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[Alpha13SC]

Hi,

After seeing other people's journals and recognizing easier the mistakes, I want to do one also, for debugging my interactions with girls. I ll write about other things that goes through my life also.

Thursday, 10 December.

Had planned a date with a girl, R. The plan was to go out with her, in a park, then riding with her to her home, and going with the classic "I want to go to bathroom". I know this already works, because I used it. But, unfortunately, father of one of my best friends died, so I wanted to spent some of that evening with him. I still went to the date, tho, didn't want to let it tbh. Today, 13 December is my birthday. She knew and already bought me a gift, a hoodie. This was nice from her. Already investment from her side.

When me met, a lot of compliance from her side. I deep dived her, she told me a lot of her personal stuff, with her family. She had an abusive family, so we'll see how this turned with me. This is enough of a red flag, but in the first month it doesn't really matter. I m not really screening for ltr.

I had a good time with her, talked a lot, did some kino with her, laughed a lot to my jokes. We took a walk in a park. In that park I went with some girls, it's part of my routine. We stayed on a bench, said to her "Come closer". She complied and then went straight to kiss. We kiss passionately. Nice. But this was at the end of the date. We had to go, I had to be at my friend.

Took her at a ride with my moto. First time, she had so many emotions, but turned out to be good. She trusted me. Tbh, it was dangerous to ride my moto in december, when outside was about 7 Celsius, with a passenger.

Talked with her on 11 December, but a few replies since I was busy. Left her on read for a few hours. I think this change my attainability too much, because she left me also. Today, 13 December, we started talking again, said to her we should celebrate my birthday. Went for an invitation to cook some pancakes at my place. I ll see how this works.

Friday, 11 December

Another date, this girl A. This is a dentist. She came with her car, so this kind of logistics helped me. I think I need a car, especially for this kind of situations, with bad weather, too cold, or even going to a place, instead of metro. I can't ride my moto for too long now, since it will snow.

We went to a pub. Had some drinks. We stood at 90 angles, so I can touch her. I had compliance from the beginning, since she said "we go wherever you want", "we do as you want". There was some replies which I ignored, like "didn't know wheter to see you or not. we had the date because I replied to a story of yours", or "if I wouldn't go out with my friend today, I think I would have flaked". So, idk if those were some shittest, I said something like "no, you wouldn't. you wanted to go out with me".

We stayed for 2h, and then we stayed in her car. I took her to a nice place, on a bridge, with a view, stayed in her car, sometimes outside and listening to music. She was compliant like "do you want music? is it too cold in car? do you want to put music by yourself?" She didn't fully kissed me tho. I went for a kiss about 4-5 times, but almost at the end of a date did a properly one. Instead, she stayed in my arms. In car, I put my arm around her neck, gave her a massage, and she liked to somehow caress herself with my hand. She did that a few times.

She didn't stopped with some of her, idk were them but I ignored, replies like "you don t look so good, I look good". In term of fundamentals, I look very good. I dont have a proper haircut due the fact that I want to try to grow my hair, but other than that, almost everything is on point. "Why do you have rings?" "Because I like them". "No, I don t know what to say about them".

Her: Do you have a fuck buddy?
Me: What?
Her: Yeah, a fuck buddy. Do you have?
Me: If I want to do sex, I can call someone, but I don t want to do that, I mean -:> and here don't remember, but didn't gave an explanation
Her: You know what, you don't have to explain to me
Me: I m not. I just don't know what to tell you for this matter

Maybe here I should have go for "Yeah, I have thousands of them" or something cocky and funny.

We talked about sex also
Her: I don't like swallowing.
Me:Why? Because of the texture?
Me: Or taste? I ate fruits today.
Her: What? Why did you say that?
Me: Just saying. I eat fruits everyday
Her: Did you expected that from today?
Me: First day sex? No. And even if it would happen, so what?

This was in a total relaxed state.

I asked her to drive me home. She did. While going home, she was following my indications.

So, this girl was attracted, compliance, kino fuckin a lot. She even touched my dick accidentally, but I was too focused on kissing her. Maybe I should have just going for neck kiss and escalate from there. Will do that next time. Also, she put some songs that were a little bit too emotional and somehow took from my hardness because of the moment. I should be more aware of this.

What is interesting, as well as the girl before, is that, even if the compliance and attraction was there, we didn't text too much. Today, when I asked her to go out, I was feeling like just shooting my shot, but surprisingly, she responded very well, so I have to play with this more, I think. I m used to talk more on insta/whatsapp with girls, and building comfort there also.

She expected to have a 2h date. In total, we stayed for 6h. We should met tomorrow, 14 December.

Saturday, 11 December.

Maybe this is unorthodox, but I had the game in blood, so I had to do something. That day was this friend's dad funeral. I m sorry for him. Somehow fortunately, he wasn't so close to him, and he doesn't feel so much pain.

I girl from our social circle took me with her car. We had to buy something from mall. Lead her with my indications. Had also compliance from here. She let me put music on her phone, in car, gave her little orders. So, unconsciously, was thinking just on Gunwitch method, especially mirror neurons part. Strong eye contact, touching, some funny jokes, some sexuals, and a low deep voice made her a little bit aroused, I could feel. She said she feel safer with me in the car, since she doesn't drive too much. I have to give her some money. Requested her number on our group friends on facebook. She actually wrote her number in private(despite the fact that we re all friends from that group).

Her: xxxx number
Me: So this is the number to call when I want that good midnight ride, with a view?
Her: --something here--
Her: That doesn't sounds bad at all. It's a good idea

She s hooked. We talked about some little things and alcohool. Unfortunately, she s out of town, and we ll get togheter again in the New Year's night. We ll spend a few nights with a group of 20+ people. In that group is already a girl I dated and fucked. So maybe there's some preselection.

With this girls, and her friend I discussed many times about sex, men and women, so there's some sexual prizing.

It's fun to experiment this much. @Teevster latest article regarding Advanced Calibration really opened my eyes with some things that I felt, but didn't know how to point them.

One of the things I'm asking myself now is how 2nd date should be proceeded when 1st one was full of arousal, but due to logistics, didn't end up anywhere.

Due to my style, I end with 1st night lay from dates, but that's because I took care about logistics and vibe. Somehow I end up to their home, rarely mine.

 

[Alpha13SC]

What I m working on actively: improving my fundamentals.
1. The main thing is gym. Pushing more and more at the gym. I m a meso, so I have some genetics here and the main motivation is to see how much I can achieve the greek body sculptures.
2. Skin routine. My face is a little burned due to hard labor in the sun. I have friends who don't have wrinkles. I had a few, so I need to be careful on this.
3. Beard. I don't have a full beard, so I use minoxidil. With full, I would look like a viking or something.
4. Clothes. I must spend some money on more shirts, some boots.
5. Accessories. I really like rings. For now, I have two, one for each hand. I plan to buy some watches, and also a big leather bracelet. I like those things. Manly af.
7. Breathing. Consciously breathing through nose. It makes my voice deeper.

 

[Alpha13SC]

Time to update.

Went to 2 dates. First with R, went to a Christmas fair. From there we just walk along a river. It was nice. I somehow tried something to get things more sexual.

Me: So what are your passions?
Her: -- insert passions --
Her: you?
Me: A few. People, I like to analyze people, sports, motorcycling, etc, and sex. I see sex from a different perspective, not just as a simple act.
And developing something from there.

I invited her to my home to eat some cake. She refused.
Her: So now your plans are getting canceled?
Me: What do you mean?
Her: You know, not coming to your place.

Didn't change a thing in my attitude. She didn't want to come. I need something better. A few years ago I would get upset. Not I just laugh at her, asking her to explain to me, or whatever.

We sit on a bench, making out. I started to touch her tits. Things getting hot.

I said I want to do something crazy. I wanted to ride my moto with her. I was crazy because it was dangerous, in the winter, fucking cold outside. Get her to my place. We make out. Going for a ride. Go inside again. She didn't even took her shoes, so I took it as a sign.

But however, I still make out with her, grinding over her, feeling her tits. She got excited. Tried some dirty talking. After 15 mins she said that she doesn't really like dirty talking and she somehow faked that she liked it. First time it happened to me. It was funny. But played along, being a rock with, nothing from her can touch my vibe.

We spent about 4-5h. Then she left.

2nd day we talk on insta. She said she wanted to know me better, so she asked me about my "down moments". I think I didn't show her any vulnerability. She told me some of her down moments.

The second date, with A.
We went playing biliard. Things got verbally sexually. Need something to get to my place after. Told her the same thing, I want to do something crazy, let's do a moto ride. She's scared.

Took her home. Gave her a pair of paints, because it's fucking cold outside. Did a ride. She still scared, but it's good, I comforted her after, some good emotions after fear and adrenaline.

We got inside after. Making out. Her grinding her pussy against my dick. But she controlled herself so much. She was so excited, but she was like "it's not the time". We continued like that for a few hours. At 2am in the morning she left.

After 2 days, she came at my place to watch a movie. During the movie we start making out again. She controlled again. Did that for a few hours. This actually is making me laugh. LMR so much. She spent the night at me.

I work from home. I had a conference with my colleagues online. After that, I spent the time with her. Making out. Dirty talking. All the things. She didn't wanna have sex, but she sucked my dick. I take it. She enjoyed.

I'm almost sure this LMR it's about my attainability.

Gym going good. I might quit weighted dips because I want some healthy shoulders.

 

[Alpha13SC]

19.12.2021

I had my first insta date, at 21:00 in the evening.

I have a place from where I m buying cigar sometimes. There's this girl, I, who sells them. We actually made some good eye contact before, one time I smoked that cigar near the shop and she went out and had one with me and started to talk. She does sky diving. We talk a little about this.

In this evening I saw her, she s ready to close the shop and I said to her if she wanna have a walk with me in the park. I wanted to go anyway, tbh alone, but why not taking a woman with me. Waited for her about 10 min.

We talked about skydiving, motorcycling, how s life in this city and then sex and relationship and how she's a little bit of a nympho, but she has a period to see how much she resists without sex and masturbation. things getting hot. We shared some of our experience. Did kino, escalated a little bit, but it's fucking cold outside so I didn't take my hands out of pocket too much.

After some time I tried kiss close. She denied, but her attitude was open. Teased her a little bit about sex and us. Invited her to my place. She said no this time.

We ll meet in the future. Maybe I ll go buy some cigars again. I ll stay here 5 more days. I should have another 2 dates, with R and A.

Notes:
This girl, I, talked a lot about sex in the beginning, without me asking her. Took me by surprise, usually I set this frame. What I did is to take a deep breath, to stay in the moment. What I could do next time, is something like:
"I, like your vibe, it seems that you're very sexual. I like that in a girl." From here, I can see her feedback.
or
"I see, you're one of those girls, very sexual open." Then followed by "How do you like sex?" Maybe going with how I like sex and explaining some of my favourite position, and focusing on how the girl should feel, like
"I like to dominate and feel my girl beneath me very submissive, I like to see her asking for my dick inside her" and so on, basically projecting this image inside her head.

Also, I could throw one of throw one of those: "I think that's why we get along so good. We match sexually" but saying it in a fun way.

 

[Alpha13SC]

21.12.2021

I have this girl, A, having a date with her. I m an active person, she s the same, and I wanted to go to bowling. It was full. We played some biliard again. Fuck it, I'm enjoying it. After some time, we left. We are in a mall. I wanted some more adrenaline. I wanted to steal a Christmas decoration from a Christmas tree. This girl helped me. We tried to do it like the scene in Captain America with "Quick, kiss me". Didn't work out very well, but I took the decoration. It was funny.

Then we went to a nice place, near a like
"That's why you brought me here? To fuck me?"
"Yeah. I want to warm my dick inside you."

She keeps asking me this weird questions and testing me. I keep busting her balls. She sometimes get upset. Can't help her. I am who I am.
We head towards my place. She said she doesn't really wanna stay over night until she'll sleep with me.

"Look, I feel like I fuck around too much. I regret the last two guys. I don't wanna feel that again. I feel like you want to sleep with other girls too. I don't want to be that. I don't want a relationship also, but not one night stand."

I address her concerns. Pacing her reality. Now, I don't know how much worked, but we both relaxed.

She keeps me asking "You don't want to talk to me anymore?"

I ask her to come inside. She came.

We make out. She s so excited. She still doesn't want to have sex, but wanna have my nut.

Started to undress me, jerking me off, and then before starting to blow me, she tied her hair with that hair elastic(I hope you guys get it, dunno how it's called).

"I think you forgot one here."
"What? My hair elastic?"
"Yeah"
"What? No! It's not mine! Can't believe you said that! It's from another girl. I'll not do you a blowjob anymore"

So, in this moment my heart started to rush a little bit because I was so horny, but when I heard that I was thinking "man, wtf, did I just fucked up?"

Told her I didn't had sex in about 3-4 weeks and I keep this place clean. Said a few things. My erection got soft. She tried to blow me, but my mood changed. Then her mood changed due to the fact that she tough she wasn't doing something right. Now this is childish. Back to square one, did some verbals, escalation, made her horny again and blow me. Damn, this felt good. Did nofap for about 2-3 weeks, didn't nut in this time. I could have feed a woman an entire meal with this.

We slept togheter. She left next day.

22.12.2021

A left.

I went to the office today. I have some new colleagues, 3 girls and 1 boy. All students. I was feeling again student, like in university. Arrived late, made somehow like an entrance. One of the girls is pretty.

The manager got us to have drinks at a local. I stayed just for about 2h, because at 7pm R was coming to my place.

This colleague, didn't remember her name, catch some of her glances. Eye contact. The game is on. I'll say how I ll play it. Didn't flirt with a girl colleague in ages due to working from home because of covid.

19:00

Met with R. This is the 3rd date, at my place. We cook pancakes. We actually did some good pancakes. Building sexual tension, teasing her, making her laugh a lot.

We're seeing this Christmas movie, The Christmas Chronicles. Surprisingly, it was good, it's on netflix. Didn't had some Netflix bs.

We started making out. Let her then for about 10 mins. Then full escalation. this girl has tattoos. Her arms, legs. Between her tits. Not gonna lie, it was hot. I turned her on her belly. She had a big ass tattoo on her back. Man, hitting her from behind with that view killed it.

This girl is about 15-20cm smaller than me. It's like a toy. I m already a strong guy and I can pay easier with girls in bed, but this is even more.
Got so fucking horny, I actually tried very hard to not cum.

I started to undress her. Took her hand, placed on my dick. Got it out. She started to give me a handjob. So, this pettite girl was acting like my dick was made of iron of something. I had to stop her. After a few mins, she lying, went to her head with my dick. I told her I want her to suck my dick.

"Some good ol' deep fuckin throating". So she was taking it like a queen, but she was using her teeth somehow. I had to stop her again. Tried 2nd time. Fully stopped because I was fearing for my dick. Need to learn this woman some manners.

We fucked. It was nice. But for whatever reason, I didn't get a fully erection again. I don't know what happened, because I wanted to fuck again. I must debug this situation. Didn't eat clean in 2-3 days, and didn't go to gym also in 2-3 days due to my dates. But it shouldn't affect me too much.

The fat intake wasn't too good today. I hope it this will change. I need to find a solution.

We talked about past relationships, how she s feeling. She said I was her 6th. Damn.

Then I got sleepy and actually turned of the lights.

She left at 5am in the morning 'cuz of her work.

Now, guys. What do you think about the 1st girl, A? The thing is that we actually feel good with eachother. But I don't wanna continue seeing a girl I dont have sex with.

This is superficial, but I reached a milestone regarding my lay count. Also, it's been 3 months and a half from my breakup with ltr of 2 years. Had more than 5 sexual encounters since then. So I must say. I m fucking proud of myself.

 

[Alpha13SC]

Writing this post with a headache due to the alcohol and bad diet I consumed these days, but fuck it, I needed it.
So, I spent last 3 nights, 4 days(today was the last one) with a group of almost 25 people. We had an entire big house just for us to party.

30/12/2021
Just got there, a few girls there. I m the best looking guy. There was this girl, I wrote about her in another post here, let's name her An. An is a little bit crazy, but we actually got along very well.

From the first few hours I actually had so much eye contact with some girls, like crazy. I mean, they were just eye fucking me. Started to play beer pong. Got hot there and took my hoodie off. I was wearing a Nike black sportswear tank. Being a gymbro, this took my presence there to another level. Played beerpong and I m actually pretty good since I have an inclination for sports(yeah, beerpong is a sport, of course!)

I didn't know this group before. I knew only about 7-8 people. The rest I met them there. There was some couples, but there was no way I could figure it out by myself because they were so used one to another and didn't behave like lovers. So there are two others girls, beside An, M and Z. M and Z are both in 5 yo relationship, but looking hard at me.

Time passed, 11pm, we start to dance. Dance a little bit with An and M, but not so much.

31/12/2021
So this group wanna do a hike. I m in. Snow and ice there. There was a possibility to encounter some bears. Fuck it, I m gonna do it. It's cold, maybe 5 Celsius degrees. One of the guys fall in water almost to his waist. Too fucking cold for him. He returned back to his car. These are noobs. If I was him, I would just continue, but that's me. It's dangerous, but I m used to cold, I m doing cold showers almost daily.

4h hike. We remained like 9-10 people. I m leading the group. I almost always wanna be the first when hiking. Anyway, went there 2 times already, but in the summer.

Finished it and then got back.

Started to play some games with those people. They are very nice. I brought my soundbar and I was responsable with music. So there's some social frame. Everybody already knows my name. I don't know all the names, not even from girls.

Fast forward, I m thinking just to Gun's method, SECT, combining it with Law of the Least effort. This is actually my main focus in the last couple of weeks.

Anyway, New Years Eve. Started to dance with An. Smoke with some cigars also. So I tried some inuendos, some jokes. At one time, she said she want to talk with me, and said something like "ok, 5 minutes" or something, and she was like "5 minutes? not even prelude? or the main thing?" so I took it as a good thing, but in the rest, she was not so responsive, so I just withdraw my attention from her. Said something like "you upset me". Talk for a bit. We actually went to smoke a cigar. We 2 alone. She said to me that always, when I m in a conversation, I talk about sex. I had some conversations with her and her friend about this. This group knows me as somebody who just loves women.

Then a friend come at us and just cockblock and nothing happened.

Returned in. Started to dance with M. Actually started to dance really good with her. Heavy eye contact. Touching her face, her hair. At one time I was discussing with her in the kitchen then An comes and she was like "Hey, your bf it's ok with this?" I think she saw me touching her leg or something and her response "yeah, he is. it's ok". At that moment I didn't know what to say. We had an interesting convo about emotions. Drunk af both of us too. Very touchy with her.

I was dancing with almost everybody. At one time, hugged Z and touched her face and her bf was like "dude, calm down". He s 20kg lighter than me. Almost a joke of somebody telling me this.

1/12/2022
8:00 am in the morning. Me, M and another guy were awake and dancing. Danced fucking all night long. I and M really build some tension there.
Went to sleep at 9:30 am and slept almost 4h. I woke up and I couldn't keep my balance 100%. I went to the bathroom using my walls to keep my equilibrum.

16:00
Started to play some games. Another eye contact, touches between me and M. And this girl has a bf and he s there.
I was winning almost everygame I was playing. Played Mafia, Activity, Jenga. Those people are real fun.

So, in this night, dancing again. Remained 4 people until 7 am in the morning. 2 of them went to sleep. M and I remained. We smoked a cigar outside. I abstained so much to not kiss her. We went to sleep. Before splitting, I kissed her on her cheek, and gave me some eyes, damn.
Complimented her on her eyes. She said mines are beautiful.

A tech I like using is to focus on a melody we both enjoy and cementing the memory of her, so now she ll remember me when she hears it. Did this.

Slept 3h somehow. So first time, 6h, second night, 4h, and now 3h. And I m still fresh, writing this. I can't believe how my body is still awake.

I can say I had an interesting Eve, even if I didn't had sex. Funny thing, there was a girl there which I had sex with before, was good friend with M. Didn't know if she was knowing this or not. So maybe some preselection and social frame +.

Now, my revelations for these days.
I m focusing so hard on SECT and Law of Least Effort like it's my main job. Being conscious at almost every move, every word I say even in convos.

I remember @Chase saying something in a thread like "So I suppose emotions are investment?". And took it to another level. Being introspective to almost every emotion I feel. If I get angry, I accept it and it dissapear. If I get moody, or maybe showing too much enjoyment, introspection and accept them. The only emotion I feel fully is the power. Being a strong men.

A week ago, went with A to a date, and one time she bite my face and I was like "how, oaoa, what are you doing? It hurts" and she was like "a strong man like you being so sensible?" "I m not sensible, I just don t like it.".

What I discovered is that if I m focusing more on LofLE, I m more smoother, conversations are getting more natural, and combined with SECT(strong eye contact, low voice, and that Lover attitude), this is a winner for me. The only things that somehow bothers me is the presence, of I could just say the absence of the ego, because sometimes it feels like I don't enjoy all the moments since I don t feel the emotions fully.

And that's actually my main concern right now. Focusing so much on the process, I actually forget about myself. What's the job of the ego then? I clearly don't get defensive when someone says something rude to me. To the point where I don t even pay attention. But sometimes I feel that I could get in the other side, where I don't care so much that I don't stood for myself. I want to have the respect from the other people, and also being cool. Sometimes it feel like a balance is needed. Because I don't want to invest too many emotions in the bad situations, I could miss some things.

So when I was hiking, thinking about what @Chase said, it came a moment where I was near some heights (I fear heights at some level, and I always try to challenge this fear and going to do crazy things. I wanna skydiving, as a test). And I was thinking like "so fear is an emotion, and emotions are investment. So me having some fear is too much investment." And having this realisation, I accepted it and somehow it dissapeared. I was walking on the side of a bridge, and that was risky. And actually didn't felt fear at all, because I didn't invest in my fear feelings. It was some strange thing to do, especially for the first time.

I know LofLE is mainly to consume the least energy, but I want also the biggest return. And I think this is where a balance is needed. How do you know how much to invest to get the biggest return?

Also, I m always thinking on a paradigm "focusing on the process vs ego". I still need to figure out how ego can be integrated in my person. Sometimes it can bring so much pain, other times so much fun. Maybe self image? I need some more perspective on this.

I dreamed about having sex with my ex. At this point, I m thinking emotions are just an evolutionary mechanism to get people and keep people togheter. And what I m feeling towards her is just an illusion, like always. So maybe what I m feeling it just my brain forcing me to survive and transmit my genes in the next generation?

And if I have this realization, what's the point of all those things? Gaming girls, going to gym. All these things for my brain to do its duty. Makes you feeling a little bit unmotivated. And I rely just on discipline when these moments appear.

 

[Alpha13SC]

What happened since the last post?

Well, I still got on some dates with A, and R.
Well, A still coming at my place. We went to a movie last night, at cinema. Last row. She sucked my dick while watching the movie. Didn't get a bj from a girl in cinema since I was 18. She actually got upset because of my attainability. One of the dialogues.

A: "And you're going out with other girls too."
Me: "You don't know who I m going out with, or when. Why does this matter?"

Getting her into my frame and being a strong man.

Did nofap for 30 days. Well, while doing it, I didn't last while having sex. Was too excited. Now, I fapped once every 4-5 days. Last night had sex 2 times, and this morning once, didn't even finished. My theory is that I don't last longer because of the accumulation of sperm actually, not only because I m more sensitive. So maybe once every 4-5 days I ll just fap before sleeping to not affect my hormonal balance and dopamine too much, 2-3 times before sleep to empty myself. So I ll be more relax when I ll have sex. A said I traumatized her pussy. I would say I just return to normal Alpha13SC's behavior.

I didn't watch porn since 1 December or something. I purely don't want to see no more.

 

[foggy]

hi alpha,

A: "And you're going out with other girls too."
Me: "You don't know who I m going out with, or when. Why does this matter?"

when a girl makes a comment like this, she is testing for either value or comfort.

Testing for Value

- happens early interaction, pre-lay
- not sure if they like you yet
- trying to find out if you're good enough for her

Testing for Comfort

- happens late interaction, pre-lay.
- also happens post lay
- they know you have value, and they like you.
- trying to find out if you're using her or if you actually like her.

you've been seeing A for a while, and hooked up with her with multiple times, so she's testing for comfort here.

howeever you perceived it as her testing you for your value, causing you to hold your frame to accomplish this - when in reality, she was testing for comfort. you already have value with her, so she's looking for attainability from you.

on top of that, your reply comes across as confrontational. you never want to be confrontational. its better to be invitational.

so overall, this was the wrong way to reply here, and damaged your attainability with her.

when a girl is testing for comfort, the best way to reply is to qualify her.

A: "And you're going out with other girls too."
Alpha: "Yeah, once in a while. But you know what, I'm looking for connection, and I don't feel that with the other girls. With you, I do. It's like we're on the same wavelength and understand each other on a deeper level, you know? That's not something that happens often.

this way, you manage her emotions properly, give her what she needs, and make her feel special. of course, you dont have to get into anything serious with her if you dont want to...just because you have a connection with someone does not mean youre gonna get in a serious relationship with them... but providing ample amounts of comfort like this helps to keep her around longer and reduces resistance.

 

[Alpha13SC]

hi alpha,



when a girl makes a comment like this, she is testing for either value or comfort.

Testing for Value

- happens early interaction, pre-lay
- not sure if they like you yet
- trying to find out if you're good enough for her

Testing for Comfort

- happens late interaction, pre-lay.
- also happens post lay
- they know you have value, and they like you.
- trying to find out if you're using her or if you actually like her.

you've been seeing A for a while, and hooked up with her with multiple times, so she's testing for comfort here.

howeever you perceived it as her testing you for your value, causing you to hold your frame to accomplish this - when in reality, she was testing for comfort. you already have value with her, so she's looking for attainability from you.

on top of that, your reply comes across as confrontational. you never want to be confrontational. its better to be invitational.

so overall, this was the wrong way to reply here, and damaged your attainability with her.

when a girl is testing for comfort, the best way to reply is to qualify her.



this way, you manage her emotions properly, give her what she needs, and make her feel special. of course, you dont have to get into anything serious with her if you dont want to...just because you have a connection with someone does not mean youre gonna get in a serious relationship with them... but providing ample amounts of comfort like this helps to keep her around longer and reduces resistance.

Thank you @fog. I think I didn't managed properly some comfort tests, but this is more clear for me.

 

[Alpha13SC]

I didn't write so much here since things didn't move so much, but I have a decision to make.

One of the girls asked me if I m sexually exclusive. I told her I m not. Told me she cried a little bit, and she's upset because of it and that's it. Didn't try to comfort her so much because somehow the drama repels me, I just let it. Maybe I could let them better than I found them.

I spent two nights in a row with the the girl in the previous post. She told me we're too different and this isn't going anywhere. Sex it's ok, not very good, but enjoyable for but of us for sure. I don't really know how to respond to this situation, I think I didn't managed a thing well. Or maybe it's just her who wants more serious things. It's been almost 2 months and a bit since we start dating. That 3 months mark is approaching. Can't start some serious thing and being exclusive.

It's funny because just now she had an orgasm with me, and when she's on top. I ll play with this position more because I see they be cumming a lot more when they're moving at their peace.

Yesterday I almost ran into my ex. My heart started to beat like crazy and left the place. It's weird because it's like I want to see her again, but at the same time I don't.

Also, I have a decision to make. I could hire a coach, one of the best in my country, to train me for 3 months. A little bit pricey, but the results could be impressive, and my body could look on another level. That means dedication 100% and I don't know how much time I ll have for dating. More like work, gym, meal prep and sleep. It could be worth it, because I always wanted to see my full potential of my body.

On a final note, I started to talk again with a girl which I went with in my past. We had 3 dates, I think, 2 at her home, but LMR was there, somehow, I don't know what missed. Maybe connection, comfort. Slide into her DMs yesterday, somehow soft close and asked me how we should see each other again. Let's call her HBEyeLiner.

Also talking with one of my previous students, HBPopsicle. She s still not in my town, but we agreed to watch a movie togheter when she ll come here.

 

[Alpha13SC]

21/02/2022

Things got turned up real fast? Remember I said something about hiring a coach? Well, I talked to my doctor, and he decided to take the surgery, removing my titanium plate from my collarbone.

Last week I had 2 dates with HBPopsicle. Went to her, parked my moto and she let me drive her car. Spent a few hours, real chill, listening to music, going in a park, then going to my home, watching a movie. I escalated, but she always stopped me. Used almost all what I ve got. Maybe this is a sign I can step up even further my game.

Her: "Not today."

At almost 3:30 AM in the morning got her home, took my moto and ride home. 5 degrees outside. I was freezing.

Wednesday I should have been hospitalized. So Monday afternoon I had a date with another girl, A, had sex, slept at me. Next day, Tuesday night got out with HBPopsicle as well. This time we stayed only in car. The thing is that I can make this interesting, having interesting convo, music and so on, that the vibe can be fun forever. In the end, got to her house, but also, didn't want anything. I m asking myself how I should have proceed here. Because I didn't had something in mind. Just wanted to go out, because after surgery, I can t do many things.

Wednesday came. Did the paper, but the dr. said to come Thursday in the morning.

Thursday, 6:50 am in the hospital. Searching for my dr. Somebody prepared me. Meet new people there, opened them, just for the sake of it. 8:45 in the surgery room. The vibe from there was quite fun, people making jokes, trying to relax me. I actually liked it. When they sedated me, I was starting to feel really fuzzy, it was actually a nice feeling, like getting high. Then I woke up in another room, with some pain in collarbone area. They took that metal from me, the metal which kept me strong for almost 2 years, and for the curious one, it didn't beep at the airport.

Then got in another room. Story time: there was a guy, had a surgery on his leg and the drs. got the lower body numb for the surgery. After the op, he couldn't feel anything. At one point I ve heard a fart from him, and he said "sorry bro, but I don't feel anything, even when they come." was funny, but understanding.

Friday morning, getting home, a friend came and got me. Last time, I had my ex to help me with almost everything. She was a real help, that feminine, nurturing presence to help you when you need it, now I see what a woman can do in your life, it she s well chosen.

Saturday, a girl from my social circle came to me, brought me food. I actually had some kind of date at her house. Didn't close anything. Now I ve made some sexual talk with her, (me being with my hand imobilized), and told her if we don't meet at a date, we shouldn't see eachother no more, 'cuz we re not friends, in a funny way. She left at 1am, and in about 20 mins, another girl came, A. I somehow locked her in. We had sex, with my hand imobilized, partially beeing stressed to not touch my hand since she was on top. Full erection, she cum twice. Then I switched, on top, using just one arm. Ain't no surgery gonna stop me from fucking a girl. She said she was actually the best sex we ever had. That actually is making me thinking about some things. Maybe I should let them more on top. Easier for them to cum, then learn the move. I remember a topic from a user, -B- talking about this.

I m trying to have the best recovery. Sleeping a lot, taking my supps, eating clean, and some walking.

There is some pain, still bleeding a little, but everything seems fine till now. I hope in about 6 weeks I ll return to gym.

Till the next time,

Alpha13SC

 

[Alpha13SC]

Didn't update the journal in a while. Since then, I had 2 more lays, a virgin from my semi-social, one Tinder girl. Delayed a date with a girl because I don't have time, and also some scary jump from another one which had to take the 2nd day pill, and said her period is late. My heart was pumping af. And also I should met my 2nd crush ever, from 8yo, 2 weeks from now. She owns me a glass of wine.

I think I ll write about all of them. It's was really interesting my last period.

But I wanted to point something else. A good rough or gentle, slow or fast sex is a manifestation of the ego. It feeds ego's desire. And it makes the other person so much desired. And the other one gets more aroused. And thinks as well. And the first person feel the other's desire. A circle. A vicious circle.

We could tell, the enjoyment of being enjoyed by somebody else's desire.

Ngl, feeling like @Lofty when I m writing these words.

There's a quote from Game of Thrones: There's no greater pleasure than fucking a girl who wants to be fucked and to kill a man who wants to kill you.

 

[Alpha13SC]

Christmass Party

In the last 6-7 months I took a break from dating to focus on money and gym. Got noticeable results in both of these areas, dated a few girls from online, some encounters from SC, few parties here and there, but I mostly worked, especially from home so my social skills took a little hit.
So my company organize a Christmas party in one of the fanciest clubs from town. I have to dress accordingly. Outfit: blue shirt rolled up sleeves, dark grey skinny jeans(taking my quad game to the next lvl), light brown Chelsea boots(ty @DoWhatWorks , took this from your LRs) and belt to match the boots. Got my first earring. @TomInHo convinced me, and also now I can totally say I have long hair. Looking like Kurt Cobain on steroids.

Heading to the party
I met with a friend, then on our way to the club, on an alley at the edge of a lake 2 girls asked us “hey guys do you know where x club is?”
“Yeah, we actually go to there too”
Tried to make some small conversation then it hit me: I got a little bit rusty, I was actually making an effort for the 1st time in months to come up with some lines, but I pushed it through. 1 girls seemed into me but we kept it light.
Few words about this friend: this guy is from my hometown and the guys from there, we had a reputation for being alcoholics so I abuse this as a subject of discussion with girls. This guy’s a bit crazy, told me how he recently fucked a girl, then the husband came home, he hid under the bed, spent a few mins, the couple went down, the girl went upstairs to get him, and she was like “do you like how I played this fucker?” Cold.
Reach the party
Ok, from about 200 people, I only know about max 10, so I have to befriend a lot of people. Choose a table then start vibing with people

1st initial target
Now we have our own place, there is a group of 4 girls near me, 1.65 blonde, light blue eyes, one of the attraction on the dancefloor, she was a lil’ crazy too, HBRed and near her the girl who became my target, brunette, about 1.74 with heels, dark dress, HBDark. We did a lot, and I mean a lot of eye contact, but she was on the other part of the table with people between us. I was befriending people who were near me. HBTits, 1.68 brunette with tits out, was giving me some eye contact since the start.
Going to them:
Me: “Do you have a light?” Wanted to smoke, the club let us smoke inside
HBRed making a sign in a teasing way, showing she doesn t have any.
Me: What? What is this? – making the same sign to her
Me lightly bossing around her: What are you showing me?
We start laughing. HBDark looking
HBTits: I think I have – looking through her things like 10-15 sec. All I saw was just another form of investing, because I could sense her she was trying to please me

Start into a convo with the HBRed, laughing, vibing, some cold approach. I abused the hell out of cold reading.
Me: Are you from x place?
Her: Actually yes
Me: Knew it
Her being surprised: How did you do it?
Me trying to formulate: There are not many towns in this country where ..
She started to laugh like is he comparing me with a town. We both laugh and some kino
Me: Girl listen to me. There are not many towns here which …
We started laughing again, while standing lil bit close next to each other. I was aware of making her leaning into me more than me leaning into her even if I m taller. HBDark was looking carefully at us

2nd girl in my RAS
There was a summer party few months ago where my manager and another girl, who I told me she was kind of big manager, she told me this, came from another town just for the party.
I actually got along very good with people in lead positions in this company, so they introduced me to a lot of people and was easily for me to just spark some conversations, using this social proof.
So this girl, HBManager was looking kind of aloof. Read that as a form of bitch shield, pushed against through it last time, but not too much. Used that party to get along even better with the lead positions here.

Back to present.
Got in the group where HBManager and other people were.
We didn’t made any eye contact, so I was just speaking with some guys from the other town, ignore her then go back to my table.

3rd Girl who got my attention
Vibing around the club, I found that another guy, lead as well is from my hometown. Start some convo, and at one point two girls were around us, seems to be from his team “Hey girls, I want you to meet Alpha13SC, he s from my hometown”
And there s this girl, 160, with a dress from sparkles, green-dark, very good make up, a wet look dark hair. HbWet it is.
HbWet: “Hello, nice to meet you!” – smiling af
So then I was already feeling social, kind of liked her and started
Me: So I want to ask you something
Her: Sure!
Me: Got my new earring yesterday. What do you think?
Her: I actually think it looks very good!
Me: I was thinking to change my look so I start rocking long hair and this new earring really fascinates me
Her: I like guys with long hair! It seems like they embrace their feminity. So I think everybody has a masculine and a feminine energy and they should embrace it.
It was a little bit loud there, so I mini isolated her, near a table, brought her to my chest, my hand on her lower back, I knew it was on, this after not even 2 mins.
Me: Yeah, my past events lead me thinking the same! Makes you easier to relate to girls when you embrace that
The thing is feminity is just semi bullshit, I m toxic masculinity to the core, Andrew Tate fan4life, but hey, if it works, it works.
We talked a little bit more, openly telling me some personal things. At one point we had to split up
Her: I hope we ll see eachother again, wanna talk to you about this subject.
Me: Bet on it!

Ok, so the night is getting better. Heading over my table

Approaching my target
Vibing some more with HBRed, she went to the dancefloor. HBDark positioned near me multiple times, like 0.5m away. I was feeling social aready, but I knew I m letting time passing too much. So I said fuck it. HBDark was kind of shy, not really party girl like everyone else
Me: You seem to have a lot of fun here – in an ironic way, thank you fastline for this
Then it hit me, what I have usually to deal with, with the girls I hesitate too much. The bitch shield
Her: Yeah, a little bit – shrugging her shoulders.
Me: What’s your name? – then we introduce eachother
Her attitude disappointed me a little bit so I just went with some basic stuff like
Me: So in what department are you?
She wasn’t too engaged. She could sense my lack of comfort which I had around her colleagues. At one point I just stopped, and after 10 mins more she left totally the party I think.
So this is my sticking point. Have to find for me a solution to surpass this or just approach earlier.

4th girl
At one point, one girl was moving near me, at the table, dunno who she was, but by mistake hit me
Me: Hey
Her: Yeah?
Me: Do you wanna fight or what?
Her: Fight you?
Me: Yeah, you started it
She started to play along
Her: Oh boy, you don’t know what muscles I have, you see it?
With this HBStudent (because she was looking like a student in the way she carried herself) was into me from her bodylanguage. At one point she left

Am I getting isolated?
So, HBDark left the scene, HBWet was somewhere in the club, opened so more girls around, but I finally decided to go to HBManager. She has a strange name
Me:Hello
Her smiling: Hi
Me like trying to remember her name: Yourname right?
Her having the fucking audacity to misspelling my name with a letter: Myalmostname right? – this is usual because I have a name lil' bit hard to pronounce, and a lot of times it gets misspelled even by my own mother, who chose it, holy fuck
Me: “Wrongname” seriously? It’s myactualname
Her: Sorry sorry!! – we laught a bit
Me: You’re just the 1000th person doing it
Her: Sorry
Me: So you came back
Her:Yeah, couldn’t miss it
She was more open this time. My fundamentals are better than last time we saw eachother so I don’t know if this is the cause/just my overall vibe/more comfortable around her or all the above. Talked a bit, talked with other guys.

Go to other groups, returning to this group. It’s me, my manager and HBManager. They start laughing about something.
Her: Just so you know, we laugh about some girl
Me: Hmm, ok?
Her: Just to not think it’s about you
Me: Oh, I see. Tell me more
Her: No, I can’t
Me: Why not?
Her: It’s rude. – she was well behaving, just some tension between colleague I think
Start teasing her on this
Me: Very bad what you’re doing right now
Her: I know
Me: You should feel bad
Her: But I m already am! – so we just keep laughing about this

At one point my manager left, remained me and her.
Me: Come, let s smoke a cigarette
Her: I don’t know what to say, I smoked too much last weekend – and told me what she did then
Me: It’s not problem, just a party, you’ll feel good
Her: Ok

Took her out of the club. She dressed herself, I m in a rolled up sleeves on about 5-7 degrees Celsius outside. I am a man.
Saw she start walking. Thought initially she ll go to a group, but she kept walking, and she actually was going through the alley I came to the club with me along and was like – is this girl getting me alone with her?

We start talking to each other
Her: I don’t actually feel very comfortable around all of these bosses here
Me: How so?
Her: I don’t know, feels a little bit strange
And then I saw: she start open to me, but had almost the same attitude, and realized I misread her 1st time. It was not fully a bitch shield, it’s the fact she s a little introvert. Her energy was very reserved. But I made her open to me .
Her: It’s very nice here
Me: Yeah, this is one of the nicest places in town. See that place?
Her: Yeah
Me: Sometimes, I come with my moto, park it somewhere and just walk around here. Did you ever ride one?
Her: No, not exactly
Me: Would you like to?
Her: Yeah – took this as a compliance test passed
Me: Hmm, come another time, I ll give you a ride
Her: Sound good actually,

Her vibe changed a little bit, so I knew it may be on
We head to another club near us, but didn’t let us inside. Then
Me: Wanna see something?
Her: Yeah, but just to not get cold
Me: No worries, I m good – the ego along with the alcohol in me didn’t let me feel the fucking cold outside

Got her on a small bridge, just for walking, over that lake. And went to some subject, but I could sense that she’s very working and not so much allocating time for herself and for her hobbies. So I was thinking using this portraiting me be being her guilty pleasure. I don’t remember exactly the words I used
Me: So what are you doing for yourself to feel alive?
Her: what do you mean?
Me: For example, I m doing x things, going with moto, which is risky, already had an accident, but doing it again, wouldn’t trade it
Her: Hmm, I don’t think I have something to make me feel alive like that

And made her open more about this
Her: Hahah, stop it, you’re making me feel bad about my boring life
Teased her a little bit.
Me: Went to sea side?
Her: Here? (in this country)
Me: Yeah
Her: Just in x place
Me: How about you and me, riding to the sea, together?
Her: It sounds fun – her voice being a lil bit excited, but more expressing than that HBManager I know for the 1st time and in the club
Talked some more, but I could feel that I got a little bit rusty, because I had to remind myself to go to Man-to-Woman subjects and atmosphere overall

At one point, I turned to her, wait a few sec, grabbed her waist and go for the kiss:
Her: No!!
Me: Why not?
Her: I m not doing that with colleagues. Not on work – and I sense her restraining herself. Her state didn’t change, but her she was controlling her moves.
Me smiling: You don’t wanna kiss me?
Her: You’re very nice and … I mean you’re really nice but I don’t do this with colleagues from work
Me: What? We’re not even colleagues. You’re a manager, but not really over me. Didn't saw any email of you, we didn't see in office, no work involved (just bullshiting)
Her: blab la let’s smoke another cigarette
I don’t have a light, so we continue walking. Find some guys with a ligther. We head back to the club. We stop at one point, watching the lake, in a more intimate place

Talking a lil bit about her. Then going with:
Me: So what do you like in men beside long hair and an earring in left ear?
Her: haha.. I think the attitude
Her: Yes, the attitude
Started to smile more. Then again on her, some more reading.
Me: So you’re more of an introvert
Her: I think yes – explaining more

I take my chance 2nd again, grab her by the waist, pulling her into, my arm around her neck
Me: This is your last chance to kiss me – using a confident smirk
She used the same excuse again, with the colleagues, but I didn’t noticed any change in her state, in a bad way I mean.
Then we talked about how she should come in my town, to show her the surroundings and maybe do something fun. She aggrees.

Back club and last part of the evening
Me: We should do a shot together, we see eachother around here
Her smiling excited: Sure!
Then we split, I go to different groups, girls, she stayed with her managers more

At one point we reached one near another, but we didn’t exchange anything, just doing each other thing. Just felt I should ignor her.

At one point I reengaged
Me: How are you?
She respond more like neutral. Noticed a difference, so I think it was because the "work" HBManager came back to life.

At one point wanted to smoke outside, wardrobe to get my coat, she was there, preparing to leave
Me: So, end of the night?
Her: Yeah, we go back to hotel.
Talking some more

I m searching for my lighter, then go outside.
We met again there. I think she thought I m leaving also
Her: Where do you go?
Me: In x direction, you?
Her: Y. We could give you a ride with us.
I was heading in the other part of the town.
Me: Hmm, I don’t think so it’s a good idea, I m on the other direction
Find out where is her hotel so:
Me: I think you could walk there
Me: But it could take around 20-25 mins
Her: Hmm, I don’t know, and we should go
She was carrying something
Me: Ok, let me know then. Do you need help?
I the end, she left with a manager. She asked me twice if she wanna take me with an uber, to help me. Usually I would take this as a close but giving the more neutral attitude at the end of the night, chances were that she was just nice.

Met again with HBWet, but this time her state changed, she was just nice. She saw me talking to HBManager multiple times I guess, so attainability dropped. Idk how I could have revived her.

Went back into the club, met with HBStudent. I was on the couch, she makes a move to come near me, we discuss, horoscope, relationships, etc. Kino af. I was with my hand on her back and she was with her both hands on my leg. This is on, but unfortunately I was not that into her.
Her: Will you come to office?
Me: I think yes, Tuesday.
Her: Great!
Explained her where is my office she was acting exciting to meet me again.

In the end, took an Uber, left and thinking on how this hiatus affected me but still got it, and how I can improve more.

Next day, got a girl over my place. 2nd time we fucked. I m still asking myself if I should lock her in or not.

An interesting phenomen I m getting these days: Girls don't wanna kiss me like they just stop themselves, but on the 2nd encounter they are all over me. With this girl who came to me, I left some weeks between the 1st fuck and this one so I knew I have to warm her more. So I got her out, walked into a park, tried kissing her and she turned her head. But the vibe was there. Then when next time which is now came to my house, no hesitation and was horny as fuck.

Anyway, this was all. Still trying to balance these areas of my life.

Till the next time,
Alpha13SC

 

[Alpha13SC]

Birthday party

I m writing this a bit late, but I wanted to keep my journey documented and open to suggestion for improving.
So I invited my friends to celebrate my birthday party in a club. I booked a table. Unfortunately a girl couldn’t come so we remain 4 boys and 1 girl. This girl is one that I ve wrote about her before, had a few encounters (slept with her in the same bed, but no fuck) but didn’t addressed some objections regarding me plus the fact that I fucked one of her best friends let the process between us just as a sexual tension with ups and downs.

Beginning of the night

Came to the party. I m with the other 3 boys. Waiter come to our table, explained that we have to buy stuff with a minimum amount of cash. Ok, no problem. We start the night with some vodka.
The girl send me a message. She s almost here. I got outside to bring her(had to give her the access bracelet). Brought her inside. From the entrance to our table was a bit of walking
TIP: I could have hold her hand and just lead her through the crowd. This could have put me in a better position.
Continuing. Everything set up, alcohol came, music set up, few people around, party up!
Lots of Instagram stories. This girl put about 3 stories with me wishing me happy birthday. Everything ok till now. As I said, me and her already have an established man to woman frame, but sometimes she s trying to push another frame since we re from the same social circle. She s trying this while desiring me, I can sense her.
Dance with her a little bit, some kino, but didn’t felt her right there. 2 weeks ago, same group we gathered to this girl for some board games and in her playlist she had “bedroom playlist”. This got me thinking she s fucking somebody, but didn’t abstain herself for not kino me as well.
Around us there were 2 girls. One I knew her, I bantered with her a little bit. This girl from my group:
HBA: Who is she?
Me: She s from the team who organized the party this night. Met her previous.
HBA: Oh, ok

I let it slide, but her tonality changed a little bit.
My moment of shine
This club has some big af screen where they put sometime some messages. Asked the DJ to write “Happy Birthday Alpha13SC” and he did. Capture it. Showed to HBA. She posted it on her store with the message “Look you’re on TV now Alpha13SC!!” with a heart sticker. Ok. Everything cool.

The previous girl, from the organization team came to our table again. Told her
Me: “hey, if you wanna post a story, tag us!”
Her: “Ok! But I don’t know your insta name”
We exchanged them. She tagged me. HBA saw this little interaction and her mood changed. Got a seat on the sofa, wasn’t too happy. After a few mins, went to her:
Me: “hey, you ok?”
HBA: “yeah, blab la”
Me: “Sure?”
Tbh, here I tried to raise a little bit my attainability. I still don’t know if this was the right move, by trying to debug the situation. I could have just teased her with “are you jealous or what?” just to get a reaction. Maybe she wasn’t but me assuming this will put her mind at work especially if I could have kept the frame on “neah, surely you are”

At about 2:30 PM, HBA left the party. She told me she will do it since the beginning.

Time to do what I do best

Ok, so HBA is leaving. 2 guys went outside to smoke, one to get some food. Alone at the table for a few mins. Light up a cigarette. The table near us changed its people. Came about 10-15 people, 25-40 years old. They brought about 6-7 bottles of champagnes. Twice! And was like damn, dafuq they are celebrating. So I open a guy:
Me: What are you celebrating?
Him: We are launching our champagne brand here!
Me: Oh nice! Which one is it?
Him: X brand. Wanna try it?
Me: Sure.
This awesome gave me a bottle of champagne. New one, unopened. Thanked him and then bantered a little bit more. Requested the waiter some new glasses.
One friend from my group came, told him what happened, decided to try this new bottle. While I was trying to open it, another guy from the next table “hey guys, want a picture with it?” It was his way of trying to say to do a picture, then post it while tagging the brand.
Me: Sure!
Made a picture with my friend and the brand, posted it as story.
Me: Thank you!
The guy: You’re welcome! Do you want another one?
Me: Yeah, sure!
This guy was Italian, but knew English very well.

At point
The guy: Where are the girls?
Me: They left!
Fuck, we had just one girl, but I have to find a solution to continue the night and go for some targets.
The guy: How about the girls over there?

Students always want to party

Me: These ones?
The guy: Yeah!
So this guy wanna bring some girls to the table. This is a chance to step up and do my shit, what I m best at and that is to deal with things/situations/people.
So it was this 4set. 2 of the girls from it I had already some eye contact, with one like 3 seconds but I wanted to see if I can get something from HBA first.
Anyway, I go to the 1st one. HBDark, 160 brunnete, she was the cutest around that part of the club, that’s why the guy indicated that group. She was dressed in a green skirt, like a school girl, and a black shirt.
Me: Hey, so we have a situation here
HBDark: What situation
Me: We have too much champagne at the table and we can’t finish it ourselves.
Bullshit, of course we can, but that s what I find useful in the situation
Me: We need some help
HBDark: I don’t know what to say, I don’t know about my friends.
Me: Who are exactly your friends?
HBDark: Her is HBGreen and that one is HBBlonde, but she is kind of weird, don’t tell her I told you that.
Her friends saw the entire scene. HBDark near me, at 1m. When she saw I came to her, she turned her head like she didn’t saw nothing. Some save-face? Like “oh, I didn t know you were here”. But you know how you eye-fucked me 30 mins ago.
HBGreen girl was 1.65 brown hair, green dress.

So HBDark was sold from her tonality. I went more assertive to HBGreen.
Me: Hey! We have this situation at this table were we have too much champagne but we can’t finish it ourselves
HBGreen: blab la
Me: Yeah, come on
HBGreen: Hmm, ok!
HBBlonde was a 160, dark dress, little bit transparent around cleavage. She was pretty, with one of the bluest eyes I have ever seen actually.
Me: Blab la bla
She didn’t even respond to me, acted so shy, but she smiled, like a child.
HBDark: I ve told you she s a little bit weird
So her making this line towards me means she trust me a little but. Brought them to my table. Now I introduce the guy to the girls, he was the actual provider of the night. But they were at my table, now my champagne, and there’s a chance I was lil bit provider, but went more gamey so I was good IMO.
Brought the waited to pour some alcohol. Meanwhile my friends came, they were surprised. Now I m mixing my group with the girls and the guy.The vibe was there. The music was there.

Living the vibe

We dance, we speak, we dance again. Sometimes I include the Italian guy in our group again, to speak with the girls, so he doesn’t feel excluded. Other times I spend 2-3 mins just with him, then just with my friends.
At one point I start speaking to HBGreen even if HBDark was prettier. Why I did this?
Well, the answer is simple. HBDark was this italian’s guy target. But he didn’t approached. So I knew he wouldn’t succeed with her. Even more, by trying he would just contrast me as the leader by making things happen. So instead, HBGreen was near me, so I start qualifying her, trying to get more info, teasing, kino, etc. HBBlonde was talking to another friend, they seemed kind of close.
Some small dialogue between me and HBDark. About 40 mins pass. We party there
Me: I hope you’re having a good time here, near us. Hope you’re feeling comfortable but more in a tone that convey authority
HBGreen: Yeah! Thank you for bringing us! You and your friends are very cool.
Now I have to see how’s the HBBlonde. Just training my social skills.
Me: Hey, how are you? How are you feeling?
Me: I remember that you weren’t fully comfortable in the beginning
HBBlonde: Hey, I m ok! I really having fun here, thank you!
Me: U sure? – more like a compliance test was this one, or at least that s what I tried to make it
HBBlonde: Yeah! I m much more comfortable now!
Good. Party some more. HBBlonde find out it’s my birthday. Came to me, hug me and told me one of the best wishes I have ever heard to be honest. Know her for mostly an hour and already made me compliments and wished me so many things. The girls is on.

Come on, let’s isolate something

At one point, HBDark wants to smoke. She was some IQOS
Me: Wanna smoke?
HBDark: Yeah
Me: Come outside, let’s take some fresh air
HBDark: But this is allowed here
Me: We take some fresh air, just to chill
HBDark: I have to take my coat
Me: Ok

We go outside. We start walking and talking. Telling me more about her, that she ended a 8year relationship, 6 months ago. I m like wtf, I have layed 8 girls on the course of last months(Of course, I didn’t tell her that).

So, because I had a resistance regarding discretion with the HBManager from my last post, and her friends were there, I was thinking to qualify her on that.
Me: So, tell me, are you a discret person?
HBDark: No
Facepalm.
Me: You mean you don’t keep something for yourself?
HBDark: Not really
Why is this not working? I wanted to go in the direction of a secret lover, but at one point I said fuck it, I have enough attraction.
So I go stop in the middle of the walk path, she was facing me, go for the kiss. She turned her head.
Another facepalm.
Me: What’s stopping you?
HBDark: So I m already talking to somebody else
Me: So?
HBDark: I don’t want to. I don’t want to do something that I ll regret after.
This girl told me that after her relationship ended, she trying to restrain herself, otherwise she would have gone into a hoe phose because “there are tempations when she goes to club, but went just lately”. Ok, this kind of is bullshit. The girl liked me, that was for sure, but what I found interesting is the fact that she seemed very honest. From what she told me, she was honest, that kind of girl, kind of direct, who will test your frame brutally if she wants to.
Me: Ok, so you like me, what’s the deal if you’re talking with somebody else?
Her: Yes, I like you, otherwise I wouldn’t come to smoke a cigar with you
Me: What? Can’t believe you said that
Me: I feel used – and push her away
HBDark: Nooo! I don’t want you to believe that - trying to come closer phisically
Me: How? You already communicated me that
HBDark: Noo! I didn’t knew you are intelligent as well
HBDark: Maybe if we met 2 weeks ago, it could have been something else
And then teased her a little bit more, walked again, then stopped. She stops as well, facing me, pull her closer
Me: Look what we ll do
Me: I don’t know how much or what you’re talking to this somebody else
Me: But contact me when it’s the right time // or something, I don’t know what I told her exactly
Her: Ok! But I don’t know where to message you
Me: Here, on Instagram
We exchanged socials
Her: Ok! That’s we ll do!
Me: Nice. Now come and give me a kiss.
She kissed me on my check fast as fuck
TIP: I could have say here "don't look too much at my photos" or something like that so she can imagine herself doing it

Me: Would you like a ride with a moto in the summer?
HBDark: I m afraid of it, but I would go with you
Now I’m confused. How do I turn this girl?
Anyway, we go inside. We party a little bit more. Banter with the other group. At one point I bring the waiter and give him some champagne. He was very pleased!

Tbh, really felt proud on how the atmosphere around my table was. Different people/groups.

End of the night

We have to leave. Girls before us. They came to hug me. HBDark gave me a really long hug, like at least 3-4 seconds.
The other girls hug me as well. I pay. We went out. I m a little bit drunk, my head hurts. Almost lost my voice.
Next morning I have a big headache. Dafuq.

Now, few things:
What could I have done better? @Skills come with the solution of encouraging HBDark to date multiple guys at once. He has an article for it. Next time I ll do it.
How can I then go for another girls if I ve already went for HBDark but didn't close?

2nd day
I message HBA to see if she s ok. She really seemed a bit low, but she had a cold as well.
Me: Hey, are you ok?
HBA: Yes, Thank you
HBA: I took this free day to seep more
Let it slide

She commented on a photo on my story, and then I think here I could have gone a lot better. Fastlane gave me a debrief
Her: I see you post pictures with everybody but us!
Me: What?
Me: No
Me: No se puede
Me: back
Her: Ah I see
Me: Why are you asking?
Her: Wtf, are you serious?
Her: Weird that we didn't gather togheter to make all a picture all night(I have but with other friends)
Me: Indeed, I did post pictures only with the boys
Me: The women from my group are reserved for my and my friends's view only(like only we can see them)
Her: I said we didn;t do a picture
Her: Anyway, that was not a funny joke

At this point I knew the windows has to be open another time, so now I m just milking it
Me: Have a question
Her: Yes
Me: Why are you resistant?
Her: Resistant to what?
Me: To me
Her: What do you mean? All I want is that you to recognize that we're friends and our friendship love doesn't have an end. - this is a throwback to when I was building sexual tension between us and she liked it but told me "we are just friends". That's why she was kissing me at another party and behaved like a little child
Me: That love made you look at me with those eyes?

Stopped responding.

And now I have a desire to go and approach another girls in the club.

Wanna thank fastlane for my new mantra: "Any girl, any situation". Really puts me in the mood to find solutions

Have a nice evening,
Alpha13SC

 

[Alpha13SC]

Dopamine Detox

I decided to not listen to music for the next week. It gives me too much dopamine and it affects another things of my life.
So I m feeling the withdrawal. Getting dopamine from real things, not instant like music/porn/drugs or other things is life changing.

2 days in and I m CRAVING real social interactions, not online, not anything. Even opened people on street, and opening a girl this night in the metro because I wanted to speak with somebody. These days I m working from home.

Different hour, in metro, found a seat near a girl, but let a space between us. Take a look at her. Then saw her in the window how she s analyzing me from the side. I could have open her, but aa hit a lil bit. Now I m more motivated to do it next time. I basically ignored her for about 5-10 secs while she was analyzing me, up and down. Then, when I did it again, she didn't returned. Could she felt rejected? Or maybe it was the hesitation?

Anyway, I want to act more quick and decisive on these small windows next time. Life's not going back. Any girl, any situation.

Stay strong,
Alpha13SC

 

[Alpha13SC]

So, this will be interesting, I need some advices on how to manage some situations.

Nice meeting people

So, last Monday, coming from hometown to the place where I live. 6h drive. Didn’t want to take the train, so I find somebody who can take me, a guy with a truck(big one). Took me, there was another guy, 25yo, the driver almost 50yo and me.
Let’s get to know each other
First half of the trip, almost 3h, we just get to know each other. This driver was actually kind of a playboy in his early life. Being a driver for almost 30 years, story told me how he used to get girls who wanted to go from a place to another, then fuck them.
We share many things, how we like women, how we should do the things at the right time, etc.
He has to go to a town to deload the truck. He said that a girl asked him if he can take her from that town to the final destination(where I live too). After we talked so much about girls, I said then “ok, yeah, it will be interesting”

The vibe’s changing

We reached the place where he deload the truck. Spent 30 mins. Smoke a cigar. Then before going on, the girl came. Didn’t saw her very well from the windows. But then I stepped down to let her get in, staying in the driver’s bunk(was in the back of our seats). Then I saw her. HBPiercing, 175, brunnette, piercing on her nose then I saw she has on her ears also, 21yo.
The driver was smiling to me, I started to laugh because I knew what he was thinking of. The girl was a bit confused, but the vibe was good. We started to talk. The girl start going on how we should live our life to the fullest, she likes to party, having fun, etc.
Let’s talk more
We talked about the fact that I have a moto, and how she want to try it also. She wanted my number and also added me on Instagram. Full on. At one point she wanted to smoke a cigar, driver allowed us to smoke in the cabin.
Me: “Give me one too”
Her: “Ok. Why don’t you come near me?”
Going near her, in the bunk. Smoking. We already were touching, (that place wasn’t too big). There was music in the car, so vibe was very good. We laid back, talking more, touching on her leg.
At one point:
Me: So, do you want to live your life to the fullest?
Her: Yes

Then I started to kiss her. Very compliant. Full on. In a few mins, I already was escalating, touching her breasts, her pussy, etc.
The driver: You know, we have curtains here,
Her: No, it requires a more intimate place

We kiss some more. Then we draw the curtains. In that bunk, which was a bed, full dark, me and her kissing. Start fingering her. She started to undress, got her pants down. Full wet. She was moaning. And we kept like that. But I couldn’t get hard.
We stayed like that for about 40 mins. Then we return put the curtains in their places, going back to the driver, etc, smoke some more. We reached to town, getting each a cab.
We talked about seeing each other next day, going with moto.
Next day we talked a bit, asked her if she s ready for the ride, said yes, asked her if 7pm it’s ok then didn’t respond. Was like, ook. Went to the gym, sent her a text like
Me: Hey, don’t know what happened, but it was to meet you, I like the you you’re living the life. Take care!
Her: Yeah
Her: Sorry
Her: I had to leave town, go back to mine

Didn’t respond. Next day she pinged me. We talked a lil bit. Then dropped.

I want to ping her

Saturday I was thinking about pinging her. Respond to her insta story, then sent her a photo with my 2 helmets, mine and the the passenger’s one
Her: When?
Me: Depends. When are you coming here?
Her: Today it’s my birthday.
Her: You should come here
Me: Hmm
Me: You’re challenging me
Stopped responding. But I was like, fuck it, it would be interesting to do it.
Me: It would be interesting to come. I can be there in about 3h.
Her: Come!
Her: I m waiting for you!

Talked on the phone. I said yes, I ll come.
So just to understand. About 170-190km, wanted to go with my motorcycle, on less than 10 degrees outside. Nuts. But that’s the way I am, I like to put myself in these harsh situations, took them as a will test. So I said fuck it. Gonna do it. Dangerous anyway.

Why am I like this?

First 100km were good. About 6-8 degrees outside, I had my gear on, little cold, but was nice doing it. Made a stop.
But the 2nd half was a nightmare. Started to rain, my quads were freezing, switched the gloves with some winter ones lol. I was seeing in from of me for like just 5-10m. Full rain, about 4 degrees outside.
For about 20km I had to ride through forest, snow along the road, 2 degrees outside, rain, the visor was fogged. I was straight asking myself what the fuck am I m doing with my life?
It’s not about the pussy, but my desire for adventure. And this one put me to the limit. I was the only with with a motorcycle, in this fucking winter, on a 100km radius area.

How am I still alive?

Somehow, after about 4h30min I reached the destination. A little bit shady. Going to her block. She was there. Told me she was a mini party with some friends. This was expected, so not surprise here, I said ok, will do it anyway.
Going up to her apartment. There was her best friends, 42yo woman, divorced who was living her 2nd teenage life. She was very cool, intelligent, a MILF. Then, beside her was a guy, good looking, was like “who dafuq is this, her step brother(he was a kid), and a trans person, a boy in the body of a girl + 2 dogs. Was the nth time when I asked myself what dafuq am I doing? Party with trans people and kids. But then I said fuck it, let’s see what happens.
Going to buy a pack of cigars, the good looking guy left. Before leaving, I asked HBPiercing
Me: Hey, do you want something from the shop?
Her: Yeah, get some whisky maybe
Me: Ok
1st thought was like “is she kind of trying to use me or something?” But I said fuck it, I want to drink and there was not too much alcohol, so I bought something.
Going up. This girl was partying, was very into the moment, sometimes was dancing with me, other times was paying more attention to her friends. But I played it cool
Are you helping me or not?
There was this best friend, R, MILF, but with experience. R somehow liked me in a way. I m sure that HBPiercing told her about me and how we almost fucked in a truck(which she confirmed me later). She was very nice to me, asking question, asking back, but we didn’t build a full vibe between us. At one point I was getting bored, the girl was in R’s arms, the trans and her step brother were in the kitchen, so I said
Me: Let’s play some games, would be cool
R: blab la
HBPiercing didn’t said a thing. She was paying attention to me when she wanted. I played it cool, didn’t cared too much, because when she was doing it, I could sense that I was her lover. I thought it s the social pressure on her, so I didn’t care. Tried to make friends there.
She got drunk, the others smoked some weed, she got stoned as well.
At one point we re in the kitchen, me, HBPiercing and R. She was in R’s arms, like a child
I tried to make a comment
Me: How easy you’re accepting her in your bubble
R: What do you mean by that?
Me: I mean, along with time, you accept people harder and harder in your life due to different reasons. And you like her very much, she s so close to you
R: Yeah, but I still don’t know what do you mean by that
HBPiercing: Yeah, what do you mean by that?
And this was like a battle frame which I unwanted.
HBPiercing: You re not thinking straight
Ok, I didn’t liked this. Played it cool. When they were testing me, I was just smiling and didn’t payed too much attention. Was not affected. I could have leave in any moment. Of course, riding again in rain, 2 degrees outside, finding a hotel, but wouldn’t stay in a place where people through some shit.

We talked some more. At one point, HBPiercing, drunk and stoned
HBPiercing: I care only about her. I don’t care about my stepbrother(he was near us), suck a dick Darius
HBPiercing: I don’t care about you and you(she shy pointed at me)
I looked at her in a bad way, didn’t said a thing then continue a conversation with R
R: She s just like that
At one point
R: Why did you came?
Me: Because I wanted
R: What do you mean?
Me: I wanted to come. It was an experience for me, the road, the adrenaline, the rain, coming here
R: I don’t believe you
Me: I don’t wanna convince you. This was one of the reasons, a big one(And I mean it). And because I wanted to see her
R: That’s something else
Me: I came to see her, and the conditions made it more interesting
Few more words, then R
R: I feel petty for you
Me: What?
R: I feel petty for men like you
Me: What do you mean?
She said something
Me: Look, I think it got what you’re trying to say, but it’s not the case. I came because I wanted, not because of something else
My bet was that she thought I came through this conditions just for some pussy. I was like, girl, I m doing it again if someone challenges me, without getting nothing in return, because I like challenges.
R which in the beginning seemed to help me with the social frame, now she was picturing me differently.
R: What do you want from her?
Me: What do you mean?
R: You want a relationship, right?
Me: Where did you get that from?
HBPiercing: I don’t want a relationship, I m free
Me: I don t want a relationship

Now I m thinking where dafuq did things went south.

More conv one, then the girl
HBPiercing: Fuck you
Me: What?
HBPiercing: What?
Me: Did you said fuck you to me?
Her, as well, very in her own world: No, I didn’t said that
Now I m getting a little bit pissed.
Her: Look, if you’re saying that to me, I ll leave
Why didn’t I leave? Good question. Partly because the weather wasn’t on my side, but was doable and partly because I knew she was not thinking straight in that moment. So I said fuck it, tomorrow will return to normal.
HBPiercing: You can leave
Now R is coming back on my said
R: She s drunk, don’t pay attention to what she s saying
Me: If she s asking me this, I ll leave before even saying it, I don t fucking care
HBPiercing: Yes
R: No, don’t do it. We shouldn’t reach this poing. It’s ok. Nobody wants you to leave
Now I see that she sees me differently
I spoke with R a little bit more. Light a cigar. Then I was acting noncompliant to HBPiercing.
HBPiercing: Give me a cigar also
Me: The packet it s there
HBPiercing: Give me from yours
Me: No
I m tired of asking myself what the fuck am I doing
R: I should leave
HBPiercing: I ll come with you, then come back
Her block was 5 mins away
Me: I ll come
HBPiercing: No, I ll just go with her
R: No girl, you’re drunk. Let her come
HBPiercing: No,
Me: I ll come. Not a discussion
At this point I didn’t cared about what she was saying. And I wanted to take some air, because this atmosphere depressed me a little bit.
We go. Reached Rs block. HBPiercing was feeling bad, very bad. Tried to get her on her legs and go back.
HBPiercing: No, leave me alone, fuck you
Me: What did you said?
HBPiercing: Fuck you
R: Please, don’t pay attention to her. She s not her now
I got pissed and not gonna let it slide like that
Me: You should apologize
HBPiercing: No, fuck you
Me: Ok, I ll leave.
Let her jacket on a bench, and literally going back, taking my gear, and find a hotel
R: No, please, don’t do it. Look at her
Me: I don t care
R: Please. Do it for me, not for her
Looked at her. Took a 2nd thought. Freezing outside, and this girl who s acting like a child and I don’t care and R who actually start being nice to me
Me: Ok.
HBPiercing start crying in R s arm. What the fuck?
Holding frame
Getting with HBPiercing back.
Me: That was not cool
HBPiercing: Yeah, but that’s me being drunk. You know I m not like that
Me: Still, was not cool
HBPiercing: You don’t know why I was crying
Me, very stoic: Yes, I don’t know, but that’s not an excuse
We spoke a lil bit, then she came near me, close, we start kissing
I knew this will gonna happen, so let it happen. Go to her block. Get inside. Things are getting hot. Start fingering her. She turns back, got her pants down and said
HBPiercing: Fuck me. Fuck me now
I teased her a lil bit, but a part of me didn’t want to fuck her while she s drunk and stoned
Me: I want to do that. I want to do that badly, but now in this conditions. Tomorrows
HBPiercing: No, now
Me: Tomorrow
We kissed some more, finger here, then we go back.
In the room, the trans person and her step brother were sleeping in the bed. We go to kitchen. Same thing repeats, she undressed
Her: Fuck me
Me: Tomorrow
We go to sleep. 4 person. In the same fucking bad. But I m thinking “this is gonna be a lesson for me to think twice before doing some shit like this again”
Tried to sleep. Slept only 2h, best case.

Next day, different things

We woke up, I go outside, smoke a cigar, go to pharmacy, eat something, get back.
Her: Hey, how are you?
Me: Good, you?
Her: Good. I remember everything from last night.
Me: Rlly? What?
Her: Everything. I shouldn’t have said that. I was drunk
Me: Ok. Did you remember something else? – did this smiling
Her smiling: Yes
Then turned back

Let’s go again

We are in bed, trans person in the kitchen. Her step brother was sleeping on the floor, and two dogs, were not letting us alone. We start kissing. Fingering her. It s on. But then
Me: When are these two leaving?
Her: I don’t know. One it s still sleeping
I said ok, we should wait. But I could have fuck her right now, nobody could have said anything.
Later, she went to the shower, I was trying to sleep some more, come back, saw her in her towel.
Me: Come here
Her: Ok.
It’s on again, fingering, body on poin, tits, ass, everything. Ok. I ll do my thing then leave
But didn’t get up. Emotionally I wasn’t there. The whole night, the fact that even she was into me, but wasn’t compliant as I expected maybe got me off a little bit.
Unfortunately we didn’t fucked.
I m finding new things
In the kitchen, me, the trans and her. She came sit on my leg
Me: So, tell me, how is this trans thing working? I m straight asking, I don t know anything about it – was legit asking
Trans: So my body is from a female, but I m feeling like a male and I do masculine things
Me: But you like girls?
Trans: Yes, but I m a pansexual. I like a good soul
Me: Ooke
HBPiercing: And I like girls
Me smiling: I saw how you like girls
Her: It’s true. I like girls
Me again smiling: Ok. She was wet for me anyway
1:30 pm
Her: You know, we will leave, I ll met with R, go for lunch
Me: Ok, I ll leave too.

I saw that I had my occasion and could have fuck her, but maybe next time, who knows

The point of no return

Her: I ll go this way
Me: And I ll go this way
Her: Well, ok. Thanks for coming. Others would not do it
Me: - smiling-
We hug. Said some things, then we kiss on cheeks, but I saw we actually intersect and about to kiss eachother on the lips. Kiss on the other cheeks
Why didn’t I kissed her? I wanted to let some desire there, unfulfilled. It was somehow a last restort for the fact that I didn’t fucked her.
Then I start going back. Fucking harsh conditions. Talked with a friend. He was praying to reach home safe, my sister as well, lol
I was like “C mon, you know me”. But this me wasn’t sure how dafuq I ll ride through another 2 degrees outside, rainig worse than yesterday and worse, the visor was too fogged and had to keep it up, but then my eyes were hurting due to all that air coming directly through them.
At one point, I stopped in a gas station. The trans added me on insta, liked all my picture
Trans: You’re very cute. It was very nice meeting you. Hope you got home safe
Me: Thank you, as well! I have 2 more hours to drive
Trans: Ok! Be safe! You’re very cute
Me: Thank you. But weren’t you liking females more?
.. little bit convo about how she/him, more like him now is pansexual
Me: Oh, ok. Just so you know, I m straight. But I like the courage
Trans: Yeah, saw that if you’re not risking, well …
Me: But HBPiercing, does she know?
Trans: Of course! We re bff, we discuss this things
Me: And what did she said?
Trans: She said to do what I feel. And this isn’t her business

I reached home safe, fortunately, proud that I made it. Got some more reference points, so now I can think of what to improve in so much different situations.

Till the next time,
Alpha13SC

 

[Alpha13SC]

Last month has been confusing. I ve felt extremely lucky due to some things I ve been through. Finally I started to do some heavy training at gym because for almost 3-4 months, the intensity was low due to some tight muscles.
Unfortunately, I was dealing with some anxiety attacks which are very unusual for me, literally waking up and with 130 bpm, like "hey hearty, where are you going?"

Also, did a lot of matches online, keep good conversations, but at one point it dropped. Sometimes 100-50, other times 100-0. Trying to move as fast as I can with them, still, this happens.

I think I found the reason for why I didn't had too many erections lately. Too much comfort and too few carbs. Kills my drive sometimes. I went to do some mountain climbing, -20 degrees outside sometimes, then went snowboarding, lots of fun and outdoor activities and I was hard almost every single day. Came in town. My drive wasn't the same. Working from home doesn't help.

Last night I went to a masquerade. I was getting turning heads almost everywhere. Felt good ngl. Got some approaches in. I remember one girl in the beginning of the night with who I had a prolonged eye contact but I broke it. Should have smiled and maybe waved or something. She was in a 4-6 girls set. Fuck it. I want to approach even this situations. Later in the night we didn't had too many eye contacts, but was seeing her every where. Later, I opened her:
Me: Hello - smiling
Her: Hello, do you smoke?

Was like fuck, now that's a hired gun. But went on that route of smoking, at least got a free pack of cigarettes, but that was a lil bit falling into her frame? Idk, doesn't matter now.

Open another one who was 30+, this being my warming up. But looked nice. Got into how we like doing adventurous things. Presented me to her girl friend. At one point I ejected because I wanted something else.

Few others in, but didn't lead to nowhere, maybe because I was lil bit disappointed with that hired gun.

My friends wanted to change venues. Went to a club.

Opened 2 sets, they were from Greece, as well, as a warmup for that venue, but ejected because I wanted something else.
Interesting situation, one girl from my social circle came with her bf, but I had a few make outs with her, even slept togheter but didn't close. Wonder why? Too much of a fuckboi back then. Clearly attracted but she wanted a connection.

Now, she was continuously getting me to dance. I was mostly chilling, and sometimes she was getting my hands in the air " Hey @Alpha13SC let's dance, come on!!" with her bf near me. She was kino ing me, lol, and when I was getting too close, then she got back to her bf. He was down in his mind, later in the night he somehow insulted her, was like "man, you're finished". Wasn't even my intention.

Field Report 17/02

Tinder match

So meeting another HBDark. Matched her on Tinder. Discuss a little. Went to insta. Discuss there. This was over almost a week because I didn t have logistics to date her too soon. We were talking 1-2 days, the I was dropping the conv for 1-2 days. At one point she was double texting me, responding to a story of mine saying "what a beautiful boy" so she was there.

Date

Met her in the Old Town, then went to a venue that I liked. She was looking better in reality than in pictures, was like "damn". Brunnete, 170m, gym girl.

Went to the venue. The atmosphere was nice, but music was too fucking loud. We already liked it so we decided to stay here. Choose a place, which was more privately and because the music was loud, we stayed one near another.

This was talking a lot. A fucking lot. I was mostly chilling. These days I feel more like I m doing less than before. I m feeling higher social status than in my past so I don t feel needing to do more than I have to. Thing is that this is making me having more of a social vibe, because I met a lot of new people lately, opening people and so on and I had to actually look non threating and smiling, than my usual appearance of a tough guy because people weren't always talking to me openly. I don't know how others see it, but that's how I perceive it.

Back to the date.

We talked a lot. Went through 2nd gen verbals as well. At one point, I went near her and for the rest of the date, our legs were touching. 2h date which is unusual because I used to have from 3-4 to 7-8h dates because I enjoyed them. She proposed to leave because she was tired.

I remember in the beginning of the date had a thought "I ll fuck this up". Literally first time having this. But get back to my normal state. I think it s because of those anxiety attacks I had.

Didn't went too much into sexual things. At one point I was describing my life and how I m going from one thing to another, having irresponsible decisions which she said

"That s how are you doing with girls as well? From one to another?"
I just laughed.
"What? Haha" Didn't gave it too much attention

Unfortunately, at the end of the date the cashier couldn't let me pay with card, told her to pay and I ll send the money. No big deal. Sent her more than I consumed but that's irrelevant for me.

Tried to kiss her at one point.
"Why don't you want to kiss me? Haha" laughing
"Because I don t feel like it?"

Indeed, this felt mechanical, more like a step to check, didn't felt so much like other times. But you know what?

IT S FUCKING ANNOYING BECAUSE THIS HAPPENED LAST 4-5 TIMES. And man, I had girls who told me they don't want to kiss me, then next date straight to my place. Other time she didn't wanna kiss me, but she wouldn't want the date to stop. We were literally in the car and the girl was still there talking and talking, but didn't want to kiss me.

At the end of the date, she took an Uber, I took mine, and kissed me on the cheeks, went for a kiss there more like from reflex,
Me: Now you wanna kiss me? haha
Her: We ll see

Took an Uber home, slept.

Next day I sent her a message in the afternoon, and she didn't respond.
Now, what dafuq? More like what dafuq, why it s happening again?

Beside HBPiercing, the date before as well stopped responding to my message.
The date before before, the girl told me we shouldn't date anymore.

Man, this is nuts. Literally, I m getting more IoIs on the streets, in club, almost everywhere and this happens.
I hope I don't have to go through 100 dates to resolve it, but if that s what requires it, I ll do it, fuck it.

It's getting warmer here. Maybe I can do some moto dates. I like these.

Next time I ll have better results,

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Also, I plan going solo. Feels good putting yourself there, in the unknown and having to manage your night. Something has to happen, fuck it.

Only downside is that when I go out, I tend to smoke and lose a night of sleep.

 

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Friday 24/2
For some reason, this day was filled with fury in me. Dunno why. So much energy in me that it actually got me exhausted. Took 2 naps.
Went to gym 3 days in a row. Was planning on going this day also, should be legs. Didn't get proper meals in, but at 7pm I said come on, I can do. Going in.

One of the most exhausting leg days in my history.

I met a girl at one of the parties I went, HBCookie. I get along with her pretty well. She actually likes me, because keeps bantering and inviting me to parties. She s part of an organization team.
The interesting part about HBCookie is that I remember her from another place. Oh, yeah, I know from where. I matched with her on Tinder. Banter a lil' bit, throwing a soft close, but wasn't too receptive so I dropped. Now she's all over me face2face. How life works.

Anyway, HBCookie invites me to this party. Wasn't full sold, asked another friend if he wanna come. He s in. I m in too. I was just going to chill. Too much energy spent on gym these days. I think I have to let my body recoved. But the process is just too good.

Outfit: So I wanted to try something new. A blazer. 2nd time wearing it. So brown chelsea boots and belt, black jeans, black shirt and black blazer + feather earring.

Reaching venue

So, I ve met a few friends there, the organization team along with HBCookie acting very warm but as well distracted by the environment.
Tbh, I went more to get out of the house, because I m working from home and the need to socialize is just too damn big.

Went with my friend M to the bar to get something to drink. Girls are dressed fancy. Me even fancier. Rest of the guys are not so well dresset, I mean a shirt here and there, but many T shirts. Nothing wrong with that, but they don't stand out.

First real short AI

Went first time to HBCookie's table. She was with another girl, banter a lil bit with both. Going to bathroom. Two girls at the bar. One HBBrunnete, I think 30+ years based on her skin, but she was looking good. Prolonged eye contact, at least 2 sec. I wasn't warmed up. Passed be. Should I have opened, or smiled, or something? Dunno what should I do here.

Getting back to bar

Taking two places at bar. Was talking to M, my friend. A girl passing by, I think I ve smiled to her while talking to my friend, she kind of smiled back, but continue her route. What should I have done here too? Like opening her or what

Getting my place to chill

I was near the entrance, there was table for two's. Hanging out with M. Talking about money and stuff. Next to us, another table of two. Two girls sit down. At one point they stand up and dance. One guy next to us nodding his head "go approach". Usually I take such challenges, but in this moment, if the girl saw it, would not be good, so I said later. But in retrospective, maybe I could have think of something to open while they were sitting.

Going to smoke

Outside. I think alone. Smoking. A 3set coming.
HBTeacher, brunette, 173 I think, she had 2 braided strands. Looking at her and other two friends.
Me: Hey, can you help me braiding my hair too, as yours?
Her: Haha, I don't know if I can do it now, I need some foam.
Me: Really? They re not just braided?
Her: No, have to put something in it
Me: Can I?
Her: Sure

Then go touching her braids, playing with them a lil' bit.
Banter with her more, also with her friends, including everybody in. All 3 girls forming a circle focused on me, but HBTeacher was almost straight facing me. Another brunette girl, from this group was giving me some inappropriate glances and smiles. In the end, when they left the venue, after a few hours, she was single, she smiled me back so much(we were single, her friends were already outside) so knew she was keen.

Talking with HBTeacher. Focused more on her. Her friends goes in. I m smoking another one with her. She lights up another one. It's one.Talked about the fact that she s a teacher, where she s from. Almost got into travelling, and so on.

Stayed for almost 20 min. People going in and out. Build a lot of preselection within the first 3 mins with them facing me.

Went inside with her

First real escalation window

HBTeacher: "So where s your table?
Me: This one << showing the two table >> but I can stay whenever I want << then showing a free couch >> we can stay there if you want.
Here was the moment where I saw her hesitation because of mine. Didn't even thought I could get so far. Didn't even planned on doing approaches, I was just chilling.
Me: Or do you want to go to your friends?
HBTeacher: I ll search for them I think, yeah

Ok, could have done it better. It's just the beginning of the night(more like mid, tbh). It's alright, we ll recover later.

Smoking another cigar outside. What my eyes are seeing? A girl that I've devirginated last year came with her new bf. Saying hello and smiling. saying hello back and smiling. Could sense the awkwardness in her. Shrug it off.

Go back to my table

Was hanging around with M. Then went to bar, seeing if I can do another sets. Took as set. Next to me were 3 girls. One cute blonde. But interesting, after take the seat, they somehow turned their back, didn't have the chance to open. Wtf? Why would they do that? Let me opeeen.

Then I saw another one, HBBrown, let's call her. She liked to dance. Actually was dancing more than whoever was near her. Spirit of the party. Oke. Didn't made any eye contact with her.

2nd one with HBTeacher, COME ONNNN

Going outside, smoking. Saw another girl who I was sharing glances with, but she was approached by a guy, asking her insta I guess. Didn't approached.

HBTeacher and her blonde friend come outside. Talking some more. More bantering. But could tell it wasn't like the 1st time. But it was still on, fuck it. As well, smoked 2 cigars.
At one point, her colleague was cold.
Me: You're cold?
Blonde friend: Yeah
Me being very relaxed: I can give you my coat, keep you warm.
Why did I said this? Well, I did it unnafected enough, in a friendly way so that my target knows that isn't everything there. But wait, what does it happen next?
HBTeacher: Looks like this keeps you very warm
Me: Yeah, usually I wear it with just a shirt in the winter. - Could have gone for more here, something compliant, maybe something more flirting, SOT, etc
Then she touched my coat, feeling it.
HBTeacher: Look girl, I m touching him hahaha
Her friends laugh as well. Smiling at them, tried to keep the tension. Don't remember what I ve said.

Big, fucking big window here.

They go inside, me still being outside if I remember correctly, because I didn't finished smoking.

Hanging around

Smoke another one with M. HBBrunnete was there, very short eye contact, but could sense she was more close. Didn't saw her approached. Later she even left. So I m thinkin in the beginning of the night was the perfect moment. Now, it wears off. Maybe? I remember @Chase saying that more experienced girls gives you shorter windows. That could be it? She was older than me.

Chilling at bar again, looking for some opportunities. Didn't saw any. Placed myself again near these 3 girls who were close. Close again this time. Ok.
Went to HBCookie's table to see how s there. Some girls. Talking. Building more preselection.

At one point M left. Was still chilling by myself. Solo. Yolo. Fuck it. I liked the athmosphere.

3rd one, YOU CAN DO IT

Smoke another one outside. HBTeacher come again
Me: Hey, I think you're looking following me everywhere
Her: Are you staying here always, or what?

Didn't said anything. I think this hurt my social frame a lil' bit?
Me: You're leaving now?
Her: Yeah, we ll not stay anymore.

Talk a lil' bit more

While being with there, HBBrown came to us "Hey, do you have a cigarette?" I didn't want to offer, because thought it would be like too much availability to speak with other girls in front of HBTeacher, so I thought it s better to let them give her one.

Then, seeing they wanna leave:

Me: Hey, how re you on insta?
Her: <name>
Me thinking of actually getting her number: Hmm, actually . .
Her: No, write

Added. Didn't add me back yet.
I don't know what happened here. Did she sense that I wanted to take her number? Did she thought I was going for the pull? Did she thought I was not interest anymore?

While being with there, HBBrown came to us "Hey, do you have a cigarette?" I didn't want to offer, because thought it would be like too much availability to speak with other girls in front of HBTeacher, so I thought it s better to let them give her one.

Going inside

Saw the brunette friend of those two girls, smiling me back as I said in the beginning, a lil' bit too much. Oke.

Hanging around HBCookie's table. HBDarky there, 160m, a hat on, tits out. My mind's going places.
Me: Hey, 1st time for you at this event too?
Her: Yeah, 1st time for me
Her: But I ve came here with the same guys at other events organized by them
Me: I think << x event>> right?
Her: Yeah! I ve been there at New Year's Eve, took place << y place>.
Me: I wanted to come too, but my friends kidnapped me

Then banter a lil' bit more. But I get a weird feeling. Legit don't know what to say. Dafuq? I m there, she s there, I m relaxed, she s relaxed, smiling at me, but didn't invest like she s very hooked. It's like she s liking me, but restrain herself because she has a bf or something like that. Also, I ve built another tons of preselection there because HBCookie had another girl friends and I was there with them. At one point, one red hair 185 almost girl, eye fucking me, at the end of the party. Was thinking just how I would lay down that girl in my bad and fuck her badly. Meam.

This is interesting

Want to go to bathroom.
Remember HBBrown? The one who asked a cigarrete?
Grabs by arm
Her: Hey, you were with those ladies outside, right?
Me: Hmm, yeah?
Her: Can you take and give them a shot to them?

What? To carry a glass to them? No way girl
Me: They left
Her: Ah, bad.
Her: I told them I would give them a shot and I want to keep my promise.
Me: Nice of you. But even if they were, I wouldn't do it
She smiled back.

Went to bathroom.

Came back, go straight to her
Me: Hey
Her: Yeah?
Me: You look very familiar. Have you been in <<z university>>?
Her: Hmm, no
Me: Or are you from <<my hometown>>?
Her: No
Me: Hmm, strange, you look like I ve seen you somewhere else
She smiled back. Didn't give me inputs here. It was like the same vibe as with HBDarky. Compliant, but not fully there. Was some kind of autorejection because she saw me with those girls?

Me: Oke
Then I eject. She grabs my arm and squeeze it lightly, like a form of kino. What should I do now?

Back to HBDarky

Banter with her a lil bit
Me:Hey, I ve heard they ll put <<t genre of music>> (I ll have no more letters from alphabet)
Her: Hahah
But she was still vibe

Going to bar to buy a drink. HBBrown was there on a seat. Was next to her, but she was with her back at me. I m sure she saw me, but keep staying on her phone and talking to her friends. Ok. Didn't reopen.

Later with HBDarky
Me: Can I grab your hat?
Her: I don't know what to say
Her: My hair would be tapered down
Me: Oke
Then she grabs her hat and give it to me.
Me: Your hair is fine, no problem
Smiles
Playing around with the hat. Give her back

I m tired. Was thinking about calling it a night, but feels like I wanted to do approaches. They re addictive. Talking to more girls. That's what I ve been focusing on so much, finding opportunities.

HBCookie along with other girls including HBDarky are leaving. I m boucing to a near venue, 3 mins away.

While going there, me and other people were on a dark alley. In front of me were 4 girls which with 2 of them I exchanged some glances along the night.
Each of them turned back when they sensed my presence.

Was thinking of using this as an opener. Maybe like: "I know it's dark, but I ll not do anything to you" or something? I don t know yet. They ve been seeing me talking to girls all night.

Bouncing to the other venue. Still party. Going in. Many girls, guys weren't actually approaching or to see some male-female sets on.

Stayed a little bit, feeling the atmosphere. Saw another brunette, white dress, bit tits out. I want this girl. But she was with her friends, on the couch. How do I preopen. stayed a lil bit, seeing it's surrounded by guys and girls. I think I relied too much on preopen and AIs this night. Didn't do anything at this venue.

Call an Uber, driver's very energic, getting home and slept 4h.

Tbh, I m feeling very proud of myself because I got so much far than I was expecting to, approaches went more easily, girls more receptive, more AIs. Think it's because I was more chilling than ever and outfit.

Few notes:
More intent. More escalation. More isolation. I was more observing this night. As I said, didn't plan to approach, but what the hell, but back in my mind of course I was going for this.
I was also focusing so much on getting opportunities, seeing what I can get from the room. Didn't party and enjoyed myself so much as other times. I don't know if this was good or not, felt a lil' bit more passive, but more focused on girls and getting with them.

Maybe more approaches? The venue wasn't that big. And I got a target since first 20-30 mins, so.
I shouldn't smoke that much.
Spent more money than I planned to.

If you scroll up, even if I ve isolated more girls at other parties, I feel like I made more progress here. Very relaxed, 0 AA.. I don;t know why. Maybe because I did everything more effortlessly. Also, venue was top for this city. One month ago I was thinking what to do. Now I went with the flow. Which is nice, but still felt a lil' bit passive, without a plan. What's the right answer?

Later edit: HBTeacher added me on insta


Hit me,
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Friday 24/2
For some reason, this day was filled with fury in me. Dunno why. So much energy in me that it actually got me exhausted. Took 2 naps.
Went to gym 3 days in a row. Was planning on going this day also, should be legs. Didn't get proper meals in, but at 7pm I said come on, I can do. Going in.

One of the most exhausting leg days in my history.

I met a girl at one of the parties I went, HBCookie. I get along with her pretty well. She actually likes me, because keeps bantering and inviting me to parties. She s part of an organization team.
The interesting part about HBCookie is that I remember her from another place. Oh, yeah, I know from where. I matched with her on Tinder. Banter a lil' bit, throwing a soft close, but wasn't too receptive so I dropped. Now she's all over me face2face. How life works.

Anyway, HBCookie invites me to this party. Wasn't full sold, asked another friend if he wanna come. He s in. I m in too. I was just going to chill. Too much energy spent on gym these days. I think I have to let my body recoved. But the process is just too good.

Outfit: So I wanted to try something new. A blazer. 2nd time wearing it. So brown chelsea boots and belt, black jeans, black shirt and black blazer + feather earring.

Reaching venue

So, I ve met a few friends there, the organization team along with HBCookie acting very warm but as well distracted by the environment.
Tbh, I went more to get out of the house, because I m working from home and the need to socialize is just too damn big.

Went with my friend M to the bar to get something to drink. Girls are dressed fancy. Me even fancier. Rest of the guys are not so well dresset, I mean a shirt here and there, but many T shirts. Nothing wrong with that, but they don't stand out.

First real short AI

Went first time to HBCookie's table. She was with another girl, banter a lil bit with both. Going to bathroom. Two girls at the bar. One HBBrunnete, I think 30+ years based on her skin, but she was looking good. Prolonged eye contact, at least 2 sec. I wasn't warmed up. Passed be. Should I have opened, or smiled, or something? Dunno what should I do here.

Getting back to bar

Taking two places at bar. Was talking to M, my friend. A girl passing by, I think I ve smiled to her while talking to my friend, she kind of smiled back, but continue her route. What should I have done here too? Like opening her or what

Getting my place to chill

I was near the entrance, there was table for two's. Hanging out with M. Talking about money and stuff. Next to us, another table of two. Two girls sit down. At one point they stand up and dance. One guy next to us nodding his head "go approach". Usually I take such challenges, but in this moment, if the girl saw it, would not be good, so I said later. But in retrospective, maybe I could have think of something to open while they were sitting.

Going to smoke

Outside. I think alone. Smoking. A 3set coming.
HBTeacher, brunette, 173 I think, she had 2 braided strands. Looking at her and other two friends.
Me: Hey, can you help me braiding my hair too, as yours?
Her: Haha, I don't know if I can do it now, I need some foam.
Me: Really? They re not just braided?
Her: No, have to put something in it
Me: Can I?
Her: Sure

Then go touching her braids, playing with them a lil' bit.
Banter with her more, also with her friends, including everybody in. All 3 girls forming a circle focused on me, but HBTeacher was almost straight facing me. Another brunette girl, from this group was giving me some inappropriate glances and smiles. In the end, when they left the venue, after a few hours, she was single, she smiled me back so much(we were single, her friends were already outside) so knew she was keen.

Talking with HBTeacher. Focused more on her. Her friends goes in. I m smoking another one with her. She lights up another one. It's one.Talked about the fact that she s a teacher, where she s from. Almost got into travelling, and so on.

Stayed for almost 20 min. People going in and out. Build a lot of preselection within the first 3 mins with them facing me.

Went inside with her

First real escalation window

HBTeacher: "So where s your table?
Me: This one << showing the two table >> but I can stay whenever I want << then showing a free couch >> we can stay there if you want.
Here was the moment where I saw her hesitation because of mine. Didn't even thought I could get so far. Didn't even planned on doing approaches, I was just chilling.
Me: Or do you want to go to your friends?
HBTeacher: I ll search for them I think, yeah

Ok, could have done it better. It's just the beginning of the night(more like mid, tbh). It's alright, we ll recover later.

Smoking another cigar outside. What my eyes are seeing? A girl that I've devirginated last year came with her new bf. Saying hello and smiling. saying hello back and smiling. Could sense the awkwardness in her. Shrug it off.

Go back to my table

Was hanging around with M. Then went to bar, seeing if I can do another sets. Took as set. Next to me were 3 girls. One cute blonde. But interesting, after take the seat, they somehow turned their back, didn't have the chance to open. Wtf? Why would they do that? Let me opeeen.

Then I saw another one, HBBrown, let's call her. She liked to dance. Actually was dancing more than whoever was near her. Spirit of the party. Oke. Didn't made any eye contact with her.

2nd one with HBTeacher, COME ONNNN

Going outside, smoking. Saw another girl who I was sharing glances with, but she was approached by a guy, asking her insta I guess. Didn't approached.

HBTeacher and her blonde friend come outside. Talking some more. More bantering. But could tell it wasn't like the 1st time. But it was still on, fuck it. As well, smoked 2 cigars.
At one point, her colleague was cold.
Me: You're cold?
Blonde friend: Yeah
Me being very relaxed: I can give you my coat, keep you warm.
Why did I said this? Well, I did it unnafected enough, in a friendly way so that my target knows that isn't everything there. But wait, what does it happen next?
HBTeacher: Looks like this keeps you very warm
Me: Yeah, usually I wear it with just a shirt in the winter. - Could have gone for more here, something compliant, maybe something more flirting, SOT, etc
Then she touched my coat, feeling it.
HBTeacher: Look girl, I m touching him hahaha
Her friends laugh as well. Smiling at them, tried to keep the tension. Don't remember what I ve said.

Big, fucking big window here.

They go inside, me still being outside if I remember correctly, because I didn't finished smoking.

Hanging around

Smoke another one with M. HBBrunnete was there, very short eye contact, but could sense she was more close. Didn't saw her approached. Later she even left. So I m thinkin in the beginning of the night was the perfect moment. Now, it wears off. Maybe? I remember @Chase saying that more experienced girls gives you shorter windows. That could be it? She was older than me.

Chilling at bar again, looking for some opportunities. Didn't saw any. Placed myself again near these 3 girls who were close. Close again this time. Ok.
Went to HBCookie's table to see how s there. Some girls. Talking. Building more preselection.

At one point M left. Was still chilling by myself. Solo. Yolo. Fuck it. I liked the athmosphere.

3rd one, YOU CAN DO IT

Smoke another one outside. HBTeacher come again
Me: Hey, I think you're looking following me everywhere
Her: Are you staying here always, or what?

Didn't said anything. I think this hurt my social frame a lil' bit?
Me: You're leaving now?
Her: Yeah, we ll not stay anymore.

Talk a lil' bit more

While being with there, HBBrown came to us "Hey, do you have a cigarette?" I didn't want to offer, because thought it would be like too much availability to speak with other girls in front of HBTeacher, so I thought it s better to let them give her one.

Then, seeing they wanna leave:

Me: Hey, how re you on insta?
Her: <name>
Me thinking of actually getting her number: Hmm, actually . .
Her: No, write

Added. Didn't add me back yet.
I don't know what happened here. Did she sense that I wanted to take her number? Did she thought I was going for the pull? Did she thought I was not interest anymore?

While being with there, HBBrown came to us "Hey, do you have a cigarette?" I didn't want to offer, because thought it would be like too much availability to speak with other girls in front of HBTeacher, so I thought it s better to let them give her one.

Going inside

Saw the brunette friend of those two girls, smiling me back as I said in the beginning, a lil' bit too much. Oke.

Hanging around HBCookie's table. HBDarky there, 160m, a hat on, tits out. My mind's going places.
Me: Hey, 1st time for you at this event too?
Her: Yeah, 1st time for me
Her: But I ve came here with the same guys at other events organized by them
Me: I think << x event>> right?
Her: Yeah! I ve been there at New Year's Eve, took place << y place>.
Me: I wanted to come too, but my friends kidnapped me

Then banter a lil' bit more. But I get a weird feeling. Legit don't know what to say. Dafuq? I m there, she s there, I m relaxed, she s relaxed, smiling at me, but didn't invest like she s very hooked. It's like she s liking me, but restrain herself because she has a bf or something like that. Also, I ve built another tons of preselection there because HBCookie had another girl friends and I was there with them. At one point, one red hair 185 almost girl, eye fucking me, at the end of the party. Was thinking just how I would lay down that girl in my bad and fuck her badly. Meam.

This is interesting

Want to go to bathroom.
Remember HBBrown? The one who asked a cigarrete?
Grabs by arm
Her: Hey, you were with those ladies outside, right?
Me: Hmm, yeah?
Her: Can you take and give them a shot to them?

What? To carry a glass to them? No way girl
Me: They left
Her: Ah, bad.
Her: I told them I would give them a shot and I want to keep my promise.
Me: Nice of you. But even if they were, I wouldn't do it
She smiled back.

Went to bathroom.

Came back, go straight to her
Me: Hey
Her: Yeah?
Me: You look very familiar. Have you been in <<z university>>?
Her: Hmm, no
Me: Or are you from <<my hometown>>?
Her: No
Me: Hmm, strange, you look like I ve seen you somewhere else
She smiled back. Didn't give me inputs here. It was like the same vibe as with HBDarky. Compliant, but not fully there. Was some kind of autorejection because she saw me with those girls?

Me: Oke
Then I eject. She grabs my arm and squeeze it lightly, like a form of kino. What should I do now?

Back to HBDarky

Banter with her a lil bit
Me:Hey, I ve heard they ll put <<t genre of music>> (I ll have no more letters from alphabet)
Her: Hahah
But she was still vibe

Going to bar to buy a drink. HBBrown was there on a seat. Was next to her, but she was with her back at me. I m sure she saw me, but keep staying on her phone and talking to her friends. Ok. Didn't reopen.

Later with HBDarky
Me: Can I grab your hat?
Her: I don't know what to say
Her: My hair would be tapered down
Me: Oke
Then she grabs her hat and give it to me.
Me: Your hair is fine, no problem
Smiles
Playing around with the hat. Give her back

I m tired. Was thinking about calling it a night, but feels like I wanted to do approaches. They re addictive. Talking to more girls. That's what I ve been focusing on so much, finding opportunities.

HBCookie along with other girls including HBDarky are leaving. I m boucing to a near venue, 3 mins away.

While going there, me and other people were on a dark alley. In front of me were 4 girls which with 2 of them I exchanged some glances along the night.
Each of them turned back when they sensed my presence.

Was thinking of using this as an opener. Maybe like: "I know it's dark, but I ll not do anything to you" or something? I don t know yet. They ve been seeing me talking to girls all night.

Bouncing to the other venue. Still party. Going in. Many girls, guys weren't actually approaching or to see some male-female sets on.

Stayed a little bit, feeling the atmosphere. Saw another brunette, white dress, bit tits out. I want this girl. But she was with her friends, on the couch. How do I preopen. stayed a lil bit, seeing it's surrounded by guys and girls. I think I relied too much on preopen and AIs this night. Didn't do anything at this venue.

Call an Uber, driver's very energic, getting home and slept 4h.

Tbh, I m feeling very proud of myself because I got so much far than I was expecting to, approaches went more easily, girls more receptive, more AIs. Think it's because I was more chilling than ever and outfit.

Few notes:
More intent. More escalation. More isolation. I was more observing this night. As I said, didn't plan to approach, but what the hell, but back in my mind of course I was going for this.
I was also focusing so much on getting opportunities, seeing what I can get from the room. Didn't party and enjoyed myself so much as other times. I don't know if this was good or not, felt a lil' bit more passive, but more focused on girls and getting with them.

Maybe more approaches? The venue wasn't that big. And I got a target since first 20-30 mins, so.
I shouldn't smoke that much.
Spent more money than I planned to.

If you scroll up, even if I ve isolated more girls at other parties, I feel like I made more progress here. Very relaxed, 0 AA.. I don;t know why. Maybe because I did everything more effortlessly. Also, venue was top for this city. One month ago I was thinking what to do. Now I went with the flow. Which is nice, but still felt a lil' bit passive, without a plan. What's the right answer?

Later edit: HBTeacher added me on insta


Hit me,
Alpha13SC

Again when making eye contact or smiling:

1.- how you are going to look at me like that and no say hi! i am skills (you can say i am alpha, but saying skill higher odds, obviously trolling for the autist about the name)
or how you are going to look at me like that and no introduce yourself i am a skills (again better than saying alpha higher odds)

2.- this is more teasing playful, "i saw that, i saw that," she is going to say "what" or "you saw what" , "you were looking at me" if she "says no or denies" you say "yes you were i caught you" if she denies "you say you are doing it right now again" this has to be done super trollish playful tone and acting.... enough of this argument i am skills...