Update #19
Date: Friday February 14th, 2020
Style: Night Game
Pregame:
- 9:51 PM = 5000 iu D3
- 10:01 PM = 8 min 30 sec fap
What Happened Tonight?
I opened somewhere between 8-12 girls tonight.
The most i have done since probably 2014.
I remember this Monday night back in July or August 2014 where i opened several girls and ended up taking this white girl hone (but did not fuck).
That night always stands out in my mind because i have never in my life opened that many girls in a bar or club before or since.
And unless I'm forgetting something tonight is the most since that night for sure.
There are several things I have done recently that I think helped me tonight:
- I went out tonight without wearing any contacts. Someone on another group suggested this to me and my gut told me to try it. And i think being basically blind helped me be less self conscious and worry about people watching me like i usually do.
- on Thursday I decided to abandon all attempts to do any verbal game at all and focus on what feels natural to me which is non verbal stuff. I have been reading every thread i can find on sedfast on dancefloor game. I reread Alek's dancefloor series and most importantly i found this amazing article by chase
https://www.girlschase.com/content/pulling-women-close The opener Chase explains is what i ended up doing with all the girls tonight.
- I ejaculated to porn last Sunday around 3 AM. since then i have not ejaculated at all. but i have been fapping every day. I learned this routine from legendary seducer ijjj who claimed that ejaculating only once a week (or only during sex) but still fapping without cumming was the best routine for maximum sex drive and ability to approach girls. I'm pretty sure i was hornier then usual while in the club tonight.
- I have been rereading a book called the inner game of tennis. I first read this book years ago but it randomly came to my mind this week and i think it helped me.
What Happened During Your Actual Interactions With Girls:
- all my opens where girls who where about to walk past me and i just grabbed and pulled them as described in the Chase article.
here are the interactions i remember in no particular order:
- ethnically ambiguous girl with accent, i grab and pull so we are face to face with me holding her hips, i just stare at her without saying anything, she says "do i know you?", i say "no", then i remember asking her where her accent was from, she said "guess", i guessed Australia and she said no. then she said she had to go find her friends or something.
- short brown girl who was dressed badly, not even sure why i opened her, just as practice. she rubs her body on mine as she is walking by, i grab her hand, she turns and looks, i just look at her, she yanks her hand away and keeps walking. these 2 brown guys next to me laugh. i think this was my first open tonight.
- tall blonde, grab hand and pull, we are face to face and im just looking at her, i think i said something about her being attractive, she said something about having to find her friends but she said this without moving her body away from me at all so i just grab her and start slowly dancing. i instantly feel self conscious so i try to take her to dancefloor so we can blend in with other people dancing. as soon as we get on the dancefloor we are in front of this large group and i think those must be her friends so i just eject instantly as i just felt super self conscious. i turn and notice she is walking away from that group, so i go after her and lightly grab her hand, "where are you going?", "i need to go find my friends", then she mumbles something about being sorry and really wanting to stay...something like that
- short curvy blonce, my type, but raspy voice that i hate. grab and pull as she is walking by so we are face to face. tell her she is gorgeous, she says thank you but she has a boyfriend and points towards the dancefloor i guess indicating where the guy is. i think i asked "where is he" and then she pointed. then i said "what do you think he will do if he find us like this" meaning what would the guy do if he found me holding his girl like i was holding her. i dont remember what she said. then i said something about how i wanted to see how the guy would react and she said :well i dont" and that was pretty much it.
- not many details on this one. grabbed hand she the girl violently/forcefully pulled away and kept walking. i think i timed this one wrong and tried to grab when she had already walked by me so almost from behind.
- another one i grabbed, she smiles and point at her friend who is holding her other hand and they keep walking.
- super short blonde with big juicy ass, my type. i dont think i grabbed, i think i toucher her on the shoulder and then did the come her sign with my finger. she smiles, shakes head no and keeps walking.
- 2 older girls but hot and well dressed. grab one on hand she looks at me but gives no sort of reaction and keeps walking.
- last girl. white girl. grab and pull so we are face to face. i fucked up on this one. first she is kind of mediocre. nothing wrong with her but like a 6 to me. and my goal is to fuck a girl im legitmately attracted to and had i fucked this girl i still would not have accomplished my goal. this interaction is more evidence of my theory that girls will NOT cockblock if the girl likes you. she was with another girl who just stood there without interfering for what seemed like a long time before this other black guy started talking to her. so my girl, 18 years old. within 4-5 min i invited her to come over to watch a movie and she said no because im a stranger. then we kept talking for a really long time. i really fucked up here. i wasted the last period of the night on this girl. but i felt bad ejecting because every time i would stop talking and just look at her she would ask me a question or keep the conversation going.
so we talk and talk and talk. in my entire life this is the most time I think i have ever spent with a girl in a club. even the girls who i have fucked from clubs the interactions where shorter. so im touching her constantly as we talk but im not horny by her. anyways, at 2 AM the lights come on and this bouncer walks over to where we are and loudly says "alright guys, time to exchange numbers and go home". this girl instantly says "nice to meet you" and walks away with her friend. i later see her outside im like "goodnight (name) and ask her "how are you getting home?" ...and she is like "probably uber". and thats it. again i really fucked up here spending this much time with a girl i was not even attracted to. also she kind of had bad breath. not stinky but just an odour that i did not like. so more reason i should have ejected but genuinely felt bad trying to find a way to end it and the conversation was good.
so i think that covers all the girls tonight. so 10 girls i opened.
- no sex cloud appeared during any of these 10 girls i opened.
What Do You Want To Change After Tonight?
- make sure you eject right away if you realize the girl is not hot. do NOT feel bad for them. notice this last girl did not feel bad when she instantly left when the lights come on so you must be just as ruthless. if you pull a girl in and realize she is not hot. get rid of her right away even if she keeps trying to continue the interaction.
- stop talking so much after you are face to face. remember you are running a non verbal style. after you pull them in, just stare at them until they look away and let them say the first words. i think telling them they are attractive is hurting you so see what happens when you stop that. so tomorrow night try to grab, pull and stare until they say something first.
- see what happens if you touch on shoulder to get their attention before grabbing and pulling them in. test this.
What About the Dancefloor?
for the first time since last summer i actually stepped on the dancefloor multiple times tonight.
The last time i spent this much time on the dancefloor was when i tested getting drunk on purpose last summer.
Unfortunately, nothing new happened on the dancefloor tonight.
I still feel very self conscious just being on the dancefloor alone.
I also did several laps through the dancefloor to see if i could find a girl staring at me or giving me some sort of blatant approach invitation but nothing i remember.
I'm not sure how to operate on the dancefloor alone.
I'm 100% fine being alone anywhere else in the club but for some reason on the actual dancefloor i feel very self conscious even tonight.
I really want to learn how to operate on the dancefloor alone but im not sure what to do.
what i did tonight is just walk throught the dancefloor looking for blatant approach invitations but did not notice any and of course without contacts i cannot see well at all.
The other thing i tried earlier in the night was just stand on the dancefloor by myself next to another group of guys to kind of blend in. I had this attractive asian girl who came and stood directly next to me and another curvy asian girl seemed to be throwing me looks. but i was not sure what to do. the girl throwing me looks was far so i would have had to push through the crowd to get to her. and i remember thinking, "if you like me then why dont you get closer". and the other girl next to me i was not sure what to do because she was not dancing so its like how do i initiate this interaction in the loudness of the dancefloor when you are not dancing.
anyways, yeah not much new to report on the dancefloor except for that i was able to spend significant time on there tonight even though i was not drunk.
Anything Else You Want To Remember About Tonight?
This guy i had punched in this club a few weeks ago. i saw him at the end of the night and weirdly him and his friends just walked by without attempting to start any problems with me.
I need to be very careful now that i will be going out without contacts.
I have a lot of enemies from clubing and since im blind i dont even notice them.
I had no idea this guy and his crew where even in the club tonight and usually i always notice them so me being blind could put my safety at risk.
I need to be very careful to not hangout outside after the club closes when im alone and dont have the safety of bouncers.
I could easily have been jumped by these guys outside the club tonight.
At the end of the night i need to quickly leave and go out through the door where the bouncer is very friendly to me and can provide safety as i get in my taxi.
Being blind helped me open 10 girls tonight but it also seriously put my safety at risk since i cannot see who is in the club; i need to be way more careful tomorrow night.
sleep = woke up at 6:30 PM after 7 hours and 56 min of sleep (4:45 PM Alarm)
SR = last release (13 min) at 3:49 AM on 02-09-2020 (around 117 hours)
Fap = have been fapping daily without cumming since last release
- I was inside the club at 10:56 PM
