Asking Way Too Much, Way Too Soon
Day of Thursday, 17 April 2014
Purpose: Date for formal
Girl 1 (Calc Girl)
This girl was the one from my Calculus class. Right after the exam, I went up to her and asked her where she is headed? Literally the first thing she brings up is something from a couple of days ago that I was teasing her about and my intuition about a girl like her, caring about my opinion of her, was correct. She was trying to qualify herself and hopefully I let her know that it's alright before getting back on topic. Anyways, what I THOUGHT was going to be an EASY YES backfired when she told me that her sister's engagement party is on the same weekend. I'm thinking, well fuck. I let her go and am glad I asked!
Girl 2 (Cute Brunette)
At this point in the day, I'm thinking, "Well.... I guess I have to go with some random person I don't know rather than someone I already know..." I see a cute brunette and tell myself, "Fuck it just go please!!!!!" I walk up, get close to her side and say, "Hey there," and put on the cheekiest/sexiest grin I could think of. Her reception is warm: "Hi," with a smile. Her smile cools my anxiety down so I'm thinking, "Just say something man, keep talking," So the next step that comes to mind is to compliment her, so I tell her that I think she's really cute which prompts her to shyly say thanks which I thought was cute (I really hope I don't make girls nervous even though it feels like it a lot... not sure if I am aiming "low" on the target/afraid to approach the really hot ones, although I that average girls usually have better personalities compared to the hotter ones, who are always given attention with ease). I ask a basic question about what she is up to today, and she is headed to class. At this point, I feel a time crunch and I just go straight for the heart of the interaction and ask if she'd accompany me as my date to a dance. Without going into much detail since this was pretty much a crapshoot... I get denied. Wasn't surprised. I felt like I half-assed the whole thing. Laughed it all off and went to my noon class.
Girl 3 (HTM)
At this point in the day, I'm feeling anxious and nervous because I only have a week left. I decide, I wonder if HTM would be interested. I'm not expecting much from her so I shoot her a text asking how adventurous she is. "Not very... lol why". I make a =_= *figures face* and text back "Oh no... not adventurous... " and then try to create intrigue by saying, "So getting dressed up, traveling, possibly dance and a bit of drinking isn't your thing?" I get no text back. I head to the math department to grab my afternoon meal and get some work done on my code. 20-30 minutes after my arrival she shows up and I'm thinking, "Wow... she's never here during this time." She doesn't pay attention to me even though I know she sees me and I make it clear that I want her to engage me from the get go by looking at her intently. She talks to another tutor, so I get back to my work and pay her no attention since I don't want to be waiting on her. She engages me and says that she is leaving at 5 that day, but I say it is next week. She laughs saying that it was something spontaneous and I think, "I wouldn't even want to ask that based on your initial response..." I tell her it is next week and she asks what it is. I tell her and then she says, "Oh well, I would go if it wasn't out of state, but since it is...", I cut her off, nonchalantly following with, "It's cool, I'll just ask another girl." When I said that, I realized I was hurt because every time I ask her she shoots me down even, which just strengthens the rule that reactions vs results matter (I always feel like she is interested in me, but things never work out... it may be that I'm not pushing enough after the initial denial). I proceed to get into friendly mode since I really don't care what she thinks of me now so I decide to tell her what is up, "Man the first girl...", she cuts me off, "What, I wasn't your first choice," slightly offended/surprised look, "well then..." Paying no attention to her, "And then there was the second girl...", she cuts me off again, "Wait... I wasn't good enough for second?!" I'm laughing at this point because I think it is cute, I can't tell if she is surprised or feigning surprise. I straighten up and realize my folly of not taking care of a girl's feelings, so I use logic. "Well, I wasn't expecting much asking you..." she looks at me confused and intrigued, "I mean everytime I ask you anything you're always so busy and tell me no. I mean take now for example, what was the result?" Her face softens and she agrees with a, "Yea you're right." Although I want to believe that she understands my logic, I want her to know that it hurts getting rejected and if she is going to act surprised at least be aware of why you aren't the first pick.... even if that means I have to hurt her feelings a little.... I try to lighten the mood by saying in a playful tone, "Besides, you hate me anyways so I'm doing you a favor by not having you come with me," (inside joke. I think she does like me she just doesn't want to show it, so it is expressed by her being "mean" (alluding to mean and horny article). So I decided I'm just playfully teasing her and being sexual with her.) I guess I catch her off guard since she is thinking about what I said before and she comes up with an auto-response, "Oh yea... I loathe you." I thought she said, "I love you," so I ask her to repeat.... I'm sure she said no anyways because she is auto-rejection and if she wasn't before, then she probably is now.... ANYWAYS.... I try to work on my lab, but all the rejections are bringing me down. I get my stuff together and head out for class where my friend picks my mood up.
After a day of moping around, I am pretty happy because I haven't really gotten around to scheduling any sort of date with any girl.
All in all, I'm looking up. I have a week to get a date, which is plenty of time.