Surveying the Topography

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I’m more optimistic than in a long time about my medium term prospects for independence and healing because I’ve now reduced it to a significantly simpler and better defined problem.

It also helps that my parents (primarily my mother) have recently done the most tyrannical thing I can recall from them since I was a minor. I hate them (kind of) and I can’t wait to cut them out of my life (at least for a while).

 

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After several incidents where I correctly picked undervalued or growing stocks and then didn’t put my money where my mouth was, I’m considering getting into investing.

 

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because I’ve now reduced it to a significantly simpler and better defined problem.

So far it feels doable but man, I keep running into physical issues like sleep quality affecting my ability to grind effectively.
I’ve got this though. Mostly. Either I will have a big, beautiful breakthrough, or I’ll get to the same place gradually in a reasonable time frame. Or so I hope.

Thing is, I need to have a hard think about where to go from that point, because right now not having a clear sense of purpose besides freedom and healing is already impacting things. Like yes, I have an awesome business idea that I want to pursue aggressively as soon as I’m functioning near peak capacity, but there’s more to life than making money, and I’m gonna have to face some tough choices.

 

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Today I got myself into a good state. Tomorrow I’m going to spend the whole day taking care of things that need to be taken care of. Wednesday I’m back infield and attending an event. Thursday, two more events planned. Friday, who knows?