How old are you? Are you fit? What's your taste in clothes like? Do you take care of yourself? Do you shower?I tried it a few times in college but I feel like a sore thumb sticking out as a 5'4" Asian guy.
I would definitely like to get good at night game, but I have heard that it would be significantly more difficult for my height.
College experience should stay in college. You've posted your height and the fact you approached in college. There is nothing in your post that can allow the community to help you.
My assumption is that you've got limited life experience, have not really done much except for work; thus you are probably hungry for life experience. But instead of going for it, you rely on the traumas done to you earlier in life. I did the same thing so .. maybe I am projecting on you. I apologize if I am.