A little background about this one.
So I lost my virginity in December with this 3 year older than me, young milf. I looked real nervous (had my libido dropped due to nofap?) when I couldn't get hard for our first time, it had ruined my mood. But we got back together like 2-3 times before I finally managed. She had asked me whether she was my first, which made me even more nervous and forced me to lie about it (rather than evade the question, and I'm not used to lying), told her I was with another girl before.
We were in an open relationship, but the sex wasn't great (7/10 times condoms would kill my erection, it was painful). However all her signs started showing the opposite, that she took it more serious (Had met my family members, we both had met each other's friends and hanged out with them etc) until she started using Tinder in early January. She was real honest (way too honest than anyone should be) and kept showing me her matches, a random text, told me about dating a guy (no sex on the 1st date) and I kept viewing it as a shit-test, so I kinda played it cool and ignored it (even though I was boiling from the inside). I believe our communication wasn't the best, I had started getting real attached to her (no abundance of women here) but she never realized.
She completely ruined me when she went out with her tinder match yet again and got smashed, and even told me about it like it was nothing. She had assumed, that due to my stance of not showing envy with her tinder bullshit that I was cool with it. That was 10 days ago.
So we had to meet up and have a conversation regarding each other's feelings. She told me we had to break it up because she didn't feel like playing a double game (fucking bullshit, it felt just fine when she was playing me with him behind my back), still had feelings about me but didn't feel it anymore, she didn't wanna hurt anybody, so it would be best to seperate. Whatever. We "broke up" on good, friendly terms.
I didn't capitulate.
Told her next day we'd go for a run in the morning. She texts me at 8 am that she's got a terrible headache, I was just leaving my house. Text her back that I'm already on my way. She's like "Alright, just come."
We explore an ancient castle near her place, then go to another for a walk/run. She was kinda cold and feeling weak so we didn't run for too long. At one point she was baiting me about revealing what I fancied about a girl I knew from work, (she had seen her ex with her) and she was getting all jealous and playful. I kept gropping her ass on occasions and still made a point that I still want her. At one point she grabs my dick, tells me she's just checking to see if everything's in place. Wouldn't kiss me in the lips though, but turn her cheek.
I returned her home.
Next day, last Thursday. I go to her work to grab a book she had promised to lend me. She had forgotten about it cause she was in a morning rush, top100.
Whatever, she asked me whether I'd return her home, I agreed.
We had a chat on our way there, she had deep dived herself way too much, had gotten into a lot of personal details and I felt that I was more mysterious, secluded. I felt obliged to reveal some crap about myself, so I told her how come I hadn't gotten any pussy in my highschool years and afterwards, up until the girl I lied to her about.
Revealed to her that nothing had occured with that one apart from some minor flirting, she had told me she was single and a week later her boyfriend pops up.
Next sentence I tell my FWB that she was actually my first. I didn't wanna disappoint her or make her lose attraction, that's why I withheld it. She was shocked and felt bad she had rushed into sex so early and wasn't so tender. I re-assured her that I wanted it as badly as she did, it was just the bad timing with the libido crap.
We reach her home, she tells me to carry on and drive to a secluded spot to have a chat. I told her yet again, that I want to be with her like we were a month ago, that I couldn't view her as a friend but don't wanna break ties completely with her either. She said it wasn't right, because she's with the other tinder faggot. We were sitting in the backseats of my car, I grab her and set her ontop of my thighs. She rubs herself against me, tells me
"I'd still fuck you right now, but it's not right."
Whatever. I'm rubbing her all over her thighs, she's getting warmed up. It's on. I turn her over and lie her down against the corner of the backseat, I'm ontop of her, rubbing her inner thighs, never did I ever touch her pussy.
I'm eating her neck out, lower to her breasts, I stick my dick out and tell her "Look how hard you've made me" (Last time we tried to have sex, 1 week prior to that day, I got hard 4 times and condoms killed my erection all 4 times, she left disappointed and so did I, heartbroken even)
She grabs my rock hard dick. I think I was at ease with her and relieved that I had confessed to her all the shit that I had withheld from her. I had already lost her, so there was no reason to hide anything anymore. I felt so much more comfortable having her around. No fears of disappointing her or making a fool of myself.
I intensify the neck kissing, tit sucking, thigh rubbing. She is SO warmed up and moaning. Our pants fly off. She wants me to rub her cunt, I refuse. She tries to do it herself, I grab her hands and move them aside. I'm torturing her and I'm loving it. She's melting.
Eventually I rub her pussy lips and clit with the tip of my rock hard cock. I don't think my dick has ever been that hard with her around. I wasn't nervous anymore and I had really missed her.
She tells me "Not like this" and guides my dick against her vagina entrance. I push and plow her for a few moments. It feels so much better than the latex crap I've been wearing.
I grab a new condom, was gonna use this brand for the first time, girl had told me it did miracles with her previous relationship, and it was cheap also.
It was truly so much better. The latex smell was minimum and the feeling was so much better. I plow her nice and good for quite some time. She's never been this wet. I finish ontop of her panties.
She felt bad, had second thoughts, "it wasn't right" .. "I can't keep my legs shut." Whatever. I felt good about myself, smashed her back after she had completely broken my heart. I had re-seduced her, used her even, to fullfil my lust.
She tries to break the ice by hi-fiving me, telling me that I'm all good and at least I don't have the condom issue anymore. We leave, still chat regularly. I plan on meeting her again within the week to slay her.
However I feel that I've been real needy after we "broke up". I wasn't at all during our FWB/ Open relationship thing, and I think that's what fucked me over, alongside other things, such as my temporary erectile dysfunction. Our communication wasn't the best. We agreed to a "chill, open relationship" and I didn't wanna look envious or enforcing, due to her having issues with previous boyfriend, but then again, she was showing me mixed signals that were leading towards a closed relationship. I had told her that I was getting more attached with her than I wanted, she didn't get the crystal clear message and apparently wanted to hear it more openly. I also gave her bad signals regarding the tinder bullshit of hers. She thought I was chilll while it was killing me inside and I didn't point it out. Once, the condom slipped and I burst all my cum inside of her and she started freaking out. Supposedly she couldn't take any pills due to a medical condition, turns out she could. But she told me that, that was the turning point in our relationship. She couldn't feel easy and relaxed with me anymore during sex and wanted to check the condom constantly ever since. (During our last sex she was super wet, more than ever) We also had agreed to do a bunch of extreme sports such as paragliding, free falling, snowboarding etc, but due to the Xmas vacations, family time, bad weather etc, all was cancelled. She might've gotten annoyed over that.
Overall, I really like her personality, she's very outgoing and energetic and brings joy to me. I wanna keep her around, as with her I do things that I really enjoy but otherwise can't do, as I have nobody to go with, but now that we've "broken up" we don't really hang out much, while it used to be everyday, now we only chill maybe once a week during the weekdays while on the weekends she goes to her Tinderfuccboi 100kms away to spend time with him all day, go mountain hiking and whatever, which we were meant to be doing together.. Again, abundance isn't really a thing to get over her in a day.
I don't know, this chick is weird and game didn't work to her all that great, or I messed up bad. Any ideas of how to get her back? That'd be really appreciated.
PS: The tinder fag lives far, far away. They've only met thrice, while she's been hanging out with me nearly everyday for over a month. Any help regarding winning her back would be greatly appreciated.
So I lost my virginity in December with this 3 year older than me, young milf. I looked real nervous (had my libido dropped due to nofap?) when I couldn't get hard for our first time, it had ruined my mood. But we got back together like 2-3 times before I finally managed. She had asked me whether she was my first, which made me even more nervous and forced me to lie about it (rather than evade the question, and I'm not used to lying), told her I was with another girl before.
We were in an open relationship, but the sex wasn't great (7/10 times condoms would kill my erection, it was painful). However all her signs started showing the opposite, that she took it more serious (Had met my family members, we both had met each other's friends and hanged out with them etc) until she started using Tinder in early January. She was real honest (way too honest than anyone should be) and kept showing me her matches, a random text, told me about dating a guy (no sex on the 1st date) and I kept viewing it as a shit-test, so I kinda played it cool and ignored it (even though I was boiling from the inside). I believe our communication wasn't the best, I had started getting real attached to her (no abundance of women here) but she never realized.
She completely ruined me when she went out with her tinder match yet again and got smashed, and even told me about it like it was nothing. She had assumed, that due to my stance of not showing envy with her tinder bullshit that I was cool with it. That was 10 days ago.
So we had to meet up and have a conversation regarding each other's feelings. She told me we had to break it up because she didn't feel like playing a double game (fucking bullshit, it felt just fine when she was playing me with him behind my back), still had feelings about me but didn't feel it anymore, she didn't wanna hurt anybody, so it would be best to seperate. Whatever. We "broke up" on good, friendly terms.
I didn't capitulate.
Told her next day we'd go for a run in the morning. She texts me at 8 am that she's got a terrible headache, I was just leaving my house. Text her back that I'm already on my way. She's like "Alright, just come."
We explore an ancient castle near her place, then go to another for a walk/run. She was kinda cold and feeling weak so we didn't run for too long. At one point she was baiting me about revealing what I fancied about a girl I knew from work, (she had seen her ex with her) and she was getting all jealous and playful. I kept gropping her ass on occasions and still made a point that I still want her. At one point she grabs my dick, tells me she's just checking to see if everything's in place. Wouldn't kiss me in the lips though, but turn her cheek.
I returned her home.
Next day, last Thursday. I go to her work to grab a book she had promised to lend me. She had forgotten about it cause she was in a morning rush, top100.
Whatever, she asked me whether I'd return her home, I agreed.
We had a chat on our way there, she had deep dived herself way too much, had gotten into a lot of personal details and I felt that I was more mysterious, secluded. I felt obliged to reveal some crap about myself, so I told her how come I hadn't gotten any pussy in my highschool years and afterwards, up until the girl I lied to her about.
Revealed to her that nothing had occured with that one apart from some minor flirting, she had told me she was single and a week later her boyfriend pops up.
Next sentence I tell my FWB that she was actually my first. I didn't wanna disappoint her or make her lose attraction, that's why I withheld it. She was shocked and felt bad she had rushed into sex so early and wasn't so tender. I re-assured her that I wanted it as badly as she did, it was just the bad timing with the libido crap.
We reach her home, she tells me to carry on and drive to a secluded spot to have a chat. I told her yet again, that I want to be with her like we were a month ago, that I couldn't view her as a friend but don't wanna break ties completely with her either. She said it wasn't right, because she's with the other tinder faggot. We were sitting in the backseats of my car, I grab her and set her ontop of my thighs. She rubs herself against me, tells me
"I'd still fuck you right now, but it's not right."
Whatever. I'm rubbing her all over her thighs, she's getting warmed up. It's on. I turn her over and lie her down against the corner of the backseat, I'm ontop of her, rubbing her inner thighs, never did I ever touch her pussy.
I'm eating her neck out, lower to her breasts, I stick my dick out and tell her "Look how hard you've made me" (Last time we tried to have sex, 1 week prior to that day, I got hard 4 times and condoms killed my erection all 4 times, she left disappointed and so did I, heartbroken even)
She grabs my rock hard dick. I think I was at ease with her and relieved that I had confessed to her all the shit that I had withheld from her. I had already lost her, so there was no reason to hide anything anymore. I felt so much more comfortable having her around. No fears of disappointing her or making a fool of myself.
I intensify the neck kissing, tit sucking, thigh rubbing. She is SO warmed up and moaning. Our pants fly off. She wants me to rub her cunt, I refuse. She tries to do it herself, I grab her hands and move them aside. I'm torturing her and I'm loving it. She's melting.
Eventually I rub her pussy lips and clit with the tip of my rock hard cock. I don't think my dick has ever been that hard with her around. I wasn't nervous anymore and I had really missed her.
She tells me "Not like this" and guides my dick against her vagina entrance. I push and plow her for a few moments. It feels so much better than the latex crap I've been wearing.
I grab a new condom, was gonna use this brand for the first time, girl had told me it did miracles with her previous relationship, and it was cheap also.
It was truly so much better. The latex smell was minimum and the feeling was so much better. I plow her nice and good for quite some time. She's never been this wet. I finish ontop of her panties.
She felt bad, had second thoughts, "it wasn't right" .. "I can't keep my legs shut." Whatever. I felt good about myself, smashed her back after she had completely broken my heart. I had re-seduced her, used her even, to fullfil my lust.
She tries to break the ice by hi-fiving me, telling me that I'm all good and at least I don't have the condom issue anymore. We leave, still chat regularly. I plan on meeting her again within the week to slay her.
However I feel that I've been real needy after we "broke up". I wasn't at all during our FWB/ Open relationship thing, and I think that's what fucked me over, alongside other things, such as my temporary erectile dysfunction. Our communication wasn't the best. We agreed to a "chill, open relationship" and I didn't wanna look envious or enforcing, due to her having issues with previous boyfriend, but then again, she was showing me mixed signals that were leading towards a closed relationship. I had told her that I was getting more attached with her than I wanted, she didn't get the crystal clear message and apparently wanted to hear it more openly. I also gave her bad signals regarding the tinder bullshit of hers. She thought I was chilll while it was killing me inside and I didn't point it out. Once, the condom slipped and I burst all my cum inside of her and she started freaking out. Supposedly she couldn't take any pills due to a medical condition, turns out she could. But she told me that, that was the turning point in our relationship. She couldn't feel easy and relaxed with me anymore during sex and wanted to check the condom constantly ever since. (During our last sex she was super wet, more than ever) We also had agreed to do a bunch of extreme sports such as paragliding, free falling, snowboarding etc, but due to the Xmas vacations, family time, bad weather etc, all was cancelled. She might've gotten annoyed over that.
Overall, I really like her personality, she's very outgoing and energetic and brings joy to me. I wanna keep her around, as with her I do things that I really enjoy but otherwise can't do, as I have nobody to go with, but now that we've "broken up" we don't really hang out much, while it used to be everyday, now we only chill maybe once a week during the weekdays while on the weekends she goes to her Tinderfuccboi 100kms away to spend time with him all day, go mountain hiking and whatever, which we were meant to be doing together.. Again, abundance isn't really a thing to get over her in a day.
I don't know, this chick is weird and game didn't work to her all that great, or I messed up bad. Any ideas of how to get her back? That'd be really appreciated.
PS: The tinder fag lives far, far away. They've only met thrice, while she's been hanging out with me nearly everyday for over a month. Any help regarding winning her back would be greatly appreciated.
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