NewBeeWinner: From Rock Bottom to The Stars

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Hey guys,

Went out today (9/1) and did approaches....

and utterly sucked. The first few girls I approached I sucked at my approach and keeping the conversation going in a smooth way. The best conversations I had were with girls who told me "I have a boyfriend" and when I insisted "I don't know how my boyfriend would feel about that" and also a conversation I had with a married woman with 3 kids (husband in the military - this is a military town, after all). One girl I got her to invest and show me a necklace and then she literally just walked away.

I did all my approaches in a few different stores (because that's really the only reliable place I can meet women here). It just shows how not doing approaches for a bit makes you so rusty. Maybe I just need to rethink the best venues for me to find the women I like at..

NBW

 

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Update 9/2:

Hey guys. Completely had a blow up with my parents this morning. Long story short, I got advice and some books to read from my grandparents on building boundaries. Spent the entire day away from my parents and it was nice.

So, my first order of business is to build those boundaries.

Anyways, it's amazing. The desire I have in my heart and mind to get good with women. The pure drive to obtain the one thing I've wanted for so long.

I'm willing to do anything (within reason). Move out to a new town and get my own place? I'll do it (after I graduate and can be smart and afford it). Put in the approaches? I've been and will continue to. Visit new venues and put myself out there? You got it. Study the material and put it to practice? Yes.

I want this more than I want anything. (well, that is to say that becoming an excellent anesthesiology assistant and then working my way towards financial independence - that is my goal in getting my job and then working towards traveling and expanding my social skills in many areas around the world - that's my ultimate goal).

So, I want to start to be way more strategic in my building. I'd self-guess myself intermediateish level. Still make a lot of mistakes and am not as smooth as I could be. I get the level of "technician" on the GC level test. I also need to get women more consistently.

What does this mean? Making tangible goals and following a path for myself and beginning to truly solidify my skills in each step of the seduction process. That's what I'm going to write about next.

NBW

 

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My Plan to Building Seduction Success

For September:

END GOAL: Become smooth and impactful in approaching women and transitioning to the hook point (once at the hook point I'm usually pretty solid on getting numbers) AND to begin doing the readings and homework for the "Technician's Guide" (to implement once they are hooked)

I will come up with something for October when I get there. FOR NOW, I want to get getting to the hook point down solid. What's the point in approaching women if you don't hook them (most of the time)?

I will update as I do the homework. For tonight though, it's time I learn about boundaries

NBW

 

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Important update 9/3:

Did the reading on boundaries today and learned a lot. I'm beginning to realize how much I've failed to have boundaries in my life and for my self and how that's impacted me.

- I've failed to have boundaries with my parents and have blamed them for my poor relationships with others. But its my fault for not setting the boundaries.
- I've failed to address how my youth-group pastor crossed my boundaries and just said yes to his "boundaries" (that are overextending) to avoid losing the relationships
- I've failed to recognize how I've been treating my best friend and how I've failed to respect his boundaries of his time and energy
- I've failed to respect myself and my own boundaries. I've felt guilty for being at the gym or wanting to eat better. But I never followed through. I've wanted to stop masturbating as a coping mechanism for when things go wrong and I mess up something with girls or a major goal in my life. But I keep failing because of my lack of boundaries.
- My desire to move out of my parent's house was driven by a desire to have a sense of control over my life. Not by being smart and having a plan to move out when I was truly ready.
- In my work, I've felt undervalued and underpaid for my job and I've failed to set the right boundaries with myself financially. I took today off because I knew I needed the break and time to figure some things out
- I failed to enforce my own boundaries with my parents and I lost out on relationships because of that. That's my own fault

- I forgave myself for failing so much in the past with women and my life goals. I didn't know better nor was I ready or equipped with the boundaries and skills necessary to make the right choice.

- I thought about why I was also so anxious to meet new women and always felt like I had to be meeting more women. It wasn't out of a sense of obligation or a desire to improve my skills with women. I did it because I was lonely and felt like my skills with women was the one thing I could have control over. Even if the rest of my life was a mess, I could go out and meet a woman and feel everything was OK because that was one thing i had control over.

- I thought about why I was so upset when I was denied sex by women who said they were open to having sex with me. It wasn't a no to sex - it was a no to sex RIGHT NOW. It meant they either A) didn't feel allowed to have sex with me (my attainability) B) didn't see the value in having sex with me (they didn't see me as a lover enough and it meant issues with my value or C) they didn't trust me enough (and I didn't have compliance). So it meant I just needed to spend more time on one of those three and then sex would most likely happen (because "why not?")

This helped me clear up a lot. So, I'm going to change my goals a bit for this month. I want to focus on establishing my boundaries (and yes, I'll still approach women and work on my SKILL of seduction).

NBW

 

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I'm going to put together a "seduction style" based on what I learn from the technician ebook.

 

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Update 9/4/19 -

Didn't get to do an approach at lunch because I sat with a girl friend and worked on homework that we had due right after. But I did go out tonight and approached one girl. Did an indirect opener and then was direct, complimenting her outfit. But I went in feeling she was married (could kind of see a ring on her finger) and she didn't lock in too heavily and walked off. I then walked around the store a bit more and, not seeing anyone, decided to go to the Starbucks across the street where I had seen a cute girl go into earlier. But as I was leaving the store, a very cute blonde walked in. But I didn't want to seem weird having just walked out the store to walk back in and talk to that girl. I should've stopped her when I had the chance (like a street stop). I then went to the Starbucks and that cute girl I saw left the minute I began walking in the Starbucks! There wasn't anyone else I found attractive there and I had to go after a while to get some homework done (which I still need to do...)

OK guys, I'm being ridiculous. Seriously. Tomorrow Im planning to do TWO approaches all the way to getting a date(s) planned for this weekend. Will update when I do that. But really, I need to stop caring so damn much like damn. Who cares if I go back in the store to talk to the girl? I should have the balls to stop her for a second and talk to her. I also should layer my conversations more and focus them more on the emotions. I need to get out of my head. New rule: when I'm out, focus on 100% action. NO THINKING UNTIL IM ALREADY LOCKED IN AND SHE'S HOOKED.

Correction: I need to get out of thinking so much. I'm literally thinking all the time. I need to take a break. No more updates here until I get solid results (except the Technician book updates). My goal for tomorrow and Friday is to ONLY act and focus on what I'm doing. No more thinking (until the end of the day).

NBW

 

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Update 9/5 at 2am:

hey guys. I wanted to write an update because something clicked for me. I woke up horny af at midnight (yay me) and got to thinking.

If I want to get laid, why tf am I making it so hard? The thought I had was: lower my standards. Yeah, not that I havent heard it on GC before, but it finally clicked for me.

Its just sex. Theyre just girls. Nothing crazy special. who cares if shes not super cute? Thats not the goal. Do I want quality women? yeah but I need to build up the experience of getting women in bed and fucking their brains out first.

So: Im lowering my standards. Something about this feels really freeing to me. Like I dont have to be so thoughtful about the girl outside of sex. I want sex from her - thats it. Why get emotionally invested?

Time to talk to a girl and get laid

NBW

 

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Hey guys,

Just quick more thoughts for myself and tracking my progress. I've always been emotionally withdrawn from people, but I do care about them. So with all the people I've met over the years, I've realized something: I got bored. People aren't really all that different from one another.

That's what I've thought. But I realized something. Maybe I'm just not as great of a conversationalist as I thought. I'm not being present enough, guiding the conversation, framing enough, or noticing and capitalizing on high-points well enough (quick aside: I always would ask a girl out when we both were in a good mood, but I realized something with this. I need to capitalize on HER feelings. If she's laughing or smiling or asking more questions THAT is when I ask for compliance (unless I'm opening and getting compliance on the opener for example) and get a number or ask her out. I'm so much more aware of this now that I've thought through my interactions with girls.

And I think this brings up a solid point - timing is EVERYTHING. If she's not ready, or has been ready and you miss it, you're out. If she's feeling good and you don't capitalize on it to move the interaction forward, you're out. I'm realizing this takes a certain detachment from the conversation to notice these things. But only until it becomes natural.

So, instead of viewing talking with others as a waste of time and not wanting to really connect with them, I need to view it as a chance to connect, become pre-selected, and work on my conversational skills. Now, I SHOULD NOT use that as an excuse to talk to a pretty woman if I see her. Or any woman I'd want to talk to for that matter. BUT it does mean I need to see the value in talking to others BESIDES the fact that it takes away from my time to find or search for the next girl to talk to.

Just some thoughts I'm having.

NBW

 

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Hey guys,

This is just another quick rant about the area I live in and how much I hate it so feel free to ignore.

I went out today with the goal of "viewing women as sex objects". Simple enough right?

Well I met one girl on campus, but she had a fiance. I then held back from meeting other girls on my walk to my car for whatever dumb stupid reason. I really need to get over this.

But I was thinking "oh it'll be OK. I'll easily meet two other women tonight". So I go out to all my favorite spots close to me (w/in 10 min). Not a single girl that was single or around my age. The ones that were had their boyfriend or child with them. I went out for 2 hours and didn't run into a single girl to approach. NOT ONE. (ok on my drive back home I saw one hot girl walking her dog but I wasn't about to stop my car in the middle of the street to talk to her). But besides her, I literally did not see a single girl to approach. It wasn't a matter of lowering my standards. It was literally like a ghost town!

The streets were pretty much empty and to go anywhere else it'd be at least a 20-30 minute drive out east or west from me. Either downtown (which I'd have to pay to park so forget that) or another area of town (where you have to drive everywhere to get anywhere anyways).

I hate living here. It's not even a matter of lowering my standards at this point. Its just the simple fact THAT THERE ARE NO GIRLS HERE (at least within a 20 min drive of my parents place). There's girls downtown, but I can only park there for free on the weekends.

I really wish I would've talked to more girls on campus.. (but thanks to the ONE crazy one, it's risky for me to!)

EDIT: I'm going to make the most of it. Every night for 30 minutes before bed, I'm going to work on getting my facial expressions down.

NBW

 

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Update 9/11/2019:

As I said I would, I worked on my facial expressions that night and in the morning. Went into my internship with the "cute and sexy" look on and noticed the girls I work with put their hair back more and small little things. But I also figured out my face muscles aren't used to it, so I had to take a break after a couple of hours.

I also worked on my walk! I was honestly thinking that my walk was fine, but after reading the article I realized I was off. So I spent my entire day walking the gunslinger walk with my shoulders moving and I got a lot more looks and stares. I also walked slower and forced myself to slow down. I actually quite enjoy walking that way! I'm going to keep a conscious effort on it until its natural.

I did one solid approach today on campus. Sat between two girls and opened one. She was pretty cute and I got her to the hook point and deep dived a bit. Got her to show me her necklace. But plot twist! She broke circle and talked with the other girl at the other end of the couch (a fat girl) who I'm guessing was in her classes. I then tried to handle both, but I kept my main focus on the girl I opened. I then realized the fat girl was, as usual, the "gate keeper". So I was like "well fuck". Lol. If the gate keeper doesn't like you, it all goes down hill. So I kept talking and eventually the topic of ice cream came up. I asked if she knew a certain ice cream place and she said no. So I suggested we go sometime (and it was honestly pretty damn natural). But then she said "All I go to is work and school! No where else" and then she acted like she was asleep or whatever by closing her eyes (she had said she didn't get sleep last night). I told her to get out of her comfort zone and reminded that ice cream sounded really good, but she just kept quiet. So after putting social pressure on her to talk for about 30 seconds, I finally got up and said it was nice to meet her and went on my way.

I also met another girl I sat down next to and got her to hook, but I wasn't very sexual with her. But we parted on good terms with her smiling so I'll probably see her again and get a warm reception.

I didn't get a chance to go out after work and classes because I have a couple big homework assignments I needed to work on. I'm honestly slowly but surely feeling more comfortable when talking to other people on campus. I'm also making a serious attempt to only focus on the person I'm talking to and to not break circle first. I've noticed it's done a lot for me in the background.

I've also been trying to view women as sex objects more and am hopefully coming across a bit more sexual because of it. With the girl I approached today, we almost got on the topic of her being sexual, but it didn't continue that way because she said she was jokingly sexual with her mother and brother and I was chill with that but I didn't dive further into it (or redirect like "so what about your friends? ), which is something I should've done.

NBW

 

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Hey guys,

So I met two women on campus today. The first one I sat down at a table next to and I commented on her cool tattoos. She was warm and receptive and we talked a bit. I found out a bit about her and had her show me some of her tattoos. We had great eye contact and I was rubbing her fingers slightly at one point while we were holding eye contact, but I broke it away for whatever reason. Anyways, she showed a lot of attraction so I asked if she'd like to grab a bite or drink sometime. But she said no. She got up and we still had good eye contact and she seemed attracted (playing with her hair, putting it behind her ear). I told her I'd see her around. She then had to go to class and we went our separate ways...

The second one I was with two girls and a guy friend of mine working on homework and she came and sat at the table behind us. My stuff was at the end of her table so I went back there occasionally to get things. We had strong eye contact as well and she also was putting her hair behind her ear. I opened asking if I knew her and she said she had a twin. I then asked her name and commented on her laptop stickers and got her to laugh at a joke, but we didn't get to talk too extensively. After a while, she got up and went to her class (while I was working on homework with the girls). But when she got out and passed by us, she held strong eye contact with me so I think she's still attracted. +1 to social proof. I'll probably see her again on campus.

I then went out tonight to one of my favorite stores to meet good looking women and cold approached horribly. I was nervous and a bit desperate and I'm sure this came across. I also opened a lot with compliments and I have just now, looking back, figured out I don't respond well to girl's responses to my compliments. They say "thanks" or "oh thanks" and then anything I say to follow up feels like I'm trying to force a connection, seems try hard, and makes things feel weird. I hate it when I have an interaction go wrong because of awkward silences or because of an awkward tension because I don't even get a chance to really talk to the girl, meaning I possibly miss out on an amazing person, and it leaves a bad impression on them. I really am hard on myself when things like this happen.

SO instead of doing compliment openers, I'm either going to do one of two things at stores:

1) If I want to go direct, position myself next to them and say "hey" with a smile. Then I'll say "I think you're cute so I thought I'd say hi. I'm James (not my real name but safety)." and then go from there. THEN maybe I can compliment and say "so what brings you to (store name) today?" "oh just browsing? Cool - me too. Want to browse together?" and get my compliance, attraction (from fundamentals and eye contact), and similarity (by walking and talking afterward).

2) Go indirect. (what I should've said from today) "what cool picture frames they have" (she could say "yeah" or "right") and I'd agree "oh definitely. totally my type. what's your name?" then introduce myself and repeat above (so what brings you here? etc. etc.)

I'm SICK AND TIRED of having approaches fall flat because it gets awkward because I don't open and hook smoothly. SO, before I do anything else, I want to go try these out at the store tomorrow (a different store) with 3 girls and see how it goes.

NBW

 

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Update (same night) :

Hey guys. After thinking about the approaches I did this evening, I realized something. While yeah, sometimes compliment openers arent the best choice, theyre one I enjoy. Plus it isnt hard to continue the convo like so:

Me: wow I love how you did your hair
girl: thanks
me: so hows your day going?
girl: good
me: just good? *pause* why not great? *enthusiasm*
girl: well...
etc. etc. etc.

but to be 100% transparent: when I went out tonight, I was stressed, upset, and strung out. I had a fight with my parents because I wanted to get out of the house. Stupidest thing ever right? well it ruined my mood on the drive over and that spilled into my interactions most likely causing my easy frustration, needy-like behavior, and harshness towards myself. I just couldnt relax.

Thats me being honest. Thats the difference between my campus and evening approaches. So in the future, I'll be sure Im in a positive, relaxed state of mind before I begin approaching.

NBW

 

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Update 9/15:

Hey guys. Here's how my weekend went:

- Saturday: I went to the mall and they were doing arm wrestling competitions (cool right?) so everyone was gathering around watching. I positioned myself next to a cute girl and did a situational opener before we got into a nice conversation and we have plans to get coffee sometime (probably next week - we haven't picked a day yet). This was my first successful mall pickup. I then met another girl at the mall and complimented her on her ear rings. But she said she worked there and had just come out to see what the commotion was about, so she then quickly left and returned to work. So overall 2 approaches.

I then went to the bookstore across the street and met 3 additional women. The first was in the business section. I made a comment on her book choices and tried to have a conversation with her, but she didn't turn and face me, give me eye contact, gave one word or sentence responses, and generally ignored me. My conclusion is that she was most likely sexually unavailable.

I then met a woman browsing books and she turned out to be pretty cool. I ended up getting her number and we are going to try to go hiking next Sunday.

Finally, I met a very attractive woman looking at medical books. She was visiting from Spain and was going back on Monday. So I asked her if she'd like to grab a bite or drink sometime and she said she was married and that her husband probably wouldn't like that. After this experience, I came up with telling women "Oh no I'm single and very much enjoy my freedom" in response to the "I have a boyfriend/husband" line. And then if they continue to say no, I'll drop it. So overall, 3 approaches, 1 date/number at the bookstore.

I then went to my friend's house for a house party and met one of his friends that was a girl.She was pretty attractive but nothing ended up happening between us. Still had a fun night out with my friends and spent the night.

Sunday (Today):

Went out with my parents to different stores. Noticed a ton of different women I would've loved to talk to. I then went out on my own to do approaches. I honestly let a lot of chances to approach or talk to a cute girl or woman pass me by and I hate it that I did that. I did meet one girl at a grocery store who goes the same college as me. I got her number, but I don't know how solid of a number it is. She agreed to getting a coffee sometime, but we'll see. I was only out for a bit before my mom began to blow up my phone. I went home and got into a fight with her (again). So I went to Starbucks to do homework and study. At Starbucks, I felt like shit. There was a really cute girl sitting at the table next to me with a guy and we kept making eye contact and I could tell she wanted me to talk to her, but I didn't (because I didn't want my negativity to come out after fighting with my mom). I left, felt like such a piece of shit for not meeting her, went back, and she was gone. I'm now at home with a headache because I have an exam tomorrow and a big assignment to do (fuck homework for using up so much of my life), but I'm not ready. Luckily, I have tomorrow morning free so I'm going to study and do the assignment then. Hopefully, I'll have time to do approaches.

I always kick myself the worst when I don't approach.

Luckily, I have been communicating "jealousy", been using better eye contact and touch, and communicating "fuck society's rules" a lot more, so that's good.

Here's to a better next week.

NBW

 

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Update 9/16:

Met one girl on campus today. I was sitting down studying for an exam and working on a big assignment I had due today and she came and sat at my table across from me. I continued to work and focus on doing my thing and she was working on her math homework. So I finally commented on what she was doing after we exchanged a couple flirting glances with each other and she opened up pretty quickly.

Very strong eye contact and I got her totally talking about herself. She's a single mom with a 3 yr old kid with the father out of the picture (who's apparently a loser). Without giving all the details on her, I had eventually asked about her schedule. She was pretty busy it sounded like and she does photography (which is cool). So I asked if she'd like to grab a drink or bite sometime, since I had enjoyed talking with her, as long as we could both pencil one another in since I'm also busy. She asked me to give her my phone, which I did and she gave me her number. She then asked if I was on Tinder (guessing she saw my profile and I knew her name from somewhere!) and I said yeah I had an account since my buddy talked me into it. But I'm enjoying being single and love the freedom of it.

So I texted her later "hey (name) nice meeting you today " and got a "you too *blushing emoji*" back. She then texted later asking about what my major was (because she did most of the talking lol). So I'm sure she's interested, it'll just be interesting to see how it works logistically.

Since the rest of my morning was filled with studying and working on my assignment, followed by taking said exam and then work right after, I didn't get a chance to meet other girls. I went out tonight to the area around the nearby movie theater, checking the bar next to it (they were pretty much empty since it's past happy hour), then to a store (empty), and finally Starbucks. At Starbucks I sat at the end of a table from a chubbier girl, but she had a decent face. But she was super into her reading and studying so I ended up not talking to her (I should've just to have been social). There was also another woman I wish I would've talked to, but the positioning was weird so I didn't (a lame excuse I know, but she eventually left). So outside of these two good chances I let go, there wasn't many girls I ran into tonight. I have my favorite stores I could've gone to that are guaranteed pretty much to have cute women, but I don't want to go to one place too often.

So that was today. I'm really thinking about getting more into the bar scene and just using Chase's suggestion of "tonic water and lime" and then tipping a couple bucks (since I'm broke) to get into it. So more attempts to go to Happy Hour! That's my new outing location. I'll give it a shot and report back when I can.

NBW

 

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Update 9/20/2019:

Hey guys. I've been quiet these past few days because the girl I went to court with showed her fangs again. Long story short, I'm limiting myself even further on campus just to stay away from this crazy bitch - I can honestly say I hate her. It's affecting my schooling, social life, sex life, dating life, and my ability to be comfortable on campus. As a result, I think I'm just going to have to stick to one building on campus besides my work (for now at least) and any girls I do meet will likely be in that building. I've been doing things a lot more low key and it's honestly killing me because I spend so much time on campus (because I have to) and I'm surrounded by beautiful women I can't touch.

Its like the story of the guy who asked for anything he touches to be turned to gold. He is thrilled but then he goes to touch food to eat and it turns to gold. So he can't eat. The girls are like the food and I'm like the guy - except I can't even touch them.

This girl is just actively searching for me, videoing me, taking pictures of me (yep she's been doing that. sounds like a stalker right? That's what I said). I can't miss out on my education when I'm so close to being done (3 months!).

SO I honestly think I'm going to have to make a dramatic effort to really go out in the evenings to meet women to supplement (volume and quality). I'm still going to keep up on the Technician readings and I have a date today with a girl that lives pretty far away. So i'll post the FR when that happens. I think I'm going to try and see about going back to hers - but I may have to get creative with the logistics and try to lay her in an exotic place (because she's an hour away from me..)

I've been reading on the most recent GC series on relentless pragmatism and I'm thinking about looking more into the classes of seduction and tailoring my own.

NBW

 

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Update 9/20 (night):

Had a date planned for today, but the girl texted that she had family issues come up and that she was really sorry and asked if another day worked better. I said I was sorry to hear that and that yeah we can plan a different day, but I wasn't sure of my schedule so I'd get back to her. She said OK and apologized again and so I told her if It would help her feel better, she can buy my drink and we'll be even. She said it'd be her pleasure. So we'll reschedule her sometime next week.

I went to a group thing my coworker is a part of and it was cool. About 20 people and I knew a few of them already. We had a game night. But it also seemed like a few of the girls were in relationships with the guys so I have to learn who is who first. But I definitely feel a lot of the girls there were attracted to me to some extent so that was good. It was an asian-pacific group so it put me out of my comfort zone just slightly but I quickly warmed up to them.

But I still feel a part of me loves cold approach so much more. So in the future, I may try to go to happy hours and stuff more (than I already do) once I start making my place in this group after a few weeks.

NBW

 

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Update 9/22:

Life Updates (For those interested)

This weekend was honestly pretty docile. Went out with family the other day and kind of did the same thing today (will have to reschedule my Sunday date). Visited a cool museum for free though and reconnected with a family friend we haven't seen in a long time today. My phone has begun dying like crazy so the battery is on its last legs.

I'm going to be looking to buy a new (or refurbished) phone and probably switching providers to 1) get off my parents plan 2) make it more affordable 3) not worry about my phone when I'm out meeting women

I honestly didn't do any approaches this weekend - but I don't feel too bad. Had a lot come up with family issues (me and otherwise), had to reschedule my two dates I planned for this weekend, got to reconnect with people, go to the museum, and watch a movie I've been wanting to see (so yes, I did get out of the house) and now I have homework to do, so I was productive this weekend.

Moving Forward

I'm going to start planning my dates more around being broke (because a lot of my spending has been on going out with friends or on drinks). I also need a new phone and am going to start seriously looking at places I can plan to move to once I graduate. Get my finances a bit more in order. So I'll update in a bit once I get those thoughts down on paper (or this journal lol).

NBW

 

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Update 9/24:

Monday (yesterday) honestly sucked and I came home after work and classes and just slept. Was slightly depressed. Luckily, today (Tuesday) was better. Waking up to work though was super rough. I met one girl on campus today - sat down at the same table she was and started up a conversation. Got her hooked pretty quickly and we had a very smooth conversation - lots of strong eye contact and a definite sexual vibe. But I didn't get her number because I was way to much in my head at the time and we just said we'll see each other around (she has class there in the one building I am allowing myself to go on campus so I'll most likely see her again). Hopefully I'll see her again so I can get her number.

Realizing this dumb dumb mistake I made, I stopped at the dog park by my place after classes (around 5-5:30). I circled around the area just going on a walk and passed by a cute girl with some dogs walking in a circle the opposite direction as me. So we passed once and said hi to each other. Second time around I talked to her more and we got into a pretty solid conversation. The only thing she found out about me was that I do photography, am moving soon, and want to travel more. I, on the other hand, learned a ton about her through deep diving. She's a music teacher, living with a roommate, has kids (but the dad I don't think is in the equation - she's not married), and is really into music, dance, and theater (performance). We walked around in a circle about 3 times just talking and it was a very natural phone number grab - "I really enjoyed talking to you - want to grab a bite or drink sometime?" "Yeah sure!" So I grabbed her number, called her so she had my number, and then I just texted her an ice breaker text. So we'll see how that goes.

I've texted the two girls from last week to reschedule for this week (my Thursday and Friday nights are busy so looks like a weekend date is all I can do - but they don't know that yet).

Like I said, I'm limiting myself to ONE building on campus (besides my work) so I don't run into this crazy girl and get kicked out before I finish my degree. BUT I realized I also can't NOT talk to people so I'm going to meet any women I meet on campus in that building. I find that I have a very high success rate with getting numbers/dates when I naturally join a girl at a table and spark up a conversation from there (so far it's been 100%). I'll then supplement with going out in the evenings when I can to do cold approaches (and doing social circle game with my church group on Thursdays and my coworker's group on Fridays).

NBW

 

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Update 9/28:

Hey guys. Just been busy with life and school and work. Haven't really gotten to go out too much, which sucks, but it's just how things are currently.

So I had to reschedule my two dates (the girl I met at the mall and the single mom) for next week sometime. I have a tentative date with the mall girl either Wednesday or Thursday night now. I also found out the single mom is still with her parents because she can't afford her own place so my plan of going back to hers for coffee went down the drain. She is going to pay for my portion (like the mall girl will) when we do finally go out sometime next week. I'm at a total loss of what to do for logistics besides going for car sex.

I did get another number the other day from a cute woman at the dog park. She was available tonight, but I was planning on going out with the single mom so I told her we'd schedule for next week. When I found out I wouldn't be going out with the single mom today, I texted her (this morning around 11) asking if her plans had changed at all since my evening freed up. She hasn't responded yet so I don't know. (She was super super busy this week apparently so I may just have to plan her in for next week too).

Honestly now my balls are just blue and I'm super freaking horny so that's not fun. I hung out with my cousin a bit today - he's getting a divorce with his wife because he found out she was cheating on him with the neighbor and now she's pregnant with the neighbor's baby. Because of this whole thing and the thing I'm going through with the girl on campus, my dad gave me a whole speech on how it's just better I wait and being abstinent and all that other shit. I'm not buying into it obviously but yeah I get where he's coming from.

Honestly guys I don't think my dating life is going to get anywhere I want it to be until I'm moved out of my parents, I'm on my own, and have my own place. The logistical issue is such a freaking problem and such a hurdle that it just makes everything harder than it really needs to be.

I went out yesterday night (Friday night) with some friends so I didn't really do any approaches either. Now I'm just wanting to meet women, but have all this family stuff going on and all my homework to do, I'm just getting tired of trying so hard and not getting to where I'm going. I know I'll get there and I just have to trust the process, but man it's annoying.

Anyways, will update as things progress. Hope everyone has a great day.

NBW

 

[NewBeeWinner]

Rant:

Hey guys, this is just going to be my putting my thoughts down on paper. I was thinking today of how much I really look at my life right now. Like I look out at the beautiful day and how quickly the days have been going by and I think "what did I really accomplish today?" Now this rant will probably sound conceited and arrogant, but you know what fuck it.

And you know what, I realize how disgusted I am with my life deep down. Don't get me wrong - my life is pretty good and I have many amazing people that are a part of it. But it is no where near what it could be. I love spending time outside, I love meeting people, and I look at my life and realize how simple life can be and how that would be just perfectly fine. Why would I not want a nice job that puts beautiful women in my life, make enough to have a decent place, spend my free time outside and meeting people and making actual connections with people, and then focus on building skills in things that I have an interest in. Why does life have to be so damn complicated all the time?

I was thinking about it because I honestly am so sick of college - I think it really is the biggest piece of bs that is shoved down kids throats. You spend years of your life and thousands of thousands of dollars just so you can make more money in the future. But some of the times, it doesn't even lead to that! Ultimately, that's what it comes down to. But then you go out in the working world and guess what - you're spending on average 40 hours of your week or more (8 hours a day or more) working to make money to have a living - but most of the time, people don't enjoy it and they don't get any value out of their job besides the money they get! It's just disgusting to me. We strive for the next vacation or time we can go out with friends. But college doesn't even prepare you for the real world! They don't teach you how to handle the things that actually matter - how to cook, manage finances, network, meet people, socialize, etc.

Do you really need to make six figures and live in a fucking mansion to be happy? Fuck no (at least I don't). I'd much rather value my time and use it on growing in relationship with the people around me and learning the things I want to learn and doing the things I want to do.

But you know what sickens me the most? And maybe it's because I took the red pill and began to work on myself - but it disgusts me how stale people grow in their life and how they live to just accept whatever the fuck the world told them was their lot. They don't improve, they don't have goals, they don't push themselves or challenge themselves, they live in the same couple hundred square feet for years and years on end, they isolate themselves from everyone else and complain and complain all the time (kind of like what I'm doing ironically lol), and they die miserable or just feeling like they lived the best they could because they never tried to live a life of something greater than what the world told them they could live. How fucking sad.

And god forbid you don't do what everyone else does because you might get hurt. Oh well fuck I'd rather get hurt and grow and see how far I can go than be safe and warm in a little ball and never know how far I could've gone or how amazing my life could've been.

And you know what else that disgusts me? REALLY disgusts me? That people feel like they need to force whatever the fuck good idea they think onto the lives of other people. Parents telling their kids they "need to act this way" or a school telling a kid "you need to only focus on your school" or saying that you just need to wait for the right time or that it wasn't the right time IS BULLSHIT. Keep your own limiting opinions to yourself. If you want to offer helpful and constructive advice to actually improve my life INSTEAD OF BLATANTLY SAYING YOU KNOW WHAT IS BEST AND THAT I NEED TO BLINDLY LISTEN TO WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU SAY, then maybe I'll listen for once. Mind my fucking boundaries because I have a brain and the FREEDOM TO MAKE DECISIONS FOR MYSELF REGARDLESS OF WHETHER OR NOT YOU THINK ITS A GOOD IDEA OR NOT. ITS MY FUCKING DECISION FOR MY OWN LIFE - I HAVE TO LIVE THE CONSEQUENCE OF MY DECISIONS NOT YOU.

In the end of this rant, you know why I use the word "disgusts"? Because it's everything I hate about myself and my current life situation. It's everything I don't want to be.

And that's the most honest any one will ever be.

NBW