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- Aug 11, 2023
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I hate having to have strong body language, a deep voice, having to talk slowly and to keep eye contact. I hate having to play being unaffected when I am faced with stroppy behaviour. I hate having to be the strong father to her who always knows what to do.
I hate that doing that on purpose helps picking up women tremendeously. Not just a bit, it is day and night.
I hate forgetting to do that over and over.
I naturally sit comfortably, have a normal voice, have many ideas and therefore talk fast and don't have the patience for "who looks away first".
Every time I do the first paragraph, I get rewarded. But it never becomes me, I always fight against my modus operandi, which is the previous paragraph. Every single time. No matter how many times I do it right, how many times I am being rewarded, if I don't watch out, I am this bubbly little boy in shitty clothes again.
What makes me sad is, I see it. I see how my behaviour doesn't help me.
But when I approach women, sometimes I don't breathe enough, my voice has no power and I am being punished by dismissive behaviour.
Every single time my body works against me.
Repetition is not the cure for me, but what is?
I hate that doing that on purpose helps picking up women tremendeously. Not just a bit, it is day and night.
I hate forgetting to do that over and over.
I naturally sit comfortably, have a normal voice, have many ideas and therefore talk fast and don't have the patience for "who looks away first".
Every time I do the first paragraph, I get rewarded. But it never becomes me, I always fight against my modus operandi, which is the previous paragraph. Every single time. No matter how many times I do it right, how many times I am being rewarded, if I don't watch out, I am this bubbly little boy in shitty clothes again.
What makes me sad is, I see it. I see how my behaviour doesn't help me.
But when I approach women, sometimes I don't breathe enough, my voice has no power and I am being punished by dismissive behaviour.
Every single time my body works against me.
Repetition is not the cure for me, but what is?
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