Members,
I'm asking for help. I've been an off-and-on frequenter of this site for almost a decade, and it remains one of the few places I trust to get a certain kind of advice, one that I need desperately now.
Here's my situation: it's been almost an entire year since I've had sex. It's been over a year since I've had remotely satisfying sex. I'm looking back on some two-and-a-half years of negative momentum in terms of results, even though I believe I've become increasingly stronger and more attractive as a man over that time.
Without going into long details, I'll try to describe my problem succinctly.
I basically feel like the Captain in Moby Dick. Two and a half years ago, a girl broke my heart like I'd never experienced before (she was about my 20th partner, but the most attractive I'd ever been with). Since then, I've never been able to get satisfying results with women; either I don't get the one's I want, or I get them but I get little satisfaction out of it. For a long time, none of the girls I would get with measured up to my ex. After a while, I stopped enjoying sex entirely. If I did find a girl who was attractive, and I found myself starting to actually like her, I would eject her out of my life out of fear of getting attached to someone less than my ex, knowing I could "do better".
After sex stopped being enjoyable at all, I started screening for higher tier women. Somewhat attractive girls would go for me, and I would entertain them just long enough for me to feel confident I could get with them if I tried. Then I would stop talking to them, since there was no challenge/interest any more.
A couple months ago, I finally met a girl who impressed me for the first time since my ex. We hit it off, and things went well, but I fumbled the escalation on the second date, due to bad logistics and having gone so long without getting to that point with a girl. We had a couple more dates, but the attraction fizzled out and I lost her.
I fell into a deep depression which I'm just now coming out of. The thing is, I know I'm capable of getting that level of woman. The problem is, it's so hard to find the right combination of timing, availability, etc. I don't want to keep doing this for another two years until I meet a girl who actually impresses me again. I'm also tired of being in what at this point is starting to feel like involuntary celibacy, due to my inability to find or feign any interest in the vast majority of women who I could get with.
What do I do?
P.S. If it matters, I'm on about 30 partners now. I could get more easily, but the game stopped being fun in and of itself a long time ago. I only care about results now.
I'm asking for help. I've been an off-and-on frequenter of this site for almost a decade, and it remains one of the few places I trust to get a certain kind of advice, one that I need desperately now.
Here's my situation: it's been almost an entire year since I've had sex. It's been over a year since I've had remotely satisfying sex. I'm looking back on some two-and-a-half years of negative momentum in terms of results, even though I believe I've become increasingly stronger and more attractive as a man over that time.
Without going into long details, I'll try to describe my problem succinctly.
I basically feel like the Captain in Moby Dick. Two and a half years ago, a girl broke my heart like I'd never experienced before (she was about my 20th partner, but the most attractive I'd ever been with). Since then, I've never been able to get satisfying results with women; either I don't get the one's I want, or I get them but I get little satisfaction out of it. For a long time, none of the girls I would get with measured up to my ex. After a while, I stopped enjoying sex entirely. If I did find a girl who was attractive, and I found myself starting to actually like her, I would eject her out of my life out of fear of getting attached to someone less than my ex, knowing I could "do better".
After sex stopped being enjoyable at all, I started screening for higher tier women. Somewhat attractive girls would go for me, and I would entertain them just long enough for me to feel confident I could get with them if I tried. Then I would stop talking to them, since there was no challenge/interest any more.
A couple months ago, I finally met a girl who impressed me for the first time since my ex. We hit it off, and things went well, but I fumbled the escalation on the second date, due to bad logistics and having gone so long without getting to that point with a girl. We had a couple more dates, but the attraction fizzled out and I lost her.
I fell into a deep depression which I'm just now coming out of. The thing is, I know I'm capable of getting that level of woman. The problem is, it's so hard to find the right combination of timing, availability, etc. I don't want to keep doing this for another two years until I meet a girl who actually impresses me again. I'm also tired of being in what at this point is starting to feel like involuntary celibacy, due to my inability to find or feign any interest in the vast majority of women who I could get with.
What do I do?
P.S. If it matters, I'm on about 30 partners now. I could get more easily, but the game stopped being fun in and of itself a long time ago. I only care about results now.
