As I tried and failed to fall asleep this evening, I realized something.
I've gotten a respectable number of green lights (most of them unsolicited) from girls at college in the past six months.
So why haven't I done something about that? Logistics plays a role. There's more to it than that, of course.
But first, let's do some numbers:
5 green lights (3 classmates, 2 outside class)
Excuses for not closing:
a) Inability or unwillingness to build sufficient rapport etc.: 2 (both fairly similar cases)
b) Wild cards, insufficient investment from both sides, and impending personal difficulties: 1
c) Not interested in having sex with her: 2 (also similar to each other) + 1 under a)
These were only the obvious cases. There may have been others where I didn't fully understand where things stood.
2 green lights so far (both classmates)
I don't intend to pursue either of them, despite having just gone through a period of extreme horniness, and obviously wanting feminine solace for emotional reasons as well.
One of them I simply find unappetizing, although last class I had the first convo of any length with her and she seems like a decent person. But, among other things, she was wearing ridiculous edgy thigh highs that left impressions and showed me that I wasn't missing much. Just not my type.
The other is all right personality and looks wise, and seems to be interested in me (altho that might expire), but we haven't vibed that much and I don't feel comfortable with her for some reason (actually might post a thread because it's interesting). If I was an experienced seducer, I'd probably go ahead anyway though because why not?
As someone said recently here, most young studs do as many ugly or otherwise unappealing girls as beautiful ones.
That's not who I am. I don't think it ever will be. I don't see a point wasting time, energy, attention, and vulnerability on people of any gender who aren't worth it.
I think this is my main non-logistics sticking point actually. I screen a lot for intangibles, personality, etc. And for now, I'm screening pretty tightly. No plans to change that.
Now, obviously there are several girls I'm interested in (even with "post-nut clarity"), and legions more whom I haven't met yet. But those aren't the type who are going to pursue me (at least until I've made another year or so of progress in all areas).
Which means I have to learn how to pursue better. And I'm learning. I'd like to learn faster. But I'm still hamstrung by logistics and my personal life is chaotic right now (at least my state is OK).
In three or four weeks, I hope to have gotten my act together and finally be on the right track. Progress continues, but the going isn't easy.
And when I've built a base and a baseline that are actually satisfactory, it will only make all those hotties wetter down there.
For now, nose to the grindstone. I'm making progress with retention (relative to the winter, anyway). Other areas are good. In general, the short-term outlook is still in flux, but the long-term indicators just keep improving.
I want nothing more than to be sleeping soundly in a sorority bedroom after a threesome right now. But...There. Is. No. Free. Lunch. I'm not like the AFCs who fail to understand that. All in good time...