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This is kind of a weird report and a weird story, but it might be useful to some so screw it, imma post it.
Background
Just to give a lil background about me, I turned 19 last week, and started college this semester. I discovered Girlschase about 3 years ago and got super into seduction. I definitely could have lost my virginity back then, but I didn’t have a phone at the time, and messed up the few opportunities I did have anyway.
The peak of my attractiveness (game, charisma, fundamentals, everything) was about 2 years ago. I had just about every attractive girl in my year crushing on me, including the girl many would say was the outright hottest in my school. I also had the social ability to talk to and befriend pretty much everyone (I always kinda had this, but gc amplified and calibrated it). Anyway that peak ended when I rediscovered art and I was like screw all this socializing shiz, I just wanna draw.
Getting back into art put me in a vulnerable mindset for women, and last year in September some stuff happened with a girl that completely deleted my confidence (I had put all my focus on her like a fool), and so I took a break from “the game” because it stopped being fun for me. I had hoped I would bounce back soon, but instead I just became a really mediocre version of myself. My fundamentals got worse, my game became nonexistent, and I just straight up wasn’t having a very pleasant time, yo. I even lost my motivation for art.
This last summer was probably the most depressed/mediocre I’ve been in my life, but I forced myself to slowly bounce back. Part of my issue was that I felt disassociated with reality, so I wanted to get with an older woman who had her life together and who could make me feel things, someone who could ground me. Covid also over complicates things (and I live in a really small town), so I joined freaking match.com.
Meetup
Long story short I met this 37 year old woman who’s decently attractive. I think the line I first sent was "hi. Looking for a good time?". If anyone wants to use that online, you have my permission. At first she gave me shit saying stuff like “I don’t want to give lessons on fucking”, but I just persisted and about a month later I finally got her to come over to my town (this was all through text).
One of the issues that led to my downfall last year was the fact I was a virgin. Like how could I keep pretending I was good at sex when I’d never had sex? So really my goal in all of this was just to smash a girl and get some experience (keep in mind that my ability to provide a girl with an emotional experience and turn them on and make them want me was already really damn good at my peak, relatively speaking).
So this 37 y/o gets to my town and we go driving around the country for like an hour trying to find a place to get intimate. I’m mostly on autopilot as we converse and I find out more about her, but she enjoys the conversation. Eventually we find a place, get in the back of her car, and she starts giving me head. Something interesting is that this girl actually banned me from kissing her, cause it’s “too intimate”.
Anyway, my goal is to give her the best experience I can using all I know. A couple years ago, I played a little game called Rhythm Heaven in order to improve my rhythm, so my rhythm is already really good. I re-read a few Girlschase articles on sex in preparation.
SEX
I start fingering her while she gives me head. After, she gets on her back, grabs my mini-me and commences the love-making. Boom. Virginity lost. I’m going to go into gross detail now, so be prepared. I am in adapted missionary, and I start giving it to her slowly and gently at first, then I start going harder (keeping the rhythm of course). I think she came once or twice in this position, then I pulled out and she said “are you done?” and I said “no. turn around” and entered her in doggy style. Doggy style is not suited for car sex people, don’t do it. But I still make her come again here.
Then we stop doggy-style and she says “you haven’t come yet, have you?” and I say “nuh-uh” and she starts giving me another bj. I don’t feel much, and I ask her if she wants to ride. She complies, and it’s good, but I still don’t climax. I did do that one thing from the Ricardus article where I lifted my pelvis while she was on top, and she really liked that. Then I grab her ass so she stops moving and start fucking her from underneath really hard. She definitely would’ve climaxed (maybe she did), but I get too tired and stop :’(
Eventually we get back into adapted missionary. I start fucking her slowly and romantically, while kissing her neck and breathing on it. At the perfect moment I give her a simple kiss on the cheek. The timing and context made it feel so.. oomph, ya know? I don’t know how to describe it lol, it was just perfect, and one of my favorite things I did to her. Soon after this I start fucking her really hard, and getting much more passionate, and she starts getting LOUD. This was like the climax of the whole encounter.
Remember how she banned me from kissing her? Well at some point I just put my hands around her face and kiss the shiz out of her, and she just freaking ate that up. She starts kissing me back super good and immediately starts trying to tongue me down, but I don’t let her at first. Then we start french kissing and she puts her tongue deep into my mouth. So much for the no kissing rule. Then we stop kissing and I fuck her even harder than before, basically giving my max, and she is loving it. She’s got her arms around me, kissing my neck and shoulders, and then at some point she just wraps her arms and legs around me and gets super tight. As she hits her orgasm, I enter her as far as I can and hold it while I hold her tight. She's holding on really tight to me as well. Then we just stay still for a couple minutes, kind of catching our breaths. Eventually I get up and I just say “wow”.
Then I find out she likes anime (I do too). At some point she says “wow, you’re good at sex AND you like anime?”. I guess I’m good at sex and I like anime. Also, when I told her that I didn’t tell my parents when I left my house earlier that day, she said “for real? Wow, you’re bad at this. Well I mean, not at that [pointing to the back of the car]”.
So I guess I’m at the very least kinda good at sex. I know this girl has had a decent amount of lovers (she literally got with her supervisor just to get a promotion), although she did say something like two people should like each other for who they are or some shiz, so maybe she’s not super experienced. Who knows?
Epilogue
Anyway, I don't really know what to think of all this. To give more context on my mind, that girl who played me last year was one of the most genuine friends I've ever had. She chased me for a while, told me she loved me and then slept with another guy. I confronted her about it through text (I was sad yo) and found out she was pregnant the whole time. One of the last things she told me was that I was "disgusting", and that my perception of her was "evil".
That, plus the fact that she basically cucked me, kinda broke my masculinity. It also gave me this horrible paranoia, cause I didn't know if she had ruined my reputation at school.
To describe how I felt, when I first started getting better with women, I had to pretend I was confident. Then, I had great times with multiple attractive women and got real confidence. But after the shiz described above, it felt like I was faking unconfidence. Logically, I knew women were attracted to me, but emotionally I was like na
I guess I've lost touch with what women are attracted to. Is it unconfidence? Just my brain doing weird stuff? idk chiefs.
I never thought I would be one of the guys who is good (decent) in bed but bad at convincing women of it, but that's where I'm at right now. I used to be the opposite (or at least didn't know for sure if I was good in bed or not. Actually, I probably would've been better before since I was so much more dominant). I'll figure everything out eventually. I need to get good at cold-approaching, and get way better at sex, too.
For now tho im gonna whoop some ass online with Enderman in smash bros >>>>:^)
Background
Just to give a lil background about me, I turned 19 last week, and started college this semester. I discovered Girlschase about 3 years ago and got super into seduction. I definitely could have lost my virginity back then, but I didn’t have a phone at the time, and messed up the few opportunities I did have anyway.
The peak of my attractiveness (game, charisma, fundamentals, everything) was about 2 years ago. I had just about every attractive girl in my year crushing on me, including the girl many would say was the outright hottest in my school. I also had the social ability to talk to and befriend pretty much everyone (I always kinda had this, but gc amplified and calibrated it). Anyway that peak ended when I rediscovered art and I was like screw all this socializing shiz, I just wanna draw.
Getting back into art put me in a vulnerable mindset for women, and last year in September some stuff happened with a girl that completely deleted my confidence (I had put all my focus on her like a fool), and so I took a break from “the game” because it stopped being fun for me. I had hoped I would bounce back soon, but instead I just became a really mediocre version of myself. My fundamentals got worse, my game became nonexistent, and I just straight up wasn’t having a very pleasant time, yo. I even lost my motivation for art.
This last summer was probably the most depressed/mediocre I’ve been in my life, but I forced myself to slowly bounce back. Part of my issue was that I felt disassociated with reality, so I wanted to get with an older woman who had her life together and who could make me feel things, someone who could ground me. Covid also over complicates things (and I live in a really small town), so I joined freaking match.com.
Meetup
Long story short I met this 37 year old woman who’s decently attractive. I think the line I first sent was "hi. Looking for a good time?". If anyone wants to use that online, you have my permission. At first she gave me shit saying stuff like “I don’t want to give lessons on fucking”, but I just persisted and about a month later I finally got her to come over to my town (this was all through text).
One of the issues that led to my downfall last year was the fact I was a virgin. Like how could I keep pretending I was good at sex when I’d never had sex? So really my goal in all of this was just to smash a girl and get some experience (keep in mind that my ability to provide a girl with an emotional experience and turn them on and make them want me was already really damn good at my peak, relatively speaking).
So this 37 y/o gets to my town and we go driving around the country for like an hour trying to find a place to get intimate. I’m mostly on autopilot as we converse and I find out more about her, but she enjoys the conversation. Eventually we find a place, get in the back of her car, and she starts giving me head. Something interesting is that this girl actually banned me from kissing her, cause it’s “too intimate”.
Anyway, my goal is to give her the best experience I can using all I know. A couple years ago, I played a little game called Rhythm Heaven in order to improve my rhythm, so my rhythm is already really good. I re-read a few Girlschase articles on sex in preparation.
SEX
I start fingering her while she gives me head. After, she gets on her back, grabs my mini-me and commences the love-making. Boom. Virginity lost. I’m going to go into gross detail now, so be prepared. I am in adapted missionary, and I start giving it to her slowly and gently at first, then I start going harder (keeping the rhythm of course). I think she came once or twice in this position, then I pulled out and she said “are you done?” and I said “no. turn around” and entered her in doggy style. Doggy style is not suited for car sex people, don’t do it. But I still make her come again here.
Then we stop doggy-style and she says “you haven’t come yet, have you?” and I say “nuh-uh” and she starts giving me another bj. I don’t feel much, and I ask her if she wants to ride. She complies, and it’s good, but I still don’t climax. I did do that one thing from the Ricardus article where I lifted my pelvis while she was on top, and she really liked that. Then I grab her ass so she stops moving and start fucking her from underneath really hard. She definitely would’ve climaxed (maybe she did), but I get too tired and stop :’(
Eventually we get back into adapted missionary. I start fucking her slowly and romantically, while kissing her neck and breathing on it. At the perfect moment I give her a simple kiss on the cheek. The timing and context made it feel so.. oomph, ya know? I don’t know how to describe it lol, it was just perfect, and one of my favorite things I did to her. Soon after this I start fucking her really hard, and getting much more passionate, and she starts getting LOUD. This was like the climax of the whole encounter.
Remember how she banned me from kissing her? Well at some point I just put my hands around her face and kiss the shiz out of her, and she just freaking ate that up. She starts kissing me back super good and immediately starts trying to tongue me down, but I don’t let her at first. Then we start french kissing and she puts her tongue deep into my mouth. So much for the no kissing rule. Then we stop kissing and I fuck her even harder than before, basically giving my max, and she is loving it. She’s got her arms around me, kissing my neck and shoulders, and then at some point she just wraps her arms and legs around me and gets super tight. As she hits her orgasm, I enter her as far as I can and hold it while I hold her tight. She's holding on really tight to me as well. Then we just stay still for a couple minutes, kind of catching our breaths. Eventually I get up and I just say “wow”.
Then I find out she likes anime (I do too). At some point she says “wow, you’re good at sex AND you like anime?”. I guess I’m good at sex and I like anime. Also, when I told her that I didn’t tell my parents when I left my house earlier that day, she said “for real? Wow, you’re bad at this. Well I mean, not at that [pointing to the back of the car]”.
So I guess I’m at the very least kinda good at sex. I know this girl has had a decent amount of lovers (she literally got with her supervisor just to get a promotion), although she did say something like two people should like each other for who they are or some shiz, so maybe she’s not super experienced. Who knows?
Epilogue
Anyway, I don't really know what to think of all this. To give more context on my mind, that girl who played me last year was one of the most genuine friends I've ever had. She chased me for a while, told me she loved me and then slept with another guy. I confronted her about it through text (I was sad yo) and found out she was pregnant the whole time. One of the last things she told me was that I was "disgusting", and that my perception of her was "evil".
That, plus the fact that she basically cucked me, kinda broke my masculinity. It also gave me this horrible paranoia, cause I didn't know if she had ruined my reputation at school.
To describe how I felt, when I first started getting better with women, I had to pretend I was confident. Then, I had great times with multiple attractive women and got real confidence. But after the shiz described above, it felt like I was faking unconfidence. Logically, I knew women were attracted to me, but emotionally I was like na
I guess I've lost touch with what women are attracted to. Is it unconfidence? Just my brain doing weird stuff? idk chiefs.
I never thought I would be one of the guys who is good (decent) in bed but bad at convincing women of it, but that's where I'm at right now. I used to be the opposite (or at least didn't know for sure if I was good in bed or not. Actually, I probably would've been better before since I was so much more dominant). I'll figure everything out eventually. I need to get good at cold-approaching, and get way better at sex, too.
For now tho im gonna whoop some ass online with Enderman in smash bros >>>>:^)
