said "ok" (so easily) . I should also note that this was before we were together. But I have seen her flirt with other men in front of me and she doesn't flirt much with me. I'm wondering if she finds them sexier than myself.
She loves muscular men (and I am skinny plus she teases me about my inability to get muscles like those guys who she adores), she laughs more even if they said nothing and she initiates conversation with more passion ( with me, we laugh sometimes but I have to talk 3 times more than those guys to get a similar response from her. When I keep quiet like those dudes she just stares at me and starts a boring conversation,with them she jokes).
Also when we plan to go somewhere ( even if I keep her engaged, laughing and stuff) the moment she sees her friends it's like I am invisible. When we meet at school she prefers talking to friends... AND YOU KNOW WHAT? all her friends are asking me if we are still together because we don't behave like a couple. I told Shanel that Amanda behaves aloof with me in public but when we are alone she is a lot more affectionate. Shanels reply "I wonder why?
Next issue is when we are alone she has a urge to always be texting the random guys ( I'm confused because when she is with friends she talks ) . I sometimes take away her phone and let her know we should talk now, not text or call later. She loves texting me so why not talk in person?
Finally I realize the problem MIGHT be I am acting needy . Remember she is behaving distant and I talk about it. I find it disrespectful to be talking while she is texting, when we plan to go somewhere and she sees friends and changes plans, she doesn't want anything from me ( how can a girl want NOTHING from her boyfriend? Does that mean I am doing well?), and she isn't as talkative with me compared to her platonic friends ( and some of the guys she fucked ).
What should I say to her? How do I be " sexy enough " so she doesn't cheat? I'm not saying she cheated, I'm only saying she behaves like she wants to do it. I'm probably over thinking this and being needy....she makes me wonder : am I being a good boyfriend, does she want more excitement, is she saying " give me space ", and go live my life with my friends? How do I progress a relationship if I don't know what SHE WANTS FROM ME?
Troy
It's been two weeks and we still behave distant in public. I don't know whose fault it is. We go to the same school and she is 2 lower grades. Her name is Amanda. So far I've learnt that my girlfriend has fucked 7 guys, including myself and she is 16 (what the fuck? Why are these girls having so many partners and they still in school?. It makes me feel I'm not trying). Amanda takes school seriously and said sex comes after. I've bedded her 2 times in two weeks and we agreed that she take Wednesday (skip school) and come to my house for a 4 hour fuck session.
Here is the problem though : she makes me feel insecure a lot. She shows me whatsapp messages of guys who are begging her to cheat on me so they can fuck. She hides a lot of things from me ( telling me she is going home and her friends tell me she going to meet a man somewhere.... I don't know why... But I feel nervous thinking she fucked them. Reason I say that is because I can text her and say " come give me a fuck " and she comes over (no resistance) . Last week Shanel, her best friend and I sat with her phone and Shanel, went through her texts (it's a thing best friends do). We saw some texts with guys saying similar stuff and she said "ok" (so easily) . I should also note that this was before we were together. But I have seen her flirt with other men in front of me and she doesn't flirt much with me. I'm wondering if she finds them sexier than myself.
She loves muscular men (and I am skinny plus she teases me about my inability to get muscles like those guys who she adores), she laughs more even if they said nothing and she initiates conversation with more passion ( with me, we laugh sometimes but I have to talk 3 times more than those guys to get a similar response from her. When I keep quiet like those dudes she just stares at me and starts a boring conversation,with them she jokes).
Also when we plan to go somewhere ( even if I keep her engaged, laughing and stuff) the moment she sees her friends it's like I am invisible. When we meet at school she prefers talking to friends... AND YOU KNOW WHAT? all her friends are asking me if we are still together because we don't behave like a couple. I told Shanel that Amanda behaves aloof with me in public but when we are alone she is a lot more affectionate. Shanels reply "I wonder why?
Next issue is when we are alone she has a urge to always be texting the random guys ( I'm confused because when she is with friends she talks ) . I sometimes take away her phone and let her know we should talk now, not text or call later. She loves texting me so why not talk in person?
Finally I realize the problem MIGHT be I am acting needy . Remember she is behaving distant and I talk about it. I find it disrespectful to be talking while she is texting, when we plan to go somewhere and she sees friends and changes plans, she doesn't want anything from me ( how can a girl want NOTHING from her boyfriend? Does that mean I am doing well?), and she isn't as talkative with me compared to her platonic friends ( and some of the guys she fucked ).
What should I say to her? How do I be " sexy enough " so she doesn't cheat? I'm not saying she cheated, I'm only saying she behaves like she wants to do it. I'm probably over thinking this and being needy....she makes me wonder : am I being a good boyfriend, does she want more excitement, is she saying " give me space ", and go live my life with my friends? How do I progress a relationship if I don't know what SHE WANTS FROM ME?
Troy